Private Domain

2005-12-12T17:28:00.000+07:00

Fly Daddy Fly　｢フライ，ダデイ、フライ」

Movie review again and this time is the movie that I have been anticipating to see since summer, at last they release it on DVD. Fly daddy Fly was a movie based on a book written by Kazuki Kaneshiro whom also wrote the script. The story evolved around a happy salaryman, Suzuki Hajime (Tsusumi Shinichi) who has a daughter still in high school Suzuki Naruka(Nanase Hoshii) and a beautiful wife Suzuki Yuko(Mire Aika). One day, Hajime Suzuki got a call from a hospital informing that her daughter was badly abused and beaten. Later he found out that another student from all boys'high school called Ishihara Yusuke (Genki Sudoh) was the one who responsible for everything. Hajime was a man who dislike to confront at people as he did nothing to defend her daughter. His family of course was so disappointed to find the man of the house acting so coward. Knowing that his family started to refuse talking to him Hajime decided to challenged Ishihara however he entered the wrong school and met Shunshin Park (okada Junichi) and his friend, ended up being punched by Shunshin. Hajime was then offered by Shunshin's friends Minakata (Toshinobu Minobu,)Yamashita (Sakamoto Makoto), Kayano (Aoki Munetaka) and Itarashiki (Hirose Yoshinobu)to be trained by Shunshin for 40 days and challenged Ishihara on one on one fight, since they got nothing better to do in the long summer holiday. Hajime agreed to the offer and the training began.

The story of this movie is simple and yet it touched me and made me laughed at the same time. The transition of Hajime's character to change from a timid salaryman into a tougher person was perfectly played by Tsusumi Shinichi, that's no doubt of course. Give him any character and he will just shine. Adding the success of this movie was no other that Okada Junichi who was absolutely briliant playing a korean guy who lost his father during his teenager years only to live with his mother whom he hardly met at home. Shunshin was a tough person who has a dark background and the harshness of life he has to face as a foreigner, luckily he got a gang of loyal friends whom practically worship him like a God for he's the cool and tough dude who can fight so well. Little thing was thought in the movie, for example about the actual life in Japan concerning the worn out salaryman coming home every day from work forgetting of their own life. Hajime has to ride a bus from the train station to reach home, where he actually meet group of the same salaryman bearing the same monontonous and tiring life. None of them talked to each other and this had been going on everyday, even the bus driver was somewhat annoyed with the fact that his passangers never talked to each other. Until one day, Hajime decided to run from the bus station to home instead of taking the bus, that amazed the rest of the passangers and because of him they started to talk. This movie won't be that interesting if it's not because of the presence of Shushin's supporters/Friends played hilariously shinning Toshinobu, Sakamoto, Aoki and Hirose. Strangely because of this too, Hajime and Shunshin grew a bond of father and son, shushin found a father figure that he had lost while Hajime found a new son that he had never had.

I have no idea how to give the bad point of view of this movie, maybe I want to know more Shunshin's park background instead of merely a plain conversation with Hajime one day about what makes him acting so tough like this and the fact that he only saw a note from his mother every night about his dinner instead of meeting her. Hm, but that would be out of context of the whole point of this movie which basically focused on Hajime. I have not read the book so I cannot tell any thing different whether Kaneshiro did make anything different than the one he wrote on the book.

Every film has the most memorable quote right? Ok, only great film has memorable quote, in this movie there are some line.."大切なものを守りたいんだろう？おっさん。(Taisetsu na mono o mamoritain darou, ossan? roughly translated =You want to protect your most precious thing right Ossan? Ossan=oyaji, or dad..literally when you call a middle age guy) and Of course...飛べ、おっさん,飛べ！ (Tobe..ossan, tobe =Fly Daddy Fly!) How could I miss these lines? It's so memorable. The DVD was released in two edition as usual and has no substitle and you can check the official website here:
Fly Daddy Fly. From my deepest thought, Tsusumi shinichi deserve an award for this role and that also goes to Okada for being a great supporting actor there. I am not being biased because I am a fan of both but I'm seriously saying this because they're so good. The movie is a treat and it's also worth buying if you ever want to collect it.

FLY DADDY FLY

2005-12-12T17:26:00.000+07:00

Kanjani8 SPIRITS!

2005-11-30T19:45:00.000+07:00

KANJANI 8 SPIRITS!

This is the first time that I make review of a DVD concert usually I always do J-movies or any movies. Anyway, there's no harm to review a concert especially when the band is consisted of eight wonderful and energetic boys. Spirit DVD concert is the second DVD ever released by Kanjani 8, another boyband fabricated by Johnny Kitagawa having eight members (Yokoyama Yu, Shibutani Subaru, Murakami Shingo, Maruyama Ryuhei, Yasuda Shota, Nishikido Ryo, Uchi Hiroki, Ohkura Tadayoshi) all of them from Kansai area (Of course all JE freaks know about this perhaps better than me). There are differences between the First Concert (Excite!) and this one. The first one obviously we won't be able to see Uchi Hiroki due to his suspension and the second one is the Stage, a very big difference than the one I saw for Excite! concert. The stage has more lights, wide and big making them freely to run around, twirl or just do some funny stuffs, even the costumes though less feathery but it still gave that Johnny's glittery feeling to it.

Now, how about their performance? Frankly speaking, they are not the best singer in the world but they can sing and also they are really entertaining especially when doing the MC part. In my opinion, doing MC is one of the crucial parts to show how great you can entertain the audience and Kanjani8 passed it with flying colours. You cannot miss how the surprising duo of Maruyama and Subaru do a spontaneous Manzai act. It came unexpected even by their fellow members making Hina (murakami) called them Tensai (genius). The most unforgettable lines from Maruyama and Subaru was the "Pudding Punch!" line that managed to make me laugh in tears. Yes, let's not forget how this duo also did the Okahan and Oyaji part, Maruyama with his afro wig and Subaru with the silly fake glasses and moustache. Ok, now move on with the singing part. Finally I can hear them singing individually or at least not in a big group which gave me the chance to get to know each of their voices and how good they are in a solo performance. It's not fair to say that this member has more talent than the other. All that I can say that each have their own uniqueness to show. Ryo and his catchy dance music and Michael Jackson-like performance was a good show, however in my personal opinion I like Kanjimi band (Ohkura on drum, Yassan on guitar and Maruyama on bass) with their soothing harmonious voices combined with a perky song suitable for their personality. Another plus of this concert was the musical Fighting Scene using a song called "Let's Fight!" which gradually has become their national anthem during the concert because I saw it popped randomly here and there afterward as the concert continued and it cracked me up big time too. Do pay attention to Yokoyama's expression when one of the kansai jr boys said "Yokoyama-kun uta heta ya na!" (Yokoyama-kun, you have a bad voice), it was one of the priceless moment to see his expression changes.

Everyone did get the chance to show off their ability to sing in either solo or duet part (watch the great duo part of Yassan/Ohkura and Yoko/Hina). I almost forgot that Ohkura did make a solo performance on his drumming and I can see that this guy fascinates me more even though he's the most silent one among the eight. He has surprised me with his great voice and now more on his drumming ability. For another of my personal opinion, I think Yassan has the best voice in Kanjani 8 and I hope to see his solo part in the near future. It is so effortless for Yassan to hit the high notes be it while he's playing his guitar or not. Still, one have to admit what makes us quickly recognize 'that's Kanjani 8!' is Subaru Shibutani, his voice is unique though sometimes it can be out of tune when he's singing live (please don't throw rocks at me Subaru fans..) but it's him that branded the uniqueness of Kanjani8. There is one song that I've never heard before it's called 'Osaka Romanesque' in the concert and it's a beautiful song hopefully it will be included in their next single release.

On with my review again, I came across the thought of some members who stole the thunder in this concert, namely, Maruyama, Subaru, Yokoyama and Yassan which is why I mentioned them especially. Don't get me wrong, overall performance of the group was excellent however I can still hear some slight out of tune and that's natural because they were just exhausted after jumping, running, dancing, singing and just prancing around on stage for more than two hours for the sake of their fans. Otsukaresama deshita.

What the DVD offers you? It has 2 disc the first one has their concert performances 33 songs and 3 very entertaining and witty MCs, a small booklets containing their concert photoshot and a sticker of each of the members (how cute). The second disc contained the making of Sukiyanen PV and the promotional CM too. I have watched this Concert DVD for more than 5 times now ever since I got it last week (usually this only happens to V6 and SMAP concert and I think I can add another Jr's group). It may be less glamorous than Kat-tun but it sure is entertaning throughout and you won't miss the fun there from them. I believe to make a good concert you don't really need too much glittery, feathery costumes to begin with, what you need is how you can bring the crowd to join the fun and that's what the down to earth Kanjani8 has succeeded in this SPIRIT concerts! Yes, the Spirit of Kanjani8.

Mayonaka Yaji -san Kita-san

2005-10-14T17:47:00.000+07:00

Mayonaka Yaji-san Kita-san

I don't give a fuck if someone tries to make a similar blog like mine. This blog is for blabbing about Movies and music or whatever really TURNS me ON..hahaha..

This is the most interesting movie I watched this month. It's gay, hilarious, surreal and extremely mad. What is it all about? I have no idea how Kankuro Kudo came out with this unbelieavable original of story telling. I was wondering whether he was on crack when he made this one? based on Jippensha Ikku's classic novel Tokkaidochu Hizakurige but he adapted in unbelievable and unthinkable way ....here this..hahah..(I love this movie)

The story focus on two gay couples Yajirobe (Tomoya Nagase) and Kitahachi (Nakamura Shichinosuke) who are just dead loser. Yajirobe was almost lost his sanity due to his nightmare that he always had at night while Kitahachi was a drug addict and an unemployed actor who was just so helplessly incureable with his habbit of taking drugs. One day, Yaji found a letter that said 'Go to Issei Shrine' and you will find heaven. Yes, he said to his lover Kita that they should embark on a journey to go there and who knows it might cure Kita from his drug dependency. So, is that all? No..expect the unexpected. Yaji and Kita took off stradling with a harley davidson motorcycle to go there until they got stopped by a police with chonmage hairstyle and riding a motorbike too (played by shushumu Terajima) and told them to go on foot since motorbike it's not even invented.

Anyhow, these two lovely gay couple ended up walking for their journey to Issei and they arrived in 'Inn of Laugh' (Warratte no Inn). All people who want to get a pass has to get a permit from the gatekeeper (played very well by Takeuchi Rikki, yes he's now chubbier but still good looking). They met a manzai who also a drug addict and he lost his partner who's also his son, whom he named as Sandwich. Ok, there's a stupid line that I could not get rid off from this drug addict manzai. He said, he used to partner with his wife and he named the duo, Hot and Hotter. After that his son is born and ended up up naming the groupd Hot, Hotter and Hottest. However, his wife died and he ended up naming the group as Hot Sandwich. (LOL..haaha..WTF?).

The journey did not stop there. Next stop is Inn of Songs where the tranvestite keeper always serve his guest by singing because it would clear out the clouds surrounding Fuji-sama (mt. Fuji). Actually all the villagers there sings to help the clouds clear out still, the inn keeper is upset because his cute daughter cute not sing a bloody tune. Yaji and Kita helped her to be able to sing and the FUN part is Yaji and Kita composed a song and it became a TOP 10 hit..hahahaha..(at that era, they did sell record? lol). Thanks to them she can sing well and too bad, Kita realized that he's in love with her but the girl loves Yaji. This is freakingly bizarre..LMAO. However, Yaji apparently did something bad in the past and it was connected to the death of his wife. Yaji is apparently being followed by two police guys who investigated the murder of his wife. Everything started to unfold before they end up in the last stop the Inns of King where the two gay lover will meet King Arthur?

I have not laughed so hard this month but after watching this and Gokusen 1 Special (save the ramble later for Gokusen 1 special). Ok, you will meet so many surprising actors guest appearing in this movie. Namely, Koike Eiko (as Yaji's wife), Satoshi Tsumabuki (hahaha..what the heck?), Namase Katsuhisa (as the police guy), and Yamaguchi Satoshi (the tranvestite keeper). Actually there are others but I could only recognize them.

What i have to say about this movie is the originality and the way Kankuro Kudo whom I think he's obviously on crack when he made this, adapted the story into this wild and controversial unimaginable film. I was surprised to see Tomoya kissed Shichinosuke passionately and I was off guard and did not expect that. SHOCK? yes but then I laughed and shivered at the same time. Still, they chemistry between those two actors are really good. Tomoya showed how he was so caring and attentive toward Shichinosuke which made me believe that he might dump Ayumi for him. Yes, go on with your wild imagination. Right what else do I have to say, about this movie that manage to make me in awe and speechless. I seriously lost any way to comment on Kankuro's Briliant idea. The movie did remind me of Rocky Horror Picture Show perhaps because of the gay theme being brought up there. Another thing that this movie offers is the musical venue trait. All the catchy music and funny lyrics also did not fail to make me laugh.
So, if you're curious to know what the heck is going on in this Bizarre and controversial movie just give it a shot to watch it.

2005-09-13T16:56:00.000+07:00

　DEVILMAN or known as　"デバルマン"

Ok, this movie is an adaptation of Manga (correct me if I'm wrong ok?) which probably has been highly anticipated by those otakus (lol).As for me, I'm just a curious person to know what the heck is going on this movie. Let's start of with the plot shall we? (before I bombardize everything there mwahahahaha)AND THIS Shall be long

There were two kids raised by a professor, more like a project lab, Akira Fudoh (Hisato Izaki) and Ryo Asuka (Yusuke Izaki) but later on they were raised in a different foster family. Akira is the meek, shy and smart student type who got a crush with his foster sister Miki Makimura (Ayana Sakai). Of course Akira is Ryo best friend, but unlike Akira, Ryo was raised in a rich a family and he was very mean, cool and heartless. Despite the differences, they remain friends for life. One day Ryo told Akira about a bad news in the lab of where they used to become rat lab. So they came there and to Akira's surprise he saw the professor was eaten by some monster which later was explaind by Ryo that the monster was actually the DEVIL. As Akira opened the door trying to save the professor, he got the devil virus thus turned him into 'DEVILMAN'. Unlike any other demon virus who infected the human thus making them more devil, Akira managed to retain his human feelings. The first time he turned into devilman he already has to face a demon, thus the first fight began. The first random demon was dead but that demon called him "Amon". Akira also saw that his bestfriend changed his form into something but far more beautiful an Angel-like which amazed him.

Another surprised attack came when Akira met Selene (played Ai Tominaga-supermodel). She kept calling Akira by Amon too but then she disappeared after that (I was actually waiting for her to appear again because she seemed to be an interesting part to keep me a bit awake). The world became so ever chaotic since there are so many demons walking around eating people alive and rumsacking the whole world. The Goverment then decided to form "DEMON BUSTER" whoever suspected as Demon must be destroyed. The most dangerous among the demons was actually "SATAN". Who is satan? Heck you could've guessed who right? The short message of this movie was basic..it's a battle between good and evil.

BASHING TIME!!

OMG! This superhero theme could've been better if it were given by the right director, scriptwriter and also fighting choreographer. Even the CG are so cheesy it makes it look like I'm watching my brother playing Play Station. First of all, why the heck the Izaki twins didn't get prepared properly in acting. To be honest, their acting is really bad and I didn't even see any changes in their expression be it sad, mad or just plain silent. I think these two twins have the potential in acting but they're not properly prepared..ie. just send them to acting school already.
(But they are good singers regardles...hehehe..)

The plot is so bad and it wasn't developed properly here and there. Why should the Selene and Amon dispute be left hanging there? It should've been given more spot. Also the meek girl who turned into demon Mico played by Asuka Shibuya, why wasn't her character being told enough? There was so many questions in my head when I watched it. The plot kept on skipping here and there rushing to be done. If you really wish to see a cheesy superhero movie, you might want to consider this movie.

Plus the final battle between Devilman/Amon? and Satan could've been done so dramatic that might drench your emotion at the end. Instead it made me went like, "When is this movie going to be over?" What's with the Cheesy CG effect?

Another thing that makes me laughing my butt off was BOb Sapp? Why the heck he was there? He's not even an actor?! I think the director Hiroyuki Nasu is his fan? Last but not least that former sumo wrestler..gosh I forgot his name also appeared for a second. He opened the door..and then was gun shot! That made my eyes clear out a bit for a fit laugh.

I've never read the Manga or the original anime series, I think Hiroyuki Nasu has raped everything there and made this supposedly to be a good movie become so awful (glares at George clooney's Batman failure). Anyway, by the time the movie ended I was so relief and felt, at last, I can turn my bed lamp and forget about it. LoL. Damn, I was fooled with the trailer..BUMMER!

2005-09-07T13:25:00.000+07:00

FANTASTIPO!!!

I bought this DVD a month ago and has finally managed to see it just recently. This is the first ever Taichi Kokubun (Tokio)and Tsuyoshi Dohmoto (Kinki Kids)star in a movie. I think this movie was never released in any theather in Japan,instead it went straight to DVD format like Hard Luck Hero (V6). Most of you have known the song called "Fantastipo" it was a great song which make you nod or even dance with it. So, what about the movie? Surprisingly it's interesting. At least it makes my eyes wide open rather than watching 'Devilman' (Izaki twins from Flame boyband).

Toraji (kokubun) and Haiji(dohmoto) are brothers who are raised in a rich family where their father owned a mineral water company called 'Armadilo'. Toraji has been the Father's favorite while Haiji has never been in good terms with the father. So, both worked in the same company, however they never realized how painful it is to grow up without a mother and how hard to be an adult. Their father also have to deal with how to raise them well particularly dealing with Haiji, he even joined a club who helped fathers dealt with their second son (LMAO). Toraji, being the eldest, has never realized that he's actually should face the reality of being an adult. For years Toraji just so hooked up with his own little world and refused to grow up. While Haiji has to deal on how to face his father and also a strange feeling that he has with his father's employee, an eccentric woman working as the PR of armadilo.

I find this movie very interesting to watch. Despite the same old story line of father and sons problem and how to handle life.. there's something more than that. I think it's how the story being told. There is one thing that I don't like about this movie though, it's their STRANGE Monsterly PET called TOM. I'm seriously saying it is a monster. Their father got that pet from a Chinese mafia and it was very vicious and nobody could tame it. Well, no one knows that Haiji actually knows how to deal with Tom who is actually not vicious if one knows how to handle it. Those who loves Johnny's jr should watch this but those who don't know who the heck Johnny's jr is just go watch it.

I don't waste my money to buy Fantastipo but I DID waste my time and money buying 'DEVILMAN'. Damn, the story could've been better. The Script could've been done better. Izaki twins should be directed better because those twins got potential. I will blab about how bad devilman is later.

2005-08-22T11:08:00.000+07:00

pickup: Still- Foo Fighters.

ほんま？！ロレライＤＶＤ有るか？！ぜったい買うなければならない！！
このＤＶＤはずっと待ちことがあります。それで、今日から多分三週後で私はいっぱい仕事しています。忙しいたら、エギプートへ旅行よていはキャンセルなければならない。しょがないな、いつも時間があるから。少なくともお金を救うことができる。

I'm still a bit tired because of yesterday's activity. I went to my late grandmother's sort of plantation. She got ponds, lots of trees, nursery plant and some little houses here and there. Of course that requires a hella maintenance and expenses to maintain those things. Sometimes that place is used for people to gather for some function. There's a biggest house with so many rooms there fit for hmm, maybe a hundred people. Anyway, it's a freaking big 30 hectare of land *sweats*. If you like fishing we have a big pond where you can do fishing there (heck sure you got to pay unless you go with me)To be honest, I don't particularly like going there because it is too hot. I was sweating all over you know. Gosh! the sun must've hate me that much. I don't pretty much hate insect (it depends actually), and it was quite enjoyable to see dragonflies flying around there, I squatted to observe a spider web with one eyebrow raised as I wonder where the heck was the spider.

Oh yeah, random..I bought foo fighters' latest album it was fabulous! it got two cds the first cd contains hardrock, headbanging stuffs where it helps your adrenaline to raise, especially when you're pissed off at someone..lol. The other one is ever so smooth full of accoustic guitar. Dave grohl's voice is so soothing especially when he did a duet with Norah Jones in a song called "Virginia Moon". I love this album! I believe this is the best album from Foo Fighters. I called to buy 'Azumi 2' and I think I will buy that tomoya nagase's gay film instead. I would not want to miss Kankuro Kudo strange and interesting creativity. hahaha..I'm imagining Kisarazu cat's eyes full of gays and crazy people. I want to see tomoya acting gay. 私はともやと言うのよ！LMAO..cannot imagine if he says that.lol..so gay.

2005-08-12T09:58:00.000+07:00

Mood:just weird
Pickup:rinnie highlight-Riina Shingo

This is a random entry..really random that I'd like to throw things from my thought.
I think Riina Shingo is the most talented female artiste in Japanese music scene. She has an endless creativity. Put her in Jazz mood, rock or even contemporary pop/rock, it always fits in her. Salute to you. I couldn't have thought any female J-artiste that I'm most admired. She's on top of my list.

Anyway, I'm not ranting about her now. What I will rant today is another J-movie that I watched last week. It is called "笑の大学校”(warai no daigaku lit. means University of Laugh). It is set during WW II in Japan. The movie only focused on two actors and it was originally a playwright written by Mitani Koki. So there's this nervous playwright Tsubaki Hajime (Goro Inagaki) who had a written a parody of Romeo Juliet for a comedy troupe that he was employed. However during that WW II period, everything was so strict. Tsubaki has to face the humorless censorship office who has never laughed before in his whole life, Sasaki-san (Yakusho Koji). At first, his creation was rejected because it had a western setting and Tsubaki had to change everything. It had to be adjusted to Japanese including names, set, costume etc. Of course it gave him a headache.

(goro inagaki (front) Koji Yakusho (on the back with black suits)

The most interesting part was when Tsubaki got to continously change the script everytime he submitted to Sasaki-san. There the witty comments between actors were thrown here and there. I laughed almost throughout the movie. It is amazing to see two brilliant actors occupying 2hrs movie without making your eyes flip and fall asleep. I was amazed with Goro Inagaki who could match veteran actor, Koji Yakusho's acting. If I have to rate this movie I should give it 4.5 stars! Brilliant. Don't worry you can buy or rent the movie, since it's available with English subs :)

Right, other than this I finally update Unofficial Jin. I made a translation about his first confession to a girl, hehehe. It was cute if you're interested to read you can go to the link I just gave. I know it's been a long time. I should've done it a long time ago. *slap myself*.

Another important one, this is gotta be such a hideous and inhumane incident I've heard this month. There's a girl who got raped in her flat and the rapist is still being hunted down now. Thanks Jen for giving me the link of her pics. Seriously, I want the person who was responsible for this incident to be condemned in jail for life so he could no longer have any freedom and feel guilty for the rest of his life. She was raped and her throat was slashed and this culprit ran away with some of her money. Girls, just be careful..no matter you trust a person, especially man don't let him take any advantage alright. I suspect, this case might be one of those date rape cases however the victim got killed in the end. Remember, I know you check out some guys at random places exchange phones, address etc but please just be careful. It is suspected that the victim knew the killer that's why she let him in her flat. Honestly, I won't let any of random male friends to hang out in my room..not ever unless he's my brother, my relatives, serious b/f, or he's gay (lol). I may sound so conservative but hey, it's a precautionary measure yo!

So that's it for now..this is just my random entry XD

2005-08-05T16:16:00.000+07:00

mood:calm
pickup:Milky Way - Towa Tei

I saw Towa Tei's album "Sound of Museum" I have no idea whether I should buy it or not. So I put it back on the shelves again and now I'm almost banging my head because the more I thought about it the more I want it. However, about couple of hours ago, I just pre-ordered Jazztronik latest album hmm, I didn't accomplish my previous desire to buy Towa Tei, instead I bought a completely different artist..I could've added Towa Tei in the cart but No, I didn't. Blame on my fetishness toward Johnny's jr. I added Arashi on my shopping cart. Oh well, how about your old favorite group The Boom? Damn, yeah, that too..I forgot. I just postpone to buy The Boom album.

I got nothing to review at the moment but just a news to share about Miyake Ken of V6, which some of my friends would have known about this already, that he got picked to star in a movie called "親指さがし”(oyayubi sagashi lit. means. searching for thumb), based on a popular horror novel made by a famous novelist Yamada-san (I couldn't be bothered to look romanized his name..lol). They picked miyake because of his expression and purity that matches the lead character in the book. Of course Miyake is very honoured to be picked for this role and this is by all mean his first time to star in a film independently. I was wondering why can't he be picked in a drama or comedy movie like Okada, why horror? Oh well, anyway, who knows if this movie can make a great success next summer (the schedule for the release), his name will be big. I hope it could also bring a great Hype like the RING and it could even make Miyake's name known internationally. Woah, that's just a thought. I know Miyake wants to be recognized in Hollywood, maybe this is a path? Fingerscrossed. 彼の希望が実現したら、何と楽しいでしょか。それでは来年の夏が映画を見に行きたいです！

2005-08-02T16:13:00.000+07:00

Mood: Numb
Pickup: Stem -Riina Shingo

I've been meaning to see some interesting J-movies that I really would like to see. I guess i could make a list of three from now.

1. Fly Daddy Fly
2. Hold Up Down
3. Himiko.

I guess the first tow has no doubt been mentioned a lot of times especially to those who are familiar with Johnny's Jr. I would not miss Junichi Okada's latest movie with Tsusumi Shinichi in Fly daddy Fly and also Okada with the rest of his fellow V6 members. But I've missed my other favorite actor's movie update. How could I miss Odagiri Joe's latest movie in "Himiko" with my favorite actress Kou Shibasaki. This is the site if you interested to check out the site..Himiko

Kou played an office girl 24 years old who received a guest in the middle of the rain. A handsome guy (odagiri Joe) who actually was her father's boyfriend. Later on she arrived in a mansion (more like a hotel) who was owned by her father and the story goes on from there. Yup, Joe plays as a gay guy. How many gay guy role did he play before this one? I recall him playing that gay kabuki killer in "azumi" and now this one. Hmm, playing gay role has been quite a trend lately. I know that Tomoya Nagase did a gay role in a film made by Kankuro Kudo (I'm aching to buy the DVD but I'm broke now, so I have to wait). It's Kankuro Kudo so expect wacky stunts..this guy has made me laughed since Kisarazu cat's eye, Go and Tiger&Dragon so I bet the one with Tomoya would be as crazy as his previous works.

Ok..there's nothing interesting about my personal life at the moment aside from still trying to recover from my bad flu..*cough*. I've been wearing a mask at the office and at home to prevent more outbreak. Gosh, I gotta spray my room everyday with antibacterial spray, God knows if it's work or not but You gotta try right? Anyhow, that's about it. Oh yeah, my trip to Egypt is getting closer..man..I think I'm really heading there early next month. Woah, that's the only thing that I'm looking forward at the moment (I hope I can go..I mean I hope my office let me go on leave for 12 days). Jeez, I really have to recover from this awful flu first.

2005-07-27T15:20:00.000+07:00

気分：どんどん元気になって
音楽：クイズ女性

マジで！！SMAP アルブムは来てしまいした、よかった。家に何もしているんですけど、ブログはただひとつ方のすまない日を過ぎた。
ok back to SMAP. This time I would like to highlight their album. Right, So my two years waiting of their latest album has been paid off very well. I was utterly suprised with the colour of music they offer in this album. I noticed that one of their old songs was being remixed by MJ Cole..yes, everyone who knows UK garage music would definitely familiar with MJ Cole that Garage DJ..(gosh I love his work "Crazy Love"). Aside from that there's a song where I believe that the music and lyric were composed by that famous duo 'Pizzicatto Five' since the nuance, rhytm and everything mixed in it was so similar to Pizzicatto Five. The song is called "クイズの女性 (kuizu no josei)’　or literally translated as "Woman's Quiz". Seriously the lyrics really made me laugh..LMAO since it's about man in general who got confused with woman's mind who constantly ask question..lol. Let me try to translate it some other time. Especially when Shingo say this out loud.."それでは問題です！(sorede ha mondai desu)” (So, it's a problem..-roughly translated) and also Goro "その答えてよろしですね！(sono kotae yoroshi desu ne)”（is that answer ok to you?).

The album is enriched with variety style of music and to much of my surprise they sing one song in English. I immediately recognized the best pronounciation in English was delivered by Takuya (yeah, him the one who is blessed with everything..jeez..luv you always) and then Shingo and Tsuyopon came to second. They don't sound Engrishy ok, maybe Nakai doesn't sound too well but that was ok to my ear anyway. SMAP over 22 songs 13 songs in CD 1 (SAMPLE BANG) and 4 song mixes in CD 2 (High BANG) and 3 other in CD 3 (Kaizoku BANG). So if you bought their album you practically got three CD. I got four since I also bought their Single (SMAP BANG!BANG!). I would say that the album also give you a feel good feeling. It's good for you who is in the middle of depress mode and got this album it might lift your mood.

Haha..the cover has a pirate theme, that really reminds me of KAT-TUN's last year concert where they pick the theme as pirate and also Esthero's recod pink pirate. What's with this pirate thing anyway..lol..XD . I always like SMAP's cover lately ..make that since their BIRDMAN album, they didn't show the boyband image and the cover is getting cool as the years have passed.

Now, I'm not going to compare which album would be the best is it SMAP or V6? I cannot tell at the moment. I know that UTAO-UTAO is good but it doesn't give me that 'bang!' feeling like 'Woah this is great!'. I like 'Drivin' song though still it's not their main single hit. Anyway, I hope V6 could also give a great feeling in their album like SMAP. I'm still surprised with SMAP ability though, they have disappeared for two years without giving any big sensation every now (not even a PV for their latest single 'say what you will') and then just keeping their low profile and doing their day to day job (tv drama, some random movie, variety show) but they still manage to keep that "BANG...TADA!!! We have arrived with a great album to offer" kind of feeling. So V6...let's hope that you do give that sensation too. Don't disappoint me. I'm an objective fan here. If you give a lousy job I would say it honestly but if you give a great job I would do the same. Don't worry no matter what kind of judgment made by me, I'm still a big supporter of Johnny's Jr talent but I'm just being objective and will stay objective.

I actually want to ramble some other musicians other than Johnny's Jr..ie. Homemade Kazoku, D-51 and pornograffitti. But that would be next time when I got the mood again to ramble about Jpop music. Ok, I need to rest again ..my eyes are getting heavier..it must've been the medicine.

2005-07-26T15:34:00.000+07:00

気分:気持ちが悪い
音楽：Run　for you life -Esthero feat. Jarvis

I really hate sore throat. I could not sleep last night until 3:00 am in morning. I had another weird Johnny's Jr dream again thanks to Summary concert that I watched before I went to bed.
Apparently I went on a summer holiday with Kat-tun and News and I was their teacher. There I sat under a big parasol with Koki Tanaka trying to learn English from me and random Kat-tun members running around on the back and in front of me while NEWS members were playing beach volleyball. Yes,everyone, they're practically half naked and I was the only woman not too mention way older than them. So, after that I heard some quarelling as I directed my binocular right to the location I saw YamaP and Masu pushing around. Woah, I was so dead mad and I ran toward them and yelled "お前ら！やまてほがいいよ！”　Don't you think I sound like some Lady Thug? "お前ら？”どう言ったのかなあ？本当に分からないんで、それは夢だったよ(笑）。　Anyway, after that I spoke in English like there's no tomorrow yelling at them and I recalled that I slapped Yamap and Masu's head while they kept on bowing. I did recall that the rest of News and Kattun members were holding their laughter looking at me especially Jin and Koki. That's all I know, damn..why? it's two days in a row now...lol.

Woah, I received so many goodies this week. Yesterday I got some Animes and mixed songs from Jen and today I got 'mintere' from Liss. Girls, thanks a lot...お疲れ様でした！。 Btw, thanks for the song from Esthero Jen, you were right "run for your life" is so funny. I should put up the lyric in this blog next time so that everyone can read it. That song is dedicated to stupid fangirl..especially atata..lol she's still around and ranting like jealous idiot about Oshio Manabu's latest Wuxia drama. She hated that Oshio is paired with Tammy Chen yi rong. So what, bimbo? it's only a drama can you live with it? Dear me..yes she's still alive and trying to fit in at any thread..please do "welcome her. " Oh Zaza, if you manage to read this entry you will be surprised that your number one enemy is still alive. LoL

By the way, I took this pic in Singapore..it's at Wheelock place :) it's actually colored but I desaturated the color and made it into black and white and added a lense flare on top to make it dramatic.

I'm just an amateur...oh yeah I was using Nikon Coolpix 5200, 5.1 Megapixels. This camera has not failed to disappoint me so far.

2005-07-25T10:15:00.000+07:00

Mood: sick-sore throat..bleah
pickup: Color Me - W-inds

I don't like weather changes. You get hot temp and then cools off again with rain plus going back and forth with airplane is not a good thing either especially for an early flight..bleah even if it's a short flight. Look at me now, I'm so exhausted and I got sore throat.

Oh yeah, I bought 'W-inds' new album Ageha..finally. I'm pretty surprised that this album has given them a touch of 'mature' feeling. I noticed some of the 'sexy tunes and lyrics' in 'Lil' crazy' and 'color me' (those are my favorites..and it appeared that those are written with the same composer called 'Alice Ice'). To be honest, this new album is the best album from W-inds and they no longer sound like some kids. So the trio has grown up and that makes me getting older, LoL.

Alright there's a weird dream that I had last night and it involves Masayuki Sakamoto and Junichi Okada of V6 (I mentioned this shortly in jdorama but I will give more details here). There's nothing juicy about the dream but more like making me say 'WTF?'. Right it started that I was walking around in central london and then I bumped into Masa who happened to have lost his way and asking people direction but his English was suck so no one sort of could help him out until he bumped me. He was glad that I speak a bit of Japanese and thanked me. However, I was being nasty I knew him and I pestered him to sing a song for me. He kept on refusing that he's Masayuki and denied that he could sing. I was not giving up and then came random cute Japanese dude who joined along to pester him. Masayuki kept on saying '何で二人とも？やめて下さいよ！歌をできません！’　While that Japanese dude and me pestered him by saying ’冗談だよ！あなたはV6のメンーバ、ですね、だから私たちは歌を見たいな！’
At the end he gave up but he dragged me to sing along with him and I could not remember what song we sang..LMAO.

I thought the dream stopped there but I was wrong, later on I was walking along near west end area in London and then someone accidentally almost walked through me with a hooted jacket. He apologized in Japanese and I replied. He got surprised. As he took off the hoot I noticed it was Okada..LMAO. He told me that he stayed in a hotel somewhere close there. I was like ok? yeah right..lol. After that I could not remember what happened next with Okada and I. LoL. This is just weird. Is it because of Ma-kun birthday? LMAO. Oh yeah, anyway..’マ君、お誕生日おめでとうございます！’　

Side note, I would like to say thank you for the package Jen..it has arrived safely. Woah, you sent me a lot of stuffs..!!

2005-07-21T14:11:00.000+07:00

mood: unbelievably Sleepy
pickup: Roll - Porno Graffitti

I'm seriously sleepy today. I catch the first flight back home today. I recalled that the sun hasn't come up yet. My seat was next to the window and the sunrise almost blinded my eyes (damn!). Anyhow, not much that I'd like to say except that I got the items that I wanted last week.

1. LV bag
2. 70-300 mm camera lense (Tamron brand)
3. Polarize Filter
4. UV Filter

Mission accomplished. So what's next? Preparing for my next travelling trip. Yes, I'd rather spend my money for travelling rather than clubbing every now and then. I just want to see the world before I die. I'm still young and able to do it so I just don't want to lose my chance. I see this as an investment of experience in life where you can tell everyone that the world is not always fill with you and your own narrow surrounding i.e your little boring place of where you live. Right, I think I might going to doze off and crash on my own laptop since my head keeps on nodding away. I have to save myself now..*sweats*.

2005-07-14T15:53:00.000+07:00

music -"I wanna show you my love" -Namie Amuro

Right, I did say that I want to buy Kodak Z740 right? Ok, I think I need to scratch that in my list since I got a cooler version of 5 Megapixel camera from Nikon. I think my father has been too generous to me lately. He gave me Nikon 5200 Coolpix which cost as much as that Kodak Z740 plus my elder brother doesn't seem to use his Nikon 5400 Coolpix which cost a whole lot more than the other one. So I got more than I wanted? That means I got three cool cameras for FREE? This is so unbelievable!

1. Nikon F55
2. Nikon 5200 Coolpix
3. Nikon 5400 Coolpix

Meaning, I will only need to buy a lense with wider angle for my Nikon SLR camera woo hoo! Great I can save my money for other purpose like buying this LV bag?

Antigua Cabas Louis Vuitton made of canvas (price..I don't want to mention) which is good for my travelling purpose. *mwahahahaha* Looks like that I'm so preparing for travelling this coming September. Anyway, I love you Father! hahaha..he's so supportive with this photography hobby since he's also a photography freaks XD!

2005-07-13T16:44:00.000+07:00

Reaching to Chapter 11 of Bankruptcy soon...

As much as I love to go to Japan again but I would also like to go to another place. Well, the world is too big to only contained Japan and where you live right? I basically obssesed to travel the world, being a travel journalist and photographer at the same time that was actually one of my obsessions. Too bad, this world is not always made with nice fruitcakes and the taste of sweet sugar. I know money is not everything but it means a lot when you want something. So long as you want something that thing called 'money' would play a big part. Anyhow, I'm close to decide whether I'm really going to Egypt and Turkey this Autumn. Japan has to wait until next year, so I guess I might as well save my dollars for "桜咲け”in other word.."Cherry blossom". This means that I will what US law called 'chapter eleven'. LoL. Why? because not only my travelling expenses will go sky high, I'm currently thinking of buying a new Digital Camera Kodak Z740 which would cost me US$ 400 (that includes the printer dock so I can personally print my picture).

I've neglected my Jin Akanishi project lately, shame on me. Please be patient since I'm doing this alone without any help. Just as I predicted, Jin will hit the showbiz big time. You know what, I always dream of writing the unauthorized biography of Johnny boy's. I bet I would sell it big! If only there's a road to reach there. I would gladly write it all in English XD

V6 and a chubbier Junichi

2005-07-07T17:01:00.000+07:00

V6 HAS DONE IT AGAIN WITH A GREAT SONG!!

Anyway, I did say that my most favorite V6's song is 'Yasei no Hana' right? Ok, I would take that back. I think one of their latest songs (available in the regular edition of their CD single)called "Drivin'" has got to be the best one yet. Bravo V6, you have not disappointed me for all these 10 years of you guys being together. I am curious to know the meaning of the song, since I believe there's a deep meaning to it than just 'drivin' (like formula F1 driver. To be honest the song really gives that kind of drivin in the fastlane feeling). So anyhow, I am giving a spare time in between my lunch hour at the office to translate the lyrics. Well, I call it a rough translation btw, since I might be making some mistakes here and there. Forgive me, Japanese grammar and the idioms are not yet my day-to-day menu. But, in order to improve one must try right?

DRIVIN'

さっきまでのハイな気分を引き止めてるものは何？

sakki made no HAI na kibun wo hikitometeru mono wa nani?

What kind of high feeling just now that holds me back?

“まだまだこれから”って瞬間に常に付きまとう

"mada mada kore kara" tte (toki) ni tsune ni tsukimatou

You always suddenly said “hang on”

勝手気ままな性格を縛り付けるものはなに？

katte kimama na seikaku wo shibaritsukeru mono wa nani?

What makes me to have this selfish feeling that binds me together?

全然平気なわけないじゃんむしろ急がなきゃ

zenzen heiki na wake nai jan mushiro isoganakya

I don’t feel calm but hectic

逃げ込むより本当は抜け出したいんだろう？

nigekomu yori honto wa nukedashitai n' darou?

Rather than sneaking out from the truth, maybe we should escape?

嘘くさい現実から今すぐ

uso kusai genjitsu kara imasugu

immediately escape from the lie and reality

＊君を乗せ。。。風を連れ*

kimi wo nose... kaze wo tsure...

I take you as my passenger, with the wind blowing

追い越　憂鬱な日常のBorderline.

oikosu yuu'utsu na hibi no Borderline

surpassing the borderline of everyday blues

もう止められない流線型のDRIVE

mou tomerarenai ryuusenkei no Drive

Never stop driving like a streamline

真直ぐに真直ぐに

massugu ni... massugu ni...

straight up ahead, straight up ahead

本能　だけ　知って　いる　TURNING　POINT

honnou dake ga shitte iru Turning Point

Only instinct that knows the Turning Point

高速でつかめ　突き抜ける自由

kousoku de tsukame tsukinukeru jiyuu

At a high speed we reach to penetrate our freedom

どことなく苛立つ自分をなだめても出口はない

dokotonaku iradatsu jibun wo nadametemo deguchi wa nai

I'm irritated that the exit door is nowhere to be found

どっちつかずの優しさは多分今日限り

docchitsukazu no yasashisa wa tabun kyou kagiri

maybe today uncertain kindness has a limit

それとなくこだわるB.G.M.漂う空気を借りて

soretonaku kodawaru B.G.M tadayou kuuki wo karite

Casually stick to B.G.M drifting with borrowing air

渋滞中のビミョーな関係マジで進みたい

juutai juu no bimyou na kankei maji de susumitai

Delayed in a subtle relationship, do you really want to go forward?

キモチイイだけなら何でもありじゃない？

kimochi ii dake nara nan demo ari ja nai?

If there’s only good feeling, is it anything like that existed

それ以上望むことがホンキさ？

sore ijou nozomu koto ga honki sa?

your desire is truly beyond expectation?

君を乗せ闇を斬り

kimi wo nose... yami wo kiri...

I take you as my passenger, breaking through the darkness

露な感情を照らすHEADLIGHT

arawana kanjou wo terasu Headlight

The headlight illuminates your straightforwardness

もう戻れない進行形のUS

mou modorenai shinkoukei no Us

As we go steady and never comeback

真直ぐに　真直ぐに

massugu ni... massugu ni...

straight up ahead, straight up ahead

行けるとこまで行けばいいんだ

ikeru toko made ikeba ii n' da

It is good to get up from bed and leave

その先のコタエソコにしかない

sono saki no kotae soko ni shikanai

the answer ahead is nowhere but only from that place

After knowing roughly about what's going on there, I feel like jumping in the car with them in an convertible and just drive endlessly reaching the borderless horizon. Oh, dear, am I turning into some melancholic bitch here? LoL. Anyway, I am glad that after waiting for so long for their new single, they really release a good quality song (aside from the happy, chirpy 'UTAO-UTAO' sand the slow feel good feeling 'haresugita sora'). Thumbs up V6, keep on your good work. So, I'm expecting a great album to be released by you. Don't disappoint me guys.

Btw, so glad that I noticed Junichi Okada has put a bit on weight so he's no longer a scrawny little boy. Take a good look at this Vodafone's ad (his cheeks are chubbier)

Side news, at last I can now listen to SMAP new album and single which will be released in 27 July. I've pre-ordered it. Like I said before Summer always makes me bankrupt..*sigh*. So SMAP, I hope you also give your fan your good work. Cannot wait!!

2005-07-04T15:16:00.000+07:00

mood:tired
pickup:Drivin -V6

I'm so tired since last week. Well, it was quite hectic. In a last minute,my boss wanted me to go to Singapore for Business trip bringing "Dog Bollocks" box full of materials for the conference. It was endless meeting with potential clients..*sweats* I'm so tired now. Luckily I managed to drop by at Kinokuniya to buy some magazines before I went home.

Today is Jen. She's turning 25 years old and at the same time Jin Akanishi of Kat-tun also celebrates his birthday. Oh yeah, I forgot, Miyake Ken and Tom Cruise also celebrate their birthday in July (Tom is 42 this 3 July while Ken is 26 this 2 July). Of course US independence day is on the 4th of July too. Hmm..so many people celebrates their birthday this month (*cough..let's not forget Sakamoto too at the end of this month and my lovely cousin).

Anyhow, not much had happened last week. I'm not over Christian Bale yet..he's spawning my head. Oh yeah, at last I received these following CDs:

1. Esthero's Album
2. Kinki Kids' Single "Velvet"
3. Michihiro Kuroda's single "Yakusoku"
4. V6's single (with their huge ass poster) - "Utao-Utao"

I have to say ..those songs KICK ASS!! now I'm just going to enjoy them in full blast! Before I go, *cough* (clearing my throat) I have to admit that BSB's have made a wonderful come back. They've proven that their album is worthy and well-deserved come back. Though I'm not too keen with "Incomplete" but other songs have given me profound impression. Hey, I've never given any compliment to any US boyband but when I do I deliver an objective point of view. Welcome back BSB!

2005-06-27T11:26:00.000+07:00

Mood:giddy
Pickup: Ocean Games

I cannot believe I watched "Batman Begins" twice!. That movie was absolutely amazing!I think Christian Bale is the perfect actor to play Bruce Wayne who had complex character because of his past. To be honest, I've been Christian Bale's fan since I saw him the first time in "Empire of the Sun". He's a year older than me (born in January 30, 1974, in Pembrokeshire, UK)and he played that role when he was 14 years old. I was absolutely stunned with his acting ability. Ok, other than his talent this young man is also blessed with the look, height, totally awesome body and of course brain. Another plus from him, he is now a well-trained martial artiste. I just love seeing him swinging Samurai's sword. I wonder he would actually could replace Tom Cruise in the "Last Samurai". I think koyuki would look better standing next to him than Tom. No fence Tom, I also like you it's just that Bale is taller I mean way taller than you. He stands 6'2 which makes him the perfect fit of Batman who actually stands around that height. (hmm..why do I always have the thing either with British dude actor/singer or Japanese dude actor/singer..lol*slap myself*). Hmm..he could be the future James Bond, if he ever got offered for that role say in another 10-12 years from now?

How could I not love this guy? lol..btw, he just recently becomes a daddy in March 2005. His wife, Sibbi has delivered a lovely daughter. Congratulations. Should I start to include Christian Bale in my stress relief fanfic making? hmm..Him and Hayden should be considered because they're worthy to be included in my Hunkdom fantasy silly fanfic.

ボ二タ！夢　を　目お覚ませ！！　最近　は　本当　夢想か　に　なった　と　思う。クリスチアンーベイルに　憧れる　咎めってくださいよ。彼は　カリスマ　が　いるから、彼の　魅力な　で　誰でも　引きつけった。

Damn!I'm being all giddy again! blame it on Christian! I am a Balehead now, Officially! Ok, add that to Hayden and the rest of Johnny's Jr. LoL.

2005-06-24T19:17:00.000+07:00

気分：　気まぐれな
pickup: Speed of Sound-Coldplay

今朝　財布　は　わすれった。　本当　に　頭　が　たくさん　に　考えっていっていた　と　思うんです。
私　は　突然　カバン　の　なか　で　チェックした。しまった！！！財布！！赤西　仁　の　少年　クラのジュニア　ハイ　スクール　スケッチ　は　同じだった　ね。やっぱり　ばかにし　に　なった　じやないか.それで　家　に　戻って、会社　に　遅い　着いた。弁護士の　会社　は　９ to ５　の　オフイス　時間　が　ありません　ですけど　会社　に　おそい　着いたら　大丈夫　です。よかった　ね。　弁護士に働くって　は　まだラッキ　が　ありましょね。何　を　考えって　よ？　なんか　わたしの　悪いの　日　じゃないかな。　

ああ！　アネゴ　の　最後の　エピソード　は　「ハピ　エンヂング」　で　見たいなと思う。

私　は　なにも　気分　が　書きます　ので、みじかいな　エントリ　つくたんだ。
今日の　エントリ　は　いじょう　です。日本語　の　タイピング　が　始めてんですけど　間違った　の　日本語文法　は　本当　に　もしわけごじませんで

2005-06-23T15:05:00.000+07:00

mood: devious
pickup: style -Jet set production feat. Jo Laundry

Electro-jazz is got to be one of the coolest music styles I've ever heard. It's soothing, hype and it will take you to a better mood. I'm in the middle of jazzing here at work and suddenly I just feel like blogging a bit and leave my work for couple of minutes. I just got informed by my colleague that the project is pending for today due to my client being kept busy of doing census of the fruits over the plantation that they want to buy. Can you imagine around 30 hectare area of land with many fresh fruit bunch on it. I don't know how they have to do all the counting, maybe it's more like one tree (hahahaha..) two trees (hahahaha..) tree trees (hahaha..), it sound like Countdracula in Sesame Street, remember him? That won't do, it would take forever.

Oh yeah, everybody has been talking about Shounen Club 19 June 2005 episode. I got to admit that must've been the best SC I've ever watched. It's freaking funny because Kanjani 8 is there with Kat-tun. It was the first time I saw Ryo and Jin doing a duet? but I don't see any warm feeling between them. Do I sense rivalry there? Why is Ryo enjoying to have more enemies than friends? Is it me or am I the only one who feels that those praise he threw to Akanishi Jin was just artificial? I was thinking that they were doing some artificial flattery.

Another one..is it me again? I just thought Maruyama Ryuhei is getting hotter? Not too mention he is awfully funny. He should hang out with Shingo Katori of SMAP to get more craziness and hotness. So I say the funniest of the younger johnny's jr including looks and fit body is got to be Maruyama Ryuhei of Kanjani 8..give him big applause!!! (btw he plays bass guitar..too)

Ok, I think I might going bankrupt because of buying CD frenzies!! blame it on Summer. They release almost everything in Summer. I'm glad that SMAP's new album won't be released this summer(I heard they're going to release a new album this year..it's about time eh?). I've pre-ordered Esthero's new album and has just placed Glay/Exile's collaboration single in my amazon.co.jp's shopping cart. I'm expecting V6's Utao-Utao to arrive at my house (congratulation for topping the Oricon Chart again, you guys should be thankful to your dorky V6 faithful fan), oh yeah I also just ordered Michihiro Kuroda that I recently discovered that he's hot and he sings very well (welcome to my hunkdom domain in my brain). Ok, that's it from now. I think I ate too much sugar today..(shame on you cakes..) my brain is bouncy! that's not good I might think evil thoughts...lol

2005-06-21T20:16:00.000+07:00

mood:Evil
pickup: Original Version -Esthero

Call me a bitch or whatever but I'm glad I get rid off a bimbo. I've no idea why is it so hard for her to understand that 'we don't want you here, go away'.
I guess you can call me 'bitchy'. Please bear in mind, when I do it I have purpose and reason. I don't randomly bitch around at people who has no reason. If I give warning on something that's because I was doing my job as a mod. Maybe this thick headed girl doesn't realize that. She called me as a person who likes to give warning? LoL. I am doing my freaking job as a mod. She is a true blue bimbo.
Thank God that she said 'bye for good!'

Let me inhale and exhale first. Ok, now the good part for today I would like to say Thank you so much to Nermal for sending me Inocchi's book. Big hug from me. I've yet to read that book of course with Kanji dictionary next to me. I bet I won't understand fully what's going on there..heheh..my Kanji is not great but I can live by it.

Another THANK You to Liss for allowing me to use her screencaps of 'minna no terebi' in my current project to build 'unofficial Jin website' and also for intending to burn me and send me the shows..woah..you girls are great! I don't know how to repay you at the moment but I am thinking of something for sure.

2005-06-19T14:20:00.000+07:00

mood: calm
pickup: Isobel- Bjork

I cannot believe that I have to get up early this Sunday. I almost forgot that one of my relatives was getting married. I rushed things to be ready. It's a small wedding compare to my brother who were like attended by hundreds of guests..I mean I'm talking like 800 guests there while this one perhaps only 50 guests or so. So it was not tiring at all. At least I got free BRUNCH from Four Season hotel..hehehee.

Finally, I manage to find Bjork album, Medula. That album is so minimalist as in almost not involving any instrument. And I really have to thank to Jen for introducing me Esthero. I got hook immediately after that. What's the news to share here, aside that Masayuki Sakamoto of V6 is finally going to tie the knot at the end of this year with ex-momusu Yuko Nakazawa, which actually kind of relieving cause I thought he was gay since I've never heard him having any affair with any women or even get caught by the press like Inocchi and Seto..LMAO..so sorry. I'm such a bad fan *slap myself*. It's about time that Johnny's office gives the freedom to their artistes to have their life. So, you girls who has a huge crush on Johnny boys why not aim at them since now they're allowed to date. Should I be thinking of getting married too? LoL...:P I've not been whoring around for quite long. The market is not really good as slow as dow jones, Nikkei or even Han Seng in Korea. What am I talking about here?

Oh yeah, I'm craving to buy this camera "leica" brand type MP Silver 0.72 (Okada Junichi got one too but the classic one..then again he's rich so he can get what he want..I really like to steal his camera though..*cough*) and also I might thinking of going to Egypt this year. DAMN, what about Japan? now, I'm definitely confused. Me and my hobby. I'm so bored here and I couldn't focus on anything especially at work. I have so many things that I want. I want to buy a new laptop, camera and travelling. About Leica camera? well if I cannot afford it, maybe I stick to Nikon, Canon or Olympus (Leica costs at least US$ 1,000). It's better than nothing right. Seriously going to steal Okada's camera ..lol..

Btw, my internet connection has been acting like S**** lately. It just suddenly lost its connection, blink-blink..damn ADSL. I've paid a lot for that all I got this week is extreme low signal!! Grrr. How am I going to finish my website project...that Unofficial Jin website. It's not even half done. I have to do some short introduction of each member before I can official open it. I don't think I will include picture gallery because I know some people might direct linking stuff. Beside my Jin's website is free and only have 1GB bandwith (couldn't be bothered to pay US$ 4.95 each month).

Another random one, I hope Brad Pitt and Angelina Jolie got married, that would be a complete marrying season for this year. I love to see them get together (they're just made for each other in my opinion). Ok, that's wrap of nonsense for this week.

2005-06-13T13:34:00.000+07:00

mood: contemplative
Pickup: Your name Never Gone - Chemistry

First of all, I would like to thank you girls for all the condolences. My grandmother was very influential in my life. She was part of my heart and always will be. I have actually tried to prepare this thing to happen earlier. She has been very sick for the past few months and it made me sad to see her lying in the hospital bed with so many equipment to support her heart, or more like to support her life. I could not bare to see it and visiting her gave me great pain too. She left me and her beloved family in peace. I wonder to myself if I could grow old like her and be a very good person like her. I saw her picture when she was 68 and to the present day before she passed away, she hardly changed one bit. I realize one thing, no matter how prepare we are to face this situation, we end up sad at the end, shedding tears and sobbing to the departed. I'm trying to move on now and also helped my mother to move on and I thought I changed my previous gloomy layout with something a little bit cheerful. I still miss my grandmother and she will be forever in my heart. I've been through many things for the past three years and this is the toughest. Just like standing in the ocean waves, I have to be the little boat ready to face another big wave. I hope I can stand big waves. Perhaps I should try to be a great surfer in this life.

2005-06-09T18:15:00.000+07:00

Ode to the Depart..

I thank you for everything
Little thing that you taught me
Giving me hope to face the world

I thank you for everything
Showing me the meaning of life
Giving me the hope of love

I thank you for everything
Guiding me under your wing
Giving me the will in believing

Dedicated to my grandmother..departed June 9, 2005 always in loving memory.
I'm always be forever grateful to you.

2005-05-31T10:23:00.000+07:00

Mood: toki doki shiawase ni natte
pickup: Feel Good Inc - Gorillaz

I wake up this morning and all of sudden I yelled "Shigoto wa zettai Kiraida!!!" and kicked a chair in front of me (not a hard kick though just a lame one, LMAO). I have no idea what has gotten me this morning, then I stretched my back a bit and went to the bathroom to take a shower. Even though I am not so passionate with my job I consider myself lucky to have this position compared to the less fortunate people who are struggling to get job. So forgive me God for speaking so ungrateful this morning hehehe..*slap myself* That's just me and I do admit I'm having my early 30's crisis..LOL. If any of you are currently watching that dorama called 'Anego' you will know what I mean. I seriously admit that I could connect to Ryoko Shinohara's character except for the hunks (hmm, I need the hunk to just add up everything, yeah right, dream on). Given to the fact of my unhappiness and happiness mixed into one, I'm still able to laugh at myself. At least I am not full of contradictions here in what I do and say, meaning I still have my own principle and view. Come to think of it, no matter how dull this life can be, I can at least taste different flavor each day, though most of the time I describe it like vanilla Ice cream flavour where I got confused whether it's good or not because to me vanilla Ice cream is like a white paper uncontaminated with any taste except plain sweet flavour with no tingling feeling in it.

BUT at least last week I tasted different flavours. It taste like Ice cream Sundae with Cherry on top that's because I had a short trip to Bali last weekend with my colleagues from the office. Only 3 days 2 nights but it felt great. I went to SPA for aromatherapy massage and foot therapy massage for whole 3 freaking hours, cycling like there's no tomorrow and swimming it's really reviving but it's not enough because it was only a freaking short trip. Of course I did some relaxing reading at Starbuck. It's American invasion I tell ya, starbuck is everywhere I think before you know it Starbuck might open a branch down in the amazonian forest within no time, served by the amazonian women..lmao. I bring Jin along to BALI (not the real Jin of course he's just being my bookmark LoL).

This is the view of KUTA BEACH..how lovely isn't it? Does that make you want to welcome this year's summer? Go run there and play with the wave, feel the cool breeze

and this is a view taken right outside the balcony of the hotel where I stayed.

Last week I should consider myself lucky to have another vacation this year, that makes two vacations that I had, though none of them can be considered as long vacation. Hmm, this makes me think of planning another vacation this year, meaning I got to save more.

I did buy another book however this time it's literature book. It's called "The Togakushi Legend Murders" by Yasuo Uchida, Amazon.com also sells this book and I've checked. I am a sucker for murder mystery and contemporary writing. Well, I do love romance but just don't persuade me to buy Nicholas Spark, he's not my cup of tea at all though I must admit that for a guy he is just dead romantic. Shame on you Nicholas for making girls cry like a river. So I hope I can finish this one in a week too, I think that's not ambitious since I have been reading quite a lot of books lately. I have no idea how much money I have spent for books, magazines and CDs (that includes DVD and VCD), sorry to say they're like part of my life.

Oh yeah one more thing, I want to praise a new rock band called The Rooster from UK (damn, I feel like promoting them and I'm not even their manager). I saw them live in Pop Jam (Thank God Yuka is no longer hosting that show), what a superb band. They remind me a bit of Aerosmith on softer side of course. Hahaha, I am actually more of a rock chick when it comes to western music. I have no idea why I became boyband fetish when it comes to Jpop or even kpop..LMAO. This is my contradictive side i guess. One moment I dance around with SMAP or V6 the next day I just nod my head listening to some rock music. Come on guys, just try to listen to The Rooster! They are bloody great. I should say they're the next great things round up with Franz Ferdinand and Keane as a newcomer from good ol' Britain. I did mention that UK is where the cool bands live. So giving the choice which country should I want to stay..where to cool bands live or where the irresistable boyband live? I wish I have the power to gather those two into one pot, hahaha..like that ever happened. Johnny's Jr meet Brit Rock bands...I wonder what it might turn out.

2005-05-26T10:54:00.000+07:00

Mood: calm
Pickup: Volcano - Damien Rice

I'm turning to my old habbit that is being drawned by books. I think I've been reading different novels each week. I don't know whether you call it good or not. Because, books can cost a lot too and time consuming to read so I've wasted my time for the sake of reading above anything else. I cannot make this blog into some booker review or something. However, reading books have given me more drive to write hard boiled ideas in my brain. I usually have been writting some silly fanfic for my own musing. I do have some real ideas for a contemporary writing which I have laid stuck in my head for such a long time.

My recommendation to read for this week is a book by Japanese Author, Ryu Murakami. It's called "In the Miso Soup". I'm nearly finished reading this one but one thing for sure I learned something more about Japan and how that country is actually full of contradiction which have kept me so interested to search for his writings. I was surprised that he was actually the one who written "69", the novel that have been put into major motion picture starring Masanobu Ando and Tsumabuki Satoshi.

Despite the fact that Japan is one of the richest country in the world, it did leave me wondering why for such rich country like that has made the people so f**** up. As Murakami has described in the book that girls are willing to sell themselve for a mere Louis Vuitton bag. I'm talking about School Girls who are willing to accompany some 'jiji Os-san' to go to Karaoke or movie for the sake of money so that they can buy things that they want. This is only small bit parts of what the writter is trying to convey aside from the actual plot of Young Kenji (20) who work for 'Sex Guide Tour' who received a 'gaijin' client from US to guide him to see all the Pleasureland tour. He suspected that his client is actually a murderer of a teenager occurred a night before.

I am not going to reveal more about what's inside that book. If any of you are interested why not search in Amazon.com. It's available there.

Now, about my life. Nothing happened really except that I've been watching some Horror DVD lately which I've found it rather silly. Let see, if I should put it, I don't see why "BLADE" can be considered as horror. The first Blade was good but not the rest. I was thinking why the producer even bother to make the trilogy one is enough adding another two is too much. I don't find "Whitenoise" to be scary and quite moronic. It's a good thing that Michael Keaton perfomed it very well or else it could not be saved at all. "Hide and Seek" starring Robert De Niro and Dakota Fanning is one thing that I should say worth to watch. Both are good actors, the story itself was compelling and unpredictable until near the end. Still none of them have made me hide my face under my pillow, it's not scary enough. Maybe I better stick with Japanese Horror movie, they're better in making one although I could see that they're not big in terms of budget, but it made Hollywood eagerly making the remakes (RING, JU-ON and recently Dark Water).

How could i forget, Star Wars III. I know how it would end anyway but I still want to watch the transformation of Anakin Skywalker falling into the dark side of the Force. You definitely have to admit that Hayden Christensen is not one of those actors that only sell his face and body (also watch him in other movie, life is a house, shattered glass); he has more to offer than his greek god face like. Woah, you got to see this Star Wars III, after I watched it, it made me watched the trilogy after that prequel trilogy. I cannot blab much about the movie since I know not all of you have watched it. So, I just keep the suspense to myself.

He does remind me of James Dean for some unknown reason. Oh well, Bless Hayden for being given talent, look and brain.

2005-05-18T12:48:00.000+07:00

Pickup: 100 Heures- DJ sonic
Mood: Thrifty

I need paradise

What am I going to say here? I know I'm in the middle of pms but I could not be bothered to make any entry with anger. I recalled what master Yoda said "Fear leads to Anger, Anger leads to Hate, Hate leads to suffering." So I don't want to add my suffering today although I had not so good morning. I skipped coffee instead I drank something healthier, Green Tea. I did not know what hits me I just suddenly remembered my old flat in UK :P

I used to live right at the corner part of the building and it is near the football field, St James Park. I know that I should've stalked those hunky footballers but nah, I skip. I actually got the chance to take a sneak peak at David Beckham while he was practicing there for his team's match against Newcastle United then again I didn't do it. I'm not a football fan. Hahaha, seriously when I said that to my flatmates they went "Are you serious?" I said "Yes I am. Sorry guys, I'm just not interested." Maybe I miss England or is it because of my dear cousin will move from Philadelphia to London this autumn. I did say that I might visit her in Spring Next year. I'm in dilemma now, I also said to Tammy that we should synchronize our schedule to go meet each other in Japan. Anyway, whatever my pocket tells me.
Speaking of Japan, I read in An-An May Edition (Miho is on the cover) that there's a cafe called "Limapuluh" in Aoyama, Tokyo (limapuluh means fifty or go jyu in Japanese). I was curious to know the owner, oh not surprising it's owned by a malaysian. I asked Corinne who apparently lived in Tokyo she said that she's been there and the place was nice however the prices were quite dear. But I just love their interior..Check this out..it's so cozy!!

Are you girls still thinking of dining with one of those Johnny's jr boys? LoL, if you do manage to hook up with them ask them to take you there (just my two cents).Get cozy with the boys, talk about random things..or if we're taking on the reality side, just got with your friends or your love ones to that place. I've never been to that cafe but I will definitely check it out when I go back to Tokyo again. Btw, it is located at this address: La Place Aoyama, 3-13-21 Minami-Aoyama, Minato-ku. Tel: 03-3401-1193. Open daily 11am-11:30pm (L.O. 10:15pm). Nearest stn: Omotesando their website is Limapuluh

Spring/Summer is here..I feel the breeze already (wait did I just say feel the breeze? almost sounded like V6's song) Anyhow, I know you are imagining yourself somewhere beyond reality why not take this moment imagining you walking on the Beach in Bahamas like this pic (btw, I really love the dress :p it's designed by one of my favorite designers, Tara Jarmon)

and walking hand in hand with Jin..lol..what say you? Hmmm..

or with hunky korean dude...Song Seung Hun..hahaha..

Oh yeah..I will forget that I have hayfever during this cruel summer if I can feel the breeze with Jin or Song (slap myself..earth calling Bonita, go back to earth, I repeat go back to earth)..LMAO. Before I have to go back to reality again and work before I ever reach paradise I would like to add another junk in this very random and junky entry..lol..yeup some quizes that represent ME...LMAO (I don't feel like rambling too much today, so I decided to put some random quizes)

You scored as Charlies Angels. You are a kick ass girl! You and your friends are intimidating!

Charlies Angels

92%

The Notebook

25%

Mean Girls

25%

A Cinderella Story

17%

Legally Blonde

What Chick Flick is just like Your Life?
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I am not a CHANNEL GIRL btw..this is surprising (I thought I go for DKNY or Burberry..lol)

You scored as Chanel.

Chanel

100%

Abercrombie & Fitch

100%

Tommy Hilfiger

92%

Gucci

83%

Anna Sui

83%

DKNY

83%

Burberry

67%

Louis Vuitton

58%

Dior

58%

Diesel

50%

What Designer Brand Are You?
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You can try it guys..heheehe

2005-05-13T20:20:00.000+07:00

Pickup:It's Raining - Rain
mood: hectic

I think I'm not that good in rambling something deep about life..fuck it! Anyway this is not a deep entry more like being myself again. Ok, I've changed the layout out of boredom and played around with Photoshop and decided to make these favorite comicen posed to be my layout. It won't be my life if I don't bump a slight annoyance although it only happened a couple of minute. You know the manner when entering and exiting elevator right? You supposed to make way those who want to go out first and then you come in the elevator. Today, OMG It really pissed me off. I was about to go out with my colleagues (one of them is pregnant for five months)these utterly 10 stupid salarymen were rushing in before we even got the chance to get out. Of course I was having not so good morning I practically raised my voice to them "For crying out loud don't you guys have any manner?! Could you at least let us make our way out?!" Yes, they were a bit jumpy seeing a crazy woman yelling at them, or more like SHOCK! one of them even quite persistence and make himself comfortable to go in while he passed me I said to him (quite close to his ear actually) "What the hell?!!" as I made my way out and glared at him. I think guys are getting more stupid genes lately..sorry, I'm not accussing all of you. It's just that those stupid ones could affect the image of the good ones as always. (it must be pms since i'm becoming bitchier for the past few days.) Don't come near me!! LMAO.

Take a deep breath!! I've finished reviewing 167 land documentations today can you believe that? and made a summary report out of it I'm so proud of myself. I did it all by myself without whinning, surprisingly although I was aware I almost puke once I hit the 113th documents, what an interesting working life. Oh yeah, I'm reading this very interesting novel called "Sex, Lies and Vampires". Seriously, you should buy this novel for sure. Right from the start it has made me laugh like hell. I think I might finish this one in a week since it's really a page turner.

I was browsing amazon.com too and I suddenly remember this band who has a really rude name. It's called "Selfish Cunt" I also recalled that I was almost laughing like hell at HMV Japan when I saw their CD sitting nicely in one of the shelves. Thank God I held my laugh or else the staffs there might think I'm crazy. So yeah, anyway I'm quite curious to know their music but on the other hand I haven't thought of buying it. Amazon does not upload their sample, perhaps their lyrics are too rude? Maybe so, I cannot imagine the lyric in one of their title called "Corporate Slut", "British is Shit" or "Fuck the Poor" (LMAO). I'm so intrigued though. Oh well, let my brain gives me more rational reason to buy their album. Don't you love British Rock? Well I do. They are so original and different. I'm not saying American Rock bands are suck some of them are good too. A matter of taste perhaps? But then again in my opinion Brit Rock bands do most of the pioneering in inventing a different style or genre in rock.

Alright from getting pissed to ranting about music rock, I should end my ramble here for now. Have A GREAT Weekend!!!

2005-05-10T09:46:00.000+07:00

pickup: Don't Panic -Coldplay
Mood: Sleepy

MY UNINSPIRATIONAL MOMENT( I GUESS)

I would condemn my morning if I've found myself to be sleepy unable to rise my eyelid into a perfect position to do the job as the window of my world. That is not really the worst part actually, to be honest what could be more depressing than listening to Coldplay and Travis every morning and night. This is a new ritual that I develop recently. When I wake up in the morning, I always turn on my ever first Coldplay album that I bought at Virgin records in Newcastle, UK for 13.99 pound. Later on sipping my coffee and head to shower. I don't sound perky do I? Later on dragging myself to the office after a quite long haul drive of penetrating the hassle of traffic jam. It's the ritual that every working women in the world has to face. You got good job, nice salary, slow life and highly monotonous. Sure, you think that once you get out of college you will get the money in the world and bought those nice things that you longing for. After that what? Of course longing for a nice boyfriend right? That's another story. Good for you for those who have found a guy in your life that you're willing to spend the rest of your life with. I congratulate you. Ok, so what's my point of rambling here? It sounds like the mid life crisis of a single woman being in the late twenties, early thirties and so on.

I should say that last month and this month have been rough for those who are close to me and including myself. Especially those my close friends who have been in phase of breaking up with their loved one. Do you know what? Fuck it! That's what I always said after a rough break up. To be honest, it is not easy when it comes to finding your mate. Sure, I have been in the rough part, many times to be exact. I did feel regret at first and kept on blaming myself why did I ever think of having a relationship with this guy and that guy in the first place. But looking back, I do think there's no point of doing that. Just look at it this way, you gain your knowledge and let's not try to make another mistake. I know the hardest part was when you were in a relationship for such a long time and it ended up at a junction where you are left alone having the thought of crossing which path since you thought that you might cross that path together with your love one. Get up woman! You're strong. I know that man might be with someone else right now but that doesn't mean that he is happier. Basically we use different brain than men and come to think of it that's what make women stronger than men in general.

Breaking up has a phase of refusing to listen to certain music. I usually avoid slow songs and get on the floor with Alanis morissette instead. Seriously, previous Alanis' album represent the scorn women all over the world. Later on you get up on your feet slowly and play Madonna's legendary strong woman ready to face the world song "You'll See". HOWEVER, the case of my break up the last time, Oh dear me, I turned on Cold Play's Song, Travis and the worst one when I was in Virgin Record, London, I stood there and took the headphone and pick a song called "The Blower's Daughter" by Damien Rice (this happened in Dec 2003). DAMN, I almost cried at the store (luckily I gather my strength as quickly as I could) So, just don't listen to Damien Rice's song when you just in the middle of healing not good. When I came home I thought V6 would do good, wrong again, "Dasenai Tegami" was a depressing song.Come to think of it, V6 should sing more of depressing song especially when Inocchi or Masa does the solo, those guys practically sang as if they were like crying and I mean it. At last, The Darkness saved my life...I kept on turning "I believe in the thing called love" It strikes me at that moment, Thank you rocker dudes you gave me strength. Should I stop here or should I continue to ramble in a bit?

Ok, maybe a bit longer wouldn't hurt. What is the lesson should be taken here after my long nonsense of rambling. Actually there's none. I'm making this entry dedicated to all my friends who have been into a rough relationship recently(especially to Jen and Amy, you two are the reason of making me to write this entry), having the tough life to defeat your boredom and trying to find excitement. I'm sure there's a slight smile there even in your worst condition, be it from a friend who tried to cheer you up or from your ability to laugh at yourself and the world. I think how many uninspirational moment you have in your life is actually have a moment even if it's only a nano second for you to be able to enjoy what you got. You're not weak guys, you're just sad now but you're living up to it which is good. It shows the world how strong you are. To me, a weak person is a person who cannot accept the fact and live with it or doesn't even have a will power to stand up again. Facing the truth and live by it is the sign of your strenght, maybe you don't realize it. Take a moment maybe a second and smile after you realize this.

2005-05-06T13:21:00.000+07:00

Mood: Tired
Pickup: A Case of You - Joni Mitchell

Whenever I got tired I always turned on Joni Mitchell's song, lol hey don't laugh at me for being deep and sentimental. I am but human. Anyway, as many of you all know that I have been through some dramas lately. Some of them turns out good and some of them just left there hanging with awe. I'm relief that it's all over for now because I could not guarantee if there will be others. Today's ramble is about telling the whole world that I am not that 'cool or awesome person'. Heck, I made mistakes and I was not proud of that either.

I just could not understand why people have a hard time to 'apologize' when things gone wrong. How hard can that be huh? I mean I did some wrongful deeds too, hey I'm no angel but I did admit when I was wrong and truly apologize for the wrong dones from my part. Why can't people just swallow their pride for once. This thing I learned from myself. The wonder of the words "I'm sorry" can be so amazing. I was proud actually when I said that. I could not believe myself that little did I know that I do have the power to say that. Did you know not long ago there was a misunderstanding between me and a person. After that word 'sorry' just blurt on my part, everything just melted. Once enemy becomes friend. I was amazed with myself now. I think I'm improving. Then again, I was dealing with a civilize, decent person who could accept apology and burry the hatchet. This is like one in a million. The rest of the cases that I've been through were bad. Nothing was really solved. That's why I encourage some people to take acting classes, or enroll for reality tv shows just to channel their energy for a better cause.

Hey, people I'm not really a bitch if you truly know me. However, I am immune of being called 'bitch'. Because a lot of people had done that not once but so many times. It's a mediocre in my ear now. Maybe you should invent another word to call me name, yes those who hate me. I don't expect people to all like me, even the pope has haters too I guess. About the dramas maybe in part was caused by me, they just basically hate me and then my friends got the effect of my bitchiness. Sorry, I am just straightforward because I could not fake when things really boil up to my head. I have limit in my patience and sometimes I tend to get too over the line when saying things, that trait that I have to change. It's a bad one. Still, you cannot let people make you a doormat right? you gotta stand up for yourself and speak up. I'm not going to change and be a softy, nah, I don't want to be someone else and pretend.

Anyway, I feel my head is lighter now and tired, but I can exhale. ..there's a point when things bad happened and it's over where you just EXHALE..*phew* and wipe your sweat. After this week I hope everything will go smoothly next week.

2005-05-03T10:33:00.000+07:00

Mood: Do I look like that I'm amused?

WTF is wrong with you people? Another drama in V6 thread? OMFG this is really getting on my nerve!!! I'm really BOILED at this stage. Yes, I'm taking this seriously because the girls there are my friends and they've been friends with me for a year and some are more than a year. Who the fuck do you think you are? barging in and accussing them as liars? I don't fucking tolerate this.

To a girl who called herself "atata" who thought that she looked like Ueto Aya, or whatever..maybe you should really check your brain there. Nobody force you to like us. Ok, to be honest right from the start you joined V6 thread my first impression was this. You were trying too hard to be accepted with the crowd by acting all chirpy and cheery. Seriously, I did not like anything too much. I wonder if you do act like this in your real life. I feel sorry for you.

Ok, Vivafreakingidiot what are you trying to pull? Our attention? well you got one already but only for a couple of second because it's not worth it. How would you like to taste thousands of spits from us? First of all, it will make you stink and for sure you will attract another people because of your new authentic smell. I've found your post to be amusing. You are trying so hard to post some thing bitchy., FYI you've failed. You don't have enough sarcasm there. Where's the witty part? it's a boring and lame long posts, even myself could not be bothered to read it in detail. Too bad, your energy has been wasted to do stupid thing. I could actually reveal more about your "TRUESELF". Just a note, IP address cannot lie and I know who you really are and the rest of your other usernames. You're a shameful spammer who got nothing to do except create a drama. Join atata and make a reality show there. BE A TRUE DRAMA QUEEN!! You might even won an award for this. I'm actually trying to encourage your talent rather than wasting your energy to do it in the internet.

Ok, I'm not done with this especially if any of you act all bimbo again. Mwhahahahaha...

2005-04-30T20:55:00.000+07:00

Pickup:Mixed Juice - Sakamoto Masayuki
Mood: Giddy

WOaaah, I don't have any inspiration today. Maybe I just write something short. Supermarket can be a blessing in disguise but damn, you just cannot whore around there. I bumped into a cute guy who practically stood in front of me exchanging glances. Damn, HE'S A FREAKING HOT JAPANESE GUY?!!! hahahaha..I attracted quite a lot lately, God must've loved me because He has given me more and more good views. Grrrr...GOD DAMN IT. Buff Arms! Hotter than Masa *faint*, he's very tall and NOT skinny (maybe he swims or dives or something..so Kakkoi) Too bad, you just could not force something that was not meant for you. (sigh). Right, I hope I bumped into him again. I believe in faith. Aaarrrgh, for once I need to start my engine again here, just give me better opportunity ok, God did you hear that? I was this freaking close to heaven. I think I need to make more good deeds so I can be really close to heaven *wink wink* GRRR...alright, I will just meditate and PRAY MORE!!

2005-04-26T18:01:00.000+07:00

Pick up: Beautiful Days -U2
Mood: Tired

Woah..so tired. My brother's wedding reception was a success and it was actually quite fun. I was wearing quite thick make up with my hair done up. No, I'm not going to post my picture in my blog, there's no way I'm going to do that. There are freaks out there for crying out loud! Anyway, I'm just too tired to even write much here. Forgive me I'm so lazy.

I'm so glad that the bimbo drama has over. But girls, please be very aware that there might be more like them to come in the future so we have to be on guard and tighten our boot for bimbo booting attack!

Poor Okada..he's an innocent victim in this case..lol

That's why I decided to make this logo

Heck I'm not a big fan of Okada but I like this guy! Hehehehe.

OMG, I was such a clutz today but come to think of it, it's not actually my fault. I was making my way to the pantry to wash my cup which was filled with coffee this morning. There were probably 2 inches of Coffee leftover there, so I walked carefully not to spill any on the floor but then..BANG, my senior just bumped me. He walked from the corner unnoticed and yeah..of course..Coffee spilt all over his shirt. I practically shrieked "YIKES! What the Hell?!!" and I said "I didn't see you coming"..Hahaha. Hmm..my first impression of myself is this "i'm with Bakanishi" D'uh! Imagine him bumping his DAISENPAI..Let say Shigeru Joshima from Tokio, LMAO. Oh dear me..that really hit me a bit and it sort of awaken me from my tiredness because after that I couldn't help myself but smirking and giggling.lol (sounds like bakanishi).No feeling of remorse, heck it's not my fault anyway. Where the heck did he come from? My senior smiled and said "nah it's ok. No need to worry about this." Heck yeah, He will bear a quite big coffee stain for the rest of the day, heheheehe.

2005-04-22T17:13:00.000+07:00

mood: I am not amused
pickup: Night Walk - Da Pump

I had a really bad day yesterday and I'm sort of okay today. My house was full of my relatives, oh dear, it has not been like this in years. Yeah, cause there will be a special occassion on Sunday. It's my brother's wedding! But I'm not going to rant about this. I'm going to rant about something else.

I've no idea there are so many bimbos that I met on the net. Can you imagine I just left V6 thread for couple of hours and then DANG, Flaming!! It's ok if you don't like Okada but that doesn't mean that you can bash him like that. The way you bash is like you have something with him, a grudge or whatever. Did he ever do you wrong? I mean, I'm the mod there so I don't want to post flame things to make it worst. She said that she was tired of the girls posting Okada pictures and it's like that they didn't talk about other members. What heck is wrong with her head? it's a freedom of speech to talk about their favorite Idol. I'm just joining for the ride and have fun with the other girls. OMG..I think she's delusional or something? if you're looking for trouble I guess you just have to knock yourself to the wall or I can help you out if you want to just set your mind back on track. What the heck is wrong if the girls rant about Okada?

Do you know what I think this girl is actually in denial. She really likes Okada but the fact that so many people like him and he's so popular nowadays make her feel that she can no longer know him exclusively? Denial bimbo retarded..get a freaking life..wait she did say that in the thread. Hear me this, I think you don't really have a life since you make a big deal of what's going on there. You want to get a freaking life? Like where? If you keep your attitude like that then it's time to check yourself in the mirror.

Joshiki nai onna ga nikui! Imaimashii jouma! Kanojo no namaiki na taido, honto ni mukatsuku n'da yo!

2005-04-21T17:34:00.000+07:00

MOOD: F**** P*****

Do you know how inconsiderate people can be? Omoiyarinai. Mou Atama ni kuru!!! sachou no koto. kanojo kyo wa "omoiyarinai kotoba" itta, watashi ga katto shitan da yo. I'm so freaking speechless.Jitsu wa Bengoshi naranakattan desu, Omoiyarinai hito ga attan desu kedo. ARRRGGGH!!!!!

I was seriously raising my voice today because of things like this. GOD forbid, I hardly yelled at people at the office only if I found things too ridiculous. HECK I don't care if she's mad at me for the rest of DUNNO how long!! Let me make a point "don't push me to work this weekend, because it's my brother's wedding ok?"
I have too much patience dealing with my brother's future in laws who are such a PAIN IN THE ASS of treating my mother and saying bad things on my mother. Today is just really adds me up!! She's not usually doing this thing to me but today..I dunno maybe I'm just in a freaking bad mood too. PLUS THIS? it really boils me to my head!!! I wonder if she might do that too in the brink of my wedding day someday..like this "Well, you got to finish your work regardless of your wedding in two days!!!'
What say you?

2005-04-19T16:40:00.000+07:00

Mood: HECTIC
pickup:Never there - STRATA

Damn, my brain is working too hard again. I think I'm forcing it quite hard lately. Right, where do I start? Here goes my random rambling....

Because of my last week entry of making a fanfic with spy theme and some encouragement from my wonderful friends, I finally decided to make it. Of course I got the help from Amy or else I won't be able to add the spice. I'm not that good in writing romance well, not as good as Amy, she's just a die hard romance-writer while I'm a die hard bitchy writer. She puts smoochy moochy part while I just kick some butt here and there. Oh well, it's been like this since last year. Thank you for your help Amy. Next time you lay the foundation on a story while I can just add the brick to put the bitchy part. I think I've written so many pages now. Woah, this is like the old time when I first met the girls there at V6 thread there. It's SPRING I tell ya. It makes us go crazy again but still I miss some of the old peeps who did not hang out there anymore. :( Anyhow, I hope the girls love the fiction (well so far they do).

My mood is hectic right? Actually there are so many things going on in my head. I have to catch up the deadline at work too. My colleagues had been quite annoying which I thought it must've been because of the pressure. I don't blame anyone they were just doing their job. Guys, if you're still busting your ass doing assignments in university, believe me that was much easier. You haven't tasted the real work life out there. The monstrosity of work is BOREDOM and ROUTINES. Still, if you got a very exciting Job, that won't be the monster. Have you ever thought of working as FBI agent or work at the Secret Service? It's silly I know but sometimes I wonder how it feels to work like that. In the line of business where you ought to risk your life. Different kind of stress I guess.

Do you know sometimes I wonder whether I'm actually suitable with the job that I'm doing now? I have tons of interests back then mostly in art. Damn, if only I didn't get accepted in law school, I'd probably doing something in art. My auntie really encouraged me to go to Milan for Fashion Design. Imagine me as a designer? Yeah I was actually thinking that before either go to Milan, Paris, London or Tokyo. Those four cities that I aimed at. When I was younger, say Junior High School until High School, I was always drowned with books, sketching things and writing stuff. I later found out years later that my mother liked to read my fictions and quite liked it too. However,it was too bad she was doing spring cleaning without my permission when I moved to UK for 2 years. ALL my stuffs..thrown away..including my ANCIENT MYOJO MAGAZINE, 1994 edition?!!! It's a classic I tell ya. You won't be able to see how SMAP was looking all dorky! OMG, Tokio *shakeshead*, V6? what V6? *sigh* so much for nostalgia. LoL.

Oh dear me...do you know I went to this boutique where a friend of mine work as the brand manager and then I asked his whereabout the staff were so pale and told me that "He passed away"..WTF? OMG I was in shocked! No one told me. He was such a nice guy (if you wonder yes, he was gay). I suspect that he might get HIV or something since his staffs told me that no one was allowed to visit him while he was hospitalized last month. No wonder. I saw him before I went to Japan, he looked so frail and always unhealthy, coughing and claimed to me that his flu was endless. I'm shocked!!! I still owed him a lunch. The last time I called him two months ago I said I would treat him for lunch, now he's gone. How do you feel when you have to delete a number of your friend in your mobilephone permanently knowing that you won't be able to call him anymore forever? Gosh, I have mixed feelings here. May you rest in peace.

So there you go, it's been hectic because a lot of thing had happened. I guess this is the longest entry that I've ever made.

2005-04-12T16:24:00.000+07:00

Mood:a bit hectic
Pickup: Tomorrow Never Dies - Sheryl Crow

Tomorrow Never Dies has got to be my most favorite James Bond movie of all and I love the soundtrack too. First I have doubt that Sheryl could ever make a good theme song for James Bond then again I was wrong. In fact I kept on singing it, here's my favorite line:

Darling you've won, it's no fun
Martinis, girls, and of guns
It's murder on our love affair
But you bet your life every night
While you chase the morning light
You're not the only spy out there.....

Why am I talking about James Bond here, well it's because there's a NEW SPY. It's not Pierce anymore (damn, he's so gorgeous) and sad to say Clive Owen did not join the game. It's unbelievable that Daniel Craig has won the price to be the next James Bond? Well, as I read from the internet the producer has made a final call, so Daniel will be "007". Perhaps it's because Owen turned down the role why Owen? I have been trying to imagine you with "Martini Shaken not Stir" dress in Tuxedo and wooing the ladies. FYI, I've been drooling over Clive since his popular hit series in UK "Second Sight". Oh well, not that Daniel is a bad actor. He is actually a well respected actor in UK but unknown outside his country, and he's also a former beau of Kate Moss (or are they still dating?).

Girls go read it yourself from this site MI6. You will see the pic of Clive and Daniel side by side. Hmm..I still want James Bond's Aston Martin lol. Ok, if you were have to imagine one of those Johnny boys to be a spy who would you think suitable for the role. I've made a list here..(dare to laugh at me..be my guest):

1. Masahiro Matsuoka
(my reason: he's tall, looks good in Tux (definitely), has wit and charms plus there's some sneaky traits there. He can be the type where he'd say "I love you but I cannot be with you. Danger is my life" so 007 type).

2. Kimura Takuya
(my reason: *sigh* no need to say but still he doesn't have Mabo's wit, but he can play that Jason Bourne of Bourne's Identity type, got a girl but the girl just die in the end, the kind of tragic spy story).

3. Sakamoto Masayuki
(my reason: he can be so darn cold, look at his eyes no doubt his body is hot, good for killing people I guess, I'd like to see him being so MEAN but not good as the Ladies' man spy..just be a killer or something LoL and when he shoots people there's this reflection in his eyes toward his victim "DIE, DIE, DIE!" ).

4. Sakurai Sho
(my reason: he's fit for the SPY in training type, look at his eyes..so sharp and he could look very mean too..hheeheh..Still, I've not seen him in Tux just yet. He's the kind of Spy where girls go crazy over him but he doesn't give a shit about it. The kind where he sleeps with some women but no feelings there.)

Damn, I can make a story out of this. A team of SPY headed by woman as their boss..(me? I can pick the hunk too) LMAO. Would I ever be the boss of four gorgeous guys, damn I might not be able to work at all looking at them. Oh well, it won't hurt to imagine things. MY GOD, I just got so many STORY BOARD idea for a movie, I should be director or scriptwriter or something and then sell my script to J-Storm.

2005-04-08T19:54:00.000+07:00

Mood:amused
pickup:Nightwalk - Da Pump

Call me weird, I'm just amused with what has been going on lately. To tell you the truth because of that situation I become inspired to write on something. Anyhow, nothing in particular realy occured except that I have to help my mother preparing my elder brother's upcoming wedding held at the end of the month. I think doing a wedding in Spring Time is cute. I've seen wedding jitters here and there from both side which somewhat amused me as well.

My mother insisted that I should regularly practice piano again. Heck, I'm too tired to do it now. Sorry, I may have forgotten how to hit the notes for "Clair De Lune" as flawless as I used to be. Mind me, I'm just too lazy now to sit and practice piano for hours. To me piano is another stress relief aside from writing, baking cake, reading, bitching..what did I say bitching? Nah, I bitch when I have to and there's a limit to it.

Ah yes, yesterday I watched a movie called "PS" starring Laura Linney and Topher Grace (the guy who played Eric in 'That 70's Show'). It's a romantic movie with a twist here and there. Anyhow, Laura Linney played as Louis Harrington, admission officer of Faculty of Art at Columbia University. She's in her late 30's divorced with her co-dependent husband (played by Gabriel Byrne) who's a Science's prof. One day she came across an applicant named F.Scott (Topher) whom she called for interview and she was in shock on how he had an uncanny resemblance of her late highschool sweetheart. Phew, yeah..this is one of those Older woman/Younger Guy thing BUT it's different. Laura has to deal with her competitive bestfriend who always like to steal her boyfriend, a cynical mother and a younger brother that just recently went out from a rehab. Also a shocking revelation of her ex-husband secret.
Again, I got so glued with the movie. I know it's not one of those Hollywood glitter, box office movie but it is very interesting. It's surprising how Topher Grace managed to shed all his 'Eric-That 70's show' image. He is a good and talented young actor. I'd say a very promising one. Laura Linney..well no doubt she is very good. I've seen her in Mystic River and Truman Show, so I have no doubt Interested to watch? Why not!

Dang, why did I always review a movie recently..hehehehe. It's not that I did not do anything, well, it's just that I'm in the mood to do it. By the way, there's a surprising news that I received from my friend, Corinne. She said that Kimura is no longer the hottest guy in Japan. She said that Fukuyama Masaharu is now topping at No.1. Woaah, after 11 years sitting at no.1 spot, Kimura has to bestow his throne to Masha. At last, Masaharu deserves it. He used to hang in No. 2 or other spot before Kimura and now he's Numero Uno. Congrats Masha! I wonder who's his girlfriend now and when is he going to settle down? Maybe like never?!

Anyway, that's it from now. Have a good weekend guys!!

2005-04-02T17:15:00.000+07:00

Mood:Content
Pickup: World Looking in - Morcheeba

New layout. I made the sketches of girls, which basically more like me dressing during working day, casual day..hehehe. I did those by the way, out of the blue, I got a sudden idea of changing my blog into something different, that represent me for real.

Have you watched a movie called "De-Lovely" it's about a composer in 1930-ish called Cole Porter who was portrayed wonderfully by Kevin Kline and his wife Sarah Porter was played by Ashley Judd (it left me wonder why both of them did not get nominated for this year oscar?). I must say it was a spellbinding movie. His life is so complex and it took a great woman to be his wife. He was too consumed by emotion, sea of love and impulse that triggered him to do things that actually might hurt other people including his wife. Cole porter, by all means, was a great musician and composer. He had made so many broadway stageplay. His weakness was just plain love. He loved both man and woman and did not realize that he had hurt his wife. However despite all that, he only loved his wife Sarah. I was speechless to watch that movie and I did watch it twice (yeah, I bought the DVD) and now I even bought Cole Porter's Piano Pieces. My utmost favorite is Night and Day and this song is being remake into a very upbeat and catchy song by Sister Q (jpop newcomer) who consists of young teenagers. If you've seen "M no Higeki" (Inagaki Goro and Hasegawa Kyoko) than you will know that the remake is just marvelous. Hmm, yeah, "M no Higeki" this drama, I'd definitely buy it once it's out on VCD/DVD. I got so glued to it. I cannot afford to d/l all in torrent file too expensive since I'm a subscriber to super dooper connection ADSL.

From rambling about Cole porter to M no higeki, I rest my ramble here for a while. Maybe I can blog more later.

2005-03-29T11:38:00.000+07:00

Mood: Sick
Pick up: Yasashii Kissu o Shite -Dreams Come True

shigoto o Ishogashii kedo, hotondo online ga amari irunda. Moku youbi kara sui youbi made, watashi wa byooki ni natta. Waruii kimochi datta ne, toku wa kutsuriyubi o nonda. Uchi no naka byooki no toki wa Nihon no Dorama ga zutto mitte itta. Sorekara
noberu o yonde, terebi o mitte nani mo kimochi o tanoshikutte ni natta.

Right, I got sick basically. Maybe I just don't pay attention to my body lately. I just work without thinking of anything and also I might be thinking something that I don't realize which have made me stressful. That's why I hardly online chatting with my friends. I just throw myself on the bed and rest. I still owe you guys pics that I took in Japan, Ikebukuro, Roppongi and Ginza. I will show it later when I got better.

Anyway, that's a short entry. Boy..I need another vacation already.

2005-03-23T11:08:00.000+07:00

Mood: Tired
Pick up: Have Fun Go Mad - Blair

I'm so tired now cause I got too much work to be done in such a short time. But I can deal with it, it's part of my life and there's no use of whinning beside this works paid my expensive interests i.e travelling. Oh yeah and this morning I went to my elder brother's room who's going to get married next month at the end of April. I feel somewhat strange to see all these. I'm quite close to him. I should say that I'm closer to him than to my eldest brother. Aww, I'm going to miss him but then again I will be quite busy for next month arranging the whole wedding bell blues.

OMG, I forgot to say something about yesterday. Ok, I was engaged in a discussion with my colleague in this small meeting room at the office and then the receptionist came to us and said that the meeting room was going to be used for an important meeting. I stood up and quickly step out the room with my colleague but as I gazed to the left I saw the client. He was average tall wearing black suits and then it surprised me for a second as I looked at his face. Oh dear me, he resembled "Takenouchi Yutaka". I was like Whoot! and then smiled a bit and walked toward one of the secretaries who stood near my colleague's room. She said "Did you see him closely? He looked like Yutaka right?" and then I said to her "Yeah, definitely.Omg, who's handling his case?"I asked her.She replied "Your boss."
"Him? why am I not involved in this one?" as I burst into hyenna laughter. Seriously, after that there were like four secretaries wandering around in front of the room just to take a look at his face and I made a comment.."Jeez, go write him a love letter already!" They all laughed. As my boss came in I said to him *cough* "give my regards to your client.." wink-wink. He was like shocked in a second but smiled at me. Haha..yeah my boss is still young, he's around 35 and also my senior in my Uni..*cough* so I joke around with him alot. I think that client is either Japanese or Chinese, oh well no matter he's just hot. Anyway, at least I can see a real life hunk with brain in this real world and in this boring small office. LoL. Alright, I'm going to work again. Laters!

2005-03-15T16:55:00.000+07:00

Mood:pretty happy
Pickup: Fantastipo -Toraji & Haiji

I went to Harajuku- Shibuya on my third day in Tokyo. I could not be bothered to go by Train (JR Line) a bit lazy so I decided to flag a taxi at the hotel. It was still in the morning around 10 am and I asked the taxi driver to drop me at Meiji Jingu which is located close to Harajuku. Of course I took some pics while I was there I even drop a wish and hang it on the tree (my wish? it's a secret..hehehe). Please I could not be bothered to ramble about the history of this Shrine. If you want to know more please click this site: Meiji Jingu. Not that I don't want to share any info, just go to that site since it's more accurate. Here's some of the pics that I took from Meiji Jingu which include the Main Shrine and the Garden.
Here are some random pics that I took at Meiji Jingu.
Main Gate, Main Shrine and about this tree, you can say your wish and the Priest will pray for you. This is the Park and you got to pay to enter it. For no apparent reason I just took a picture of this fence and the result turned out to be ok. Lastly, another onetaken outside the main shrine.

Right, after that I decided to go across the road and headed to Takeshita Dori which is none other than Harajuku. You will find the craziest fashion there, I was raising my eyebrow most of the time because of my amazement to how courages and bold their fashion statement was. I've heard about Harajuku but I just got to see it myself before I made my own judgment. I took pictures of some of the shops but not the people who wore the crazy fashion. It was a bit hard to do that because I need to ask them for permission to take their pic and pretended from some Int'l magazine which I actually haven't prepared for all those bullcrap talks.

I went to "Watson's" convenient store to buy a bento set and ate somewhere at Harajuku. Oh yeah I did ask direction to go to Shibuya which was about 1 km away from Harajuku. Damn, I was a bit in awed when I tapped on the police officer. Ok, another amazement, that Young Police Officer was seriously cute and stood around 6 ft tall. I think I was a bit blessed because the moment I stepped my feet in Tokyo, I've spotted so many cute guys around. Alright, so yeah I asked him how to go "Bunkamura Dori" because I wanted to see Bunkamura Theatre. Of course I was curious that was one of the most exclusive theatre in Japan. I haven't touched Aoyama Theatre which was also in Shibuya just yet but I will definitely go there for my next visit. I'm amazed with the architecture. It was something a bit art deco-ish inside. I'm a bit disappointed that I could not see my favorite actors on stage. Apparently they are showing a stageplay called "Kitchen" in which having two of my favorite actors in it, they were Narimiya Hiroki and Takamasa Suga, though I managed to snatch the poster.

I didn't take the pic of what's inside Bunkamura, since you can visit their page. Alright, these are some of the pics of the theatre: Bunkamura_1, Bunkamura_2, photo display_1 and venue display

After I had enough of Bunkamura Theatre (managed to take a rest there and eat "yummy hot pancake" and a cup of capuccino), I took a stroll around Shibuya area. SHIBUYA 109. I should've told about Shibuya 109 first before going to Bunkamura theatre but then again it doesn't really look that interesting if it's not spotted during late afternoon -night. It's as lively as Shinjuku but the young people there dressed more boldly. Haha, I got lucky seeing Ganguro boys around and did manage to take their picture. I think they realize that I took their pic and I bet they did not mind at all. You know that Japan nation can be called "Keita Crazy" (mobilephone crazy), well just to give you a sample I spotted these two people who were so focusing on their "keita". One of the dude was quite fashionable and the other was plain regular but you can see his face glued to his mobile phone. *Cough* I spotted a long hair dude who was so tall and not too mention good looking, which made me confused whether he was a model, plain gigolo, just regular player or perhaps one of those slick Yakuza understudy, LMAO. Ok, just let my mind wanders and I will let yours wander too. Seriously he was very good looking and I saw him flirting with a girl which made me a bit amused too.Right, I told you that my eyes were roaming around right? ok, this dude got the coolest hair ever, too bad I could only manage to get his "profile pic." What him cute? yeah he was cute..haha..and I've seen his face in front. He was standing so close to me which made me a bit hard just to steal a pic of him and his cool hair. These are some regular dudes hangout at Shibuya, young adults and salaryman.
Phew..and some side pics again..about the situation in Shibuya: 1 and 2.

I think this entry has the most link of pictures all over the places. Sorry about that and I think I've finished one freaking roll of films for Shibuya alone. Alright, next ramble shall be Ikebukuro, Ginza and Ropponggi. After that my Journey in Japan is DONE. I cannot go to entire places since my time was so concise. Anyhow I did have a good time and I'm really glad that I can share my experiences here. Well, I'm glad that I don't take any random chick pics too much you know who might snatch it from my blog.LoL. Ok..that's it from now..laters!

2005-03-08T13:22:00.000+07:00

Mood: Cool
Pickup: Asunaru - Going Under Ground

Yes, Finally I've scanned some of the pics that I took while I was in Tokyo. Since I've managed to finish three roll of films with my Nikon F55/F55D (thanks to my Father for giving that to me last year) I was so thrilled of taking pictures there. I became clicking happy, here and there. Ok, when you come to Tokyo Shinjuku is a place for you to start everything. They have department stores, malls, Ramen shops, restaurants, electronic shops, even the red light area called "Kabukicho" (FYI, I did go to Kabukicho just wanting to know), Shinjuku Gyoen (Shinjuku park) and don't miss the tall building of Tokyo Metropolitan Government. I apparently stayed in the hotel across that building.

On the first day I landed at Narita airport after quite a long flight, I took the limousine bus to take me to Shinjuku. That will cost you 3000 yen per person. Be very aware not to take Taxi for those who don't know anything about Japan. Either you take Limousine bus or Train to get to your destination or else you will be broke on your first day in Tokyo. Don't miss the nice view on your journey, when I went pass Kisarazu I was like "Woa..Kisarazu Cat's Nyah!" I got carried away when i saw it but I kept that to myself. Ok..Once I arrived at my hotel I got to take a stroll around the blok since they won't let me check in not until 1 pm. There I went being amazed with the view of Shinjuku. I've not been there for 20 years. So, what does Shinjuku got to offer in terms of Shopping. Being a shopping mall observer of course I got to check it out. This area got A big DEPATTO (department store) called ODAKYU, ISETAN, TAKASHIMAYA, MY LORD, LUMINE, KEIO, MY CITY (jeez whatelse) oh SAKURAYA (the discounted electronic retails)..ok enough of that shopping mall stuffs..hahaha I could go on rambling on that part. And then Of course how could you miss Kabukicho, the red light area where you can encounter so many love motels, pachinko and might bump into some Champiri (Yakuza understudy) with sleek hair. Who said that I didn't go to Kabukicho? hahah..I did. Many say it's non-friendly for tourist, well I didn't look like one and I did not wander around at late night (9 Pm onwards..no way) besides that I was curious. In the morning and afternoon Kabukicho (located at Higashi Shinjuku) became so quiet though I did encounter some drunkard young guys and girls after some late night hours I guess (wink-wink).But, that doesn't mean that this Gangsterland doesn't have anything to offer. It actually has a Koma Stadium where you can see some art performances.

Usually on Sundays some of the Shinjuku's road are blocked for street performances or some other attractions such as
street juggler or this one unbelievableperson who eats balloon?!! And of course it's not Japan if you just cannot find any unusual English. OK, I was laughing quite hard when I saw this announcement at a cafe located in Kabukicho. However their display of offering was quite enticing actually. And this is Tokyo Metropolitan Government Office and the building across it was the hotel of where I stayed. Yup, it reminds me of Petronas building in Malaysia and also the late twin towers in NY. So, *cough* how do you like my amateur photography? hehehe..I hope it looks nice.

More pics:
Takashimaya 1 and Takashimaya 2 and outside Takashimaya
Shinjuku at late afternoonand at night and another one too. This is Koma Gekijo or Koma Stadium located at Kabukicho.

Woah, don't tell me about the TV program there. I really got glued on those for three days and then I grew tired of it. I've said it before that there were too many variety shows that made me a bit bored after a while. Despite that, I was still laughing at SmapxSmap show which was awfully funny and of course Tetsuwan Dash which feature Taichi, Tatsuya and Joshima's adventure in Taiwan to search for onsen there and get the samples of each of onsen that they visited. I was almost fell asleep watching GeI (I must've been too tired)and managed to catch couple of doramas too ie. Fukigen na gene, M no Higeki, Special drama of Mabo and Nagase etc...bla..bla..Oh yeah, I did laugh at the new comedy duo Anga and Rizu with their "jyanga-jyanga" thing..OMG, it's hard to describe it here even Dohmoto Tsuyoshi and Kokubun Taichi loved them. Ok. Maybe I should stop my rambling for now. I will upload some pics of Shibuya and Harajuku in my next entry. Laters!!

2005-03-06T08:50:00.000+07:00

Tokyo Journey PART I Tadaima!!! Yes I just returned from my short trip to Japan. It's only 8 days and I'm only exploring Tokyo. It's been 20 years that I've not been there and 20 years later I'm back again to see things there. Of course it has changed a lot. I stayed somewhere in Shinjuku to be exact it's in front of Tokyo Metropolitan Government Office. Everyday I walked pass that LOVE sign that you saw it in that Jdorama Love Generation (was it Love Generation? I forgot). As you might probably have guessed, yeah I did take a lot of pictures like Buildings, People, some unusual things etc. It was so much fun.

Did I ever get lost there? Not in Shinjuku and not in Harajuku either. I was a bit lost at Ikebukuro and VERY lost at JR STATION SHINJUKU when I was trying to find locket to buy Narita Express Ticket. Be very aware guys, even though that some of them may seem to know English, they cannot speak it that well plus they have a very thick Japanese accent that may give you difficulty to digest what they were saying. As for me, well I have to force myself to speak Japanese. Seriously, I am not that amazing in Japanese but I was surprised myself when I finally used it there, I could speak more that I could ever think of. For example, I was talking to the Taxi Driver more like having a chat. I thought that I would not have any clue on what he was saying but then again I was totally wrong. I could actually converse with him. What I need to brush up is my KANJI and of course more of adding vocabulary. I could not believe this, I could survive in Tokyo.

I could blab like there was no tomorrow here but leave that when my I have finished developed my pictures ok? Too many things to say why not tell some awkward moments while I was there. Oh my God..haha there were some amusing happenings too. At Ginza I was waiting at the traffic light to go red. There I was standing clueless looking at the sky, at the surrounding being blur and mumbling to myself. A young salaryman (he was quite cute actually)was looking back over his shoulder and looked at me from head to toe, I did not realize it at first but then again he kept doing it. I was checking myself like what? Eh? And kept on smiling being confused and he kept on doing that again. I was like Nan desu ka He looked down and walked straight as the traffic light turned to red. I was left confused and speechless. Haha, whatever. Another thing, when I went to train station, Shinjuku South Exit to go to Narita there was some group of TV news station there, FUJI TEREBI and the other one I think it was NTV. Anyway, as I dragged my luggage hurriedly since it was snowing that God Forsaken morning, a guy carrying a folder approached and started to blab like a bullet train asking to interview me (I've no idea from which TV station) and I said I am sorry I did not really catch what you were saying and I am not Japanese either, Sorry if I cannot be any of help. He bowed to me and apologized.

Oh yeah, I did not chase after or even bother to search on any Johnny's Jr. Why bother, your surroundings are full of beautiful Japanese men. Hahaha,..I'm just being honest here. They are lots of Tall, good looking Japanese guys there. So please take care of your eyes not to roam freely, haha..jeez*slap myself*. Ok I will continue to ramble another thing about Tokyo later. I'm so freaking tired now..hahaha..Laters!!

2005-02-23T16:00:00.000+07:00

mood: bitchy
pickup: dance, dance,dance - wilson philips

Ok..yesterday I was blogging about Zitfuck's cowardish conduct right? I think it's about time I reveal something related to yesterday's entry. What am I kidding? browsing his archives? No way..as if I got nothing better to do. In fact it was one of those sukebe friends of his that told me about it. Sorry I won't reveal names no matter how much you pay me. It's totally unethical to reveal the source.
So, zitfuck, you can keep wondering to yourself. That's it. I'm utterly pissed.
Sayonara!!!

2005-02-22T15:39:00.000+07:00

Mood:pissed
Pickup: Seek and Destroy - Metalica

Today I'm going to tell tale of my favorite topic. ZITFUCK. Ok, he's so dead now that I caught him in the act of making bad remarks of me and my buddy mike. I was not aware of this entry last year since he did not put it in his blog but just look at his post in his stupid archives on Tuesday, 27 July 2004 And whoever Kakkoi-san is, he was calling me coinceited (fyi it was typed in that stupid blog as "Coinceded" TYPO FREAKING ERROR!!). Well to be honest, I am coinceited because I hate stupid people so of course whenever I talk to stupid people like Zit and this kakkoi-san (I bet he is that Mr. fugly) I will definitely be seen as coinceited. Because I think their brain doesn't really get what I'm talking about. Oh yes, Zit when you read this I bet you're going to be surprised why I caught you again. I bet that Stupid Kakkoi-san is the one who is littering my comment blog a year ago. Come on show your face in front of me if you're a man. How come you can only pm him? Why not confront me instead. Kakkoi-san is such a wuzz.

When talking about Zitchen is like reading an endless scroll full of craps maybe because he is made of crap and other shit. I think his brain is made of diarrhea. I'm really sorry for talking so rude like this. I'm pissed at coward people, especially corward GUY. If you cannot stand on your feet why not give your ear and mouth to the deaf and mute people who are dying to talk and speak out loud. People like Zitchen and this "kakkoi-san" do not deserve to have mouth, ears or even eyes to begin with. Ok, I give you an idea, why not give those to them instead. Donate them. I wish that bomb really hit Zitchen or should I say your real name is "Ryan Sena"? You are so sad.

2005-02-19T18:38:00.000+07:00

Mood:tired
Pick up: Across the Universe- Rufus Wainright

Alright, I'm just going announce that I've updated the music box with Kanjani8, Ken Zhu and Tokio. I'm feeling very drowsy and tired at the moment. I went home feeling sick two days ago and I could not eat properly at the moment. I did not notice that I've lost couple of kilos within a month. What have I done to myself? No, dieting just under some stressful events lately with whatelse..work. So, I think this Saturday night, I'm just going to tuck myself back into bed and forget about things.
Hmm..when I got bored I can always play around with Photoshop and make those cute boys wallpapers, LOL.

2005-02-15T17:37:00.000+07:00

mood: bored
pickup: California -Wilson Philips

Bored is my middle name here, at the moment. Nothing in particular to be shared today. Oh, I almost forgot I know it's a bit late but to those who loves "Valentine's Day" including the single ones and the one who has their other half, I just want to say "Happy Valentine's Day". I used to be quite sarcastic when mentioning "valentine". That was back in High School and University days, I was thinking hmm, I bet chocolate factory, floral shops and those gift shops were so happy that their selling went high just for this particular occassion. Everyone was making a big fuss about it. I used to say "Valentine what?" sounds like "Ovaltine" to me, LoL. But that doesn't mean that I had not had any "Valentine Celebration". Again that was in Junior High and High School, and it was those cheesy teenagers valentine party. Yeah, I went out with my girlfriends and meeting the guys there at the party which was held at one of my friends house. Yeah, it was fun back then. *Sigh* Still, I don't have any particular feelings about valentine. It's like Vanilla Ice cream, I don't hate it and I don't dislike it.

Anyhow, thanks a lot guys for dropping by and greets me on valentines day. Oh yeah, new lay out. I got bored and I think I'm turning into Layout Whore soon if this boredom could not be contained. But, what's the point of complaining, after all boredom is part of your life. You cannot escape from it no matter how much excitement you ever had in your daily life.

Just in case you want to know who are those boys? Of course, they're one of those cute boys from Johnny's jr. ABC juniors, haven't debuted yet and they can sing well too. Ok, give me couple of seconds to be a fan girl let me quote myself.
"Oh you know that in ABC my favorite is Shota the one with Green Windbreaker holding a mug with his cute smile. Oh GWad, he's a potential hottie. You may think that KAT-TUN with Jin and Kame are hot now, wait until he's growing older..Oh Gwad, I'm just going to faint."

*cough* alright enough with the sarcasm. The truth, I like the pictures and how they look natural. It reminds me of drinking coffee in the morning at a cafe somewhere in UK during the winter. That's the whole truth. Do I like ABC? Yeah I do, they have potential to be big in the near future.

Ok, I'm going to deal with my boredom now, so please let me be, being sucked deeper and deeper into the boredom oblivion.

2005-02-11T17:05:00.000+07:00

Mood: cloudy
Pick Up: Stupid Girl - Garbage

I chatted to Jen last night and then It struck me a topic that I have not touch for such a long time. It's all about Bimbo. How do I start on this one since it is very tricky. I've no idea what insinuated the whole topic of re-writing a bimbo topic. Correct me if I'm wrong was it because of a come back made by a real life fan girl?

Alright let's start on this. The term "Bimbo" has been officially recognized in many English/Slang dictionary which means unintelligent female. Is this term so degrading that it was made only for female? What about unintelligent male then? well, they're called mimbo. But Mimbo topic shall be told other time because I'm focusing mainly on bimbo. Why do Bimbos exist? I think that's because to test the patience of intelligent woman. I'm not saying that Bimbos are utterly stupid in fact they have their smart way to deal with the world, which is acting stupid so they will have this image of being helpless. Nevertheless, won't that annoy the living daylight all the inteligent people in this world? I guess so.

Let me give you an example on how you can get annoyed by a bimbo. Usually bimbo never pays attention they just want to get attention by acting dumb. Ok, how about an example from an internet world first, everyone knows that there's a certain thread that really hate fan girl (fangirl can be included into bimbo, their differences are so thin) and yet a bimbo just came in innocently and posted. She knew that in the past nobody liked her fan girl attitude and yet she made a come back. A friend of mine has a blog and installed a comment box that specifically said irrelevant comment on her entry is unwelcome yet, she still did it. That' is a bimbo.

Ok, how about in real life. I was queuing at this restaurant with my father and then two bimbos waving their hair walked in and just stood in front of us. Of course I glared at them and *cough* said "hey, do you know that we come here first? please queue". Those bimbos didn't say a word, waving their hair feeling embarrased they just went in to the toilet near the cashier. Do you know, I want to rub their thick foundation and gave them a mirror so that they can see their bimbo look clearly.It was a good thing that they did not say back if not maybe I will let them say something stupid first, I record it with my mobile phone and then sue them for defamation and then forced them to beg mercy from me. Oh dear, how wicked of me.

Anyhow, conclusively as my saying goes "Bimbo is a blurry form having hardly half of the intelligent women in this earth", in a simple way we also called them "an Airhead".

2005-02-07T12:46:00.000+07:00

Mood: Pensive
Pickup:Hei Bai - Ken Zhu

Not really in the mood to ramble or even mock anyone at the moment,nonetheless I would like I've updated the Music Box with most of Arashi's first album Arashi No.1 Ichigou Arashi wa arashi o yobou. Don't worry I upload other artistes i.e Ueto Aya, D.A.I, Bonnie Pink, Hitomi Shimatani, Masaharu Fukuyama and Sing Like Talking (my favorite).

Another thing, I bought Ken Zhu's album yesterday and it really suprises me that his debut album is marvelous. I would say that his album got to be the best among the rest of his F4 members. I bet even those who are not F4 member (I'm not F4 member btw) will definitely like it. Alright Why I did buy it in the first place, I'm so intrigued to know since I read a good review about it and it turned out to be true. Perhaps I will upload some of his songs next week. Ok, That's it from now, like I said I'm not in the mood to talk about some stuffs today, only this. Laters!

2005-02-04T21:16:00.000+07:00

Mood:I'm on crack..LMAO
Pickup: Thank you -Suga Shikao

I've no idea where to start this. Ok I admit it I did start the fire. What's supposed to be the interesting topic of the day? Hmm, let me think..Right I get it.Of course it's my favorite topic, talking about Stupid people in general. As you can see my yesterday entry was Zittingonashit yeah, a new name for this hideous hermaphrodite today it's about Him again. Since I've defined a new term that his name is equal to stupidity so Jen has this great idea, She has submitted his name to Urban Dictionary, LoL. ok here it is
ZCHENDEVLEMH Omg, I cannot stop laughing on this time. What a GENIUS idea Jen! yeah I only manage to give the idea of putting his stupid name to dictionary, nevertheless never in my head occurred to submit it for real. Great Job Jen..once again. Do you know that I laughed in tears. I like the definition that you put of him being a "TOTAL WANKER" Damn! I cannot stop laughing. Alright I got to stop here. I called this ENTRY..ZITFRUCK SPECIAL.LMAO..rofl.

2005-02-03T12:34:00.000+07:00

Mood: Bleak
Pick Up: An Hao -Jay Chou

Alright, I've fixed My Music Box sorry for the dead link. I hope there won't be any now. I will upload couple more songs later on perhaps three more songs from Jay Chow (not the latest album hehehe..)

Hmm, I wonder who downloaded the songs that I uploaded beside my friends..perhaps even Zittyshit, LMAO. I bet he read my blog for his curiousity. Well yeah, please do read my blog so you will realize your stupidity and your ignorance. I think guys like him is so PATHETIQUE. No girls ask this type of guy because for one he is Stupid, secondly, he is utterly Dumb, thirdly he is an idiot extraordinaire. Any words related to stupid will fit in him. Hmm..maybe webster Thesaurus should add his name to add the vocabulary of "Stupidity". For example..

Zchendevlemh= literally means stupid example..Don't act zchendevlemh? Why are you looking so Zchendevlemh; Don't be Zchendevlemh

OMG, I'm so enjoying this? Sorry I need an outlet to release my tension and I think a stupid person is a perfect target. Bring me the bazooka and just blow up his brain already...Rofl. Why did he come up with that name anyway? I know there's a Chinese Singer called Z-chen. Is he inspired by his name? No way. Jeez if Keep on mocking this person it can go on and on and on. I can even make an essay about him more than 5 pages I guess. Starting from his stupidity and ignorance of posting some random chick whom I think is just one of his friend's pictures or some girls that he drooled over but no one seems to be interested to go out with him or even TALK TO HIM.

Right, whatelse? hmm..I will make an escapade this month..hehehehe..nah..not going to blog it here. It's a secret! Ja ne!

2005-02-01T17:02:00.000+07:00
Mood:happy
Pickup: Montague-Noriyuki Makihara

Yeah, a new layout. Wonder whose back are those? well, they are Ueda and Tanaka from Kat-tun. Since I like the pic a lot so I figure that it would look good for a new layout. I do have an obligation to update my music box but since my internet connection has been nasty again so that's why I've not updated it. However, I did that already..hehe I've uploaded some today from Mr. Children, Pizzicatto Five, and Kyosuke Himuro (the one who did "kori no sekai/ice world" drama soundtrack). So yeah..GO and Check MY MUSIC BOX

For the past weeks I've been busting up my ass to drill my Kanji *sweats* since my teacher insist on me taking up that Japan Foundation test. I was like Whoot? Oh dear, I don't know I hope that I can pass. It's still 4 months away though but a good preparation is a must. I think I'm not ready..how can I be ready if I have to divide my time with work and dedication to do this thing? Mission impossible.

At last my boss was pissed with that "project" that has been dragging on for ages. She said that if it went on like this she would terminate the contract with the client and told them to look elsewhere. Hmm, in a way this is a good sign. I would do the same thing if I were her perhaps I have done it a long time ago. Well, I'm not being greedy here. They pay good I mean really good but if they're not really serious why bother to entertain them at all. We have wasted blood and sweat for something that they did not take it seriously..Oh..well sir..just forget it and take a hike..I tell ya! So I just hope that my boss really terminates that project. And I shall be free from the endless dubious dungeon where evil lives..LMAO.

Oh yeah I was bored at the office and found a scary sight about awful plastic surgery. I was wondering to myself, ok I'm not absolutely gorgeous but I know I'm not ugly either but when it come to my face I just don't want anything to be changed at all. I'm happy with what I got. Yeah, my body is not perfect heck, I don't go risking myself under the knife either. Victoria Beckham? she denied of having Boob jobs..For GODSAKE..we're not blind honey, how could we not tell it's not fake. There's nothing in this earth that a woman given a pair of perfect breast rounded like watermelon and even when you lay down it still shape up round like that. She's as skinny as skeleton like, look at her lips, I think it's injected with silicon. Do you want to know something awfully gory..take an example of Jocelyn wildenstein and Little Kim. I think Little Kim will look like Jocelyn once she grew older. Jocelyn has practically ruined her face and it is no wonder that her husband divorced her because he got scary looking at her face! Just embrace what you got. Nobody's perfect that's what I think it's fair in this world. No matter how beautiful you are there's always a flaw there.

2005-01-21T10:30:00.000+07:00
Mood: ugh..hungry
pick up: Dekiailogic - Dohmoto Tsuyoshi

Right, what's going on in this past week? Nothing actually but I see more and more retards blossoming at jdorama. I was really laughing like crazy when someone did actually spam a phone number of ueto aya in that forum and the worst thing is someone did actually call that number? WTF? I dunno whether that stupid idiot really call her or not but it's just sick, LMAO. Of course let's not forget that another idiot at V6 thread naming himself Nhozin who just loves to spam everywhere posting pic. I have deleted his post though, he said "I got Okada Junichi's naked pic". I was absolutely annoyed since I've made a guideline in the artiste section no nude pics whatsoever. The Girls have seen the nude pic anyway and that was an old story!! I deleted his post and gave him a warning, guess what he said after quoting my warning.."What's up?" BIG D'OH! I deleted his post. Maybe he did not understand English? *sigh*

My birthday went well being in my early thirties doesn't seem to change my attitude at all..HAHAHA. I don't care though I'm too old to change my character but I do sense that I'm getting calmer as my mother said to me that she noticed my changes. Way to go girl.

Ok, now MUSIC update..I have uploaded the whole songs in The Uncoloured Album, so you can just d/l for any bad links just email me. I've also uploaded some random songs i.e Live, Aerosmith, Tokio, Arashi, Kinki Kids, Fionna Apple etc. Just feel free to check the MUSIC BOX

I'm so famish now..I got to eat *cough*..I mean really "EAT!" oh dear, here comes my appetite for destruction..VACUUM all the food!! Yummy..

New Website

2005-01-15T18:09:00.000+07:00
Mood:content
Pickup: Hero- Arashi

Alright, this will be briefly. *Cough* I just made a new site where my friends or might be strangers can download songs there. I know how web designers' feel now. Building a website is really time consuming and sometime such a pain in the arse..oops..mind my language. Anyhow the music that I uploaded might not be everyone flavours. I don't have any guestbook there yet..*sweats* so if you like the page you can make a comment here in my blog.. :P The site has not fully completed since I only make this during weekends..*sweat* there are two more that I need to do i.e the gallery and the links..hehehe. Anyway welcome to my MUSIC BOX!!!!

2005-01-12T00:14:00.000+07:00
Mood:Happy
Pickup: Winning Run - Hikaru Genji

This is so lame..but I got to do this..LoL..OK as the clock stroke to midnight I was officially leaving my 20's haha..yes..WELCOME WOMAN!! I'm 30 years old who still act like a teenager sometime. I don't care. Do I want to change Nah, I'm sticking with my oldself. Aww, come on at this age I cannot change my character perhaps my attitude of being short tempered? we'll see about that. Anyway..

HAPPY BIRTHDAY WOMAN!!!!

Hehehe..I just think those "Kung Fu Hustle" little avatars will lighten up a bit of my own celebration *sweats*.. :)

2005-01-08T08:39:00.000+07:00
Mood: good
Pickup: Wonderful life - &g

This is a miracle! today the connection does not mess up one bit! Even last night was not too bad, I can even chat with Jen
I'm in a good mood so I decided to upload two songs here, the first one is from Relish, a rock band from Ireland while the other one is The Uncoloured, a jazzy duo from Japan. It will only last for 7 days so hurry up if you're interested. Yup, those songs are some of my favorites..enjoy

1. You, I'm Thinking of- Relish

2. After the Rain -The Uncoloured

About The Uncoloured, well if you want to know more about them I have the link, yes it's in Japanese though. All I know that these duo are rather good looking tall dudes with heavy sexy jazzy voice. Huh, so I thought I could never bump into any good looking guys around my age well, I've found them. How I discovered these two dudes anyway, simple by accident last year on MTV Asia. DANG! as I heard the song I just had to have it right away so I ordered it at Yesasia or was it cdjapan..nevermind I forgot. Anyhow, just try to listen to them. They're so cool.
If you have a problem to download it just email me :)

Side note..jeez, one of the mods at jdorama whom the name I refuse to mention has resigned. The reason of him leaving was kind of stupid and I'm so reluctant to blab it here aside from being unethical. To be honest, I don't miss him one bit especially with the way he moderated though I got to admit he kept things neat. OMG, I bet he is an obssesive compulsive control freak facist. The way he got upset was kind of remind me of a woman having PMS. I only thought man cannot get that symptomp, I was wrong again. Oh well, just like I said the NETWORLD is quite exciting. I leave it here today..jya mata atode!

I'm Not a Layout Whore

2005-01-07T09:39:00.000+07:00
Mood: up and down (as always)
Pick up: Saboten -Pornograffitti

Two days ago blogger messed up with my blog and I was absolutely pissed. Everything has gone, my Buddies' link,all links..DAMN! So yeah, it's another new layout it's Tsukamoto "lucious red lips" Takashi. It's Div Layer and CSS. Hey I did it myself alright? It took me ages to do it, blood and sweat!! Oh yeah go to Tsukamoto's profile section, I was almost choked seeing how it was translated badly, lol. Anyhow, nevermind it looks good right? I mean the layout *sweats*

Another thing, my internet connection at home is messed up and of course that's one of the reason I hardly hang around on the net at night or even chat with people during night time. Blame it all with the ISP..I paid quite a lot for DSL connection and I got this crappy service not too mention they also f**** up with the billing. I was
again raging mad.

Whatelse happened?Of course there's something going on jdorama again. No it's not zitchen another person. I called it "ythinkingwithyourass" take a look at the thread that this person made...posting pics only until you go to the last page where I complained. I pmed this person but got ignored that's why I sort of make a warning. First that Risu Tramp at jdorama who threw all those stupid psycho questions in v6thread and now this one. It's tough being a mod sometime..lol.

Hmm..I think that's what makes the Networld interesting. You get to meet "extraordinary" people in the board BUT of course I've managed to make friends with the wonderful ones whose names are many too mentioned (see my buddies' link for a start and others of course most are from jdorama(thanks to the NET BUT mainly to jdorama!!) I have never considered my online friends as merely an online friends, They are my FRIENDS. I hope you guys don't mind me of not often chat to you guys as often as I used to be. Amongst other I got disconnected by stupid ISP most of the time and my dial up internal modem was R.I.P. What? Laptop? that needs reparation which is hopeless..Another thing..the work as always has been making me feel "Bleah"
Oh dear, I ramble too much it's going nowhere I stop it right here then laters!

self made questionaire

2005-01-05T17:33:00.000+07:00
Mood: Moody
Pickup: Lascia Ch'io Pianga - Sissel

Sometime I received some questionaires from my friends by email of course, I was thinking why not making one instead of answering it all the time..it's easy you know. I can only make 22 questionaires since I could not be bothered to make more than that, beside it will be a long entry full of craps..hehehehe..LoL.

1. What is the first word that you think now?
The big 窶廡窶� word..too rude.

2. What was the last drink that you drank an hour ago?
Of course, Coffee

3. Do you feel like you want to smack a person?
Smack a person? Why only one when I want to smack more than one..lol

4. What is the term 窶彭enial窶� meant to you?
Zitchen 窶ｦhahaha..

5. Have you ever experienced of eating up your own words?
Seldom. I窶冦 very firm with myself.

6. Do you like to write stuff full of craps?
You mean like Lies? Why do I have to do that anyway? What窶冱 the point!

7. Do you curse when you sneeze?
Most of the time.

8. What makes you pissed?
Being lied to especially by your close friends. Let窶冱 not forget, the ditzy one and the whiney one. BLEAH.

9. Are you a solitary person or a person who enjoys the crowd a lot?
I guess, I窶冦 solitary.

10. Do you have many friends?
Nope. Just few good friends.

11. Do you like Martial arts movie?
OF COURSE!!

12. What is a jackass meant to you?
Zitchen窶ｦlol.

13. Have you ever hurt anyone?
I窶冦 only human, not proudly saying this but yes, I have.

14. Is the word 窶徭orry窶� the hardest thing you could ever say?
No, I窶冦 used to say it. That窶冱 a simple word but very important. I think not everyone can say it.

15. Do you like sad and tragic story?
Count me OUT!!!

16. What are you thinking of right now?
Random but mostly thinking of making the next question.

17. Are you bored now?
What do you think? I窶冦 making a STUPID questionnaire at the moment窶ｦ

18. Are you short tempered? (if yes how do you control your anger)
Yes I am. How do I control it? I fail most of the time..lol. I窶冦 currently in the middle of controlling my temper..*cough*

19. Ever been anywhere beside from where you live? Name it 窶ｦ
Yes i.e UK, US, Canada, Singapore, Japan, Taiwan, Hong Kong, Australia, Malaysia, and planning to visit many more!!

20. Are you a mature person?
What me? I can be mature and/or childish. Oh well, I窶冦 only human.

21. Do you consider yourself beautiful?
If people think so, I guess I am beautiful..hahaha窶ｦjeez, being confident here *smack myself*

22. Make any phrases but not too long.
No human is immaculate, if they make mistakes just forget about it and move on unless they make the same mistake, that窶冱 what I called Stupid. (hehehe..)

So, guys..why not making it when you're bored at the office, in your own room, or where ever you are now..hehehe..and spread it to your beloved bored friends around the world. Laters!!!

It's January 2005!!!

2005-01-03T12:25:00.000+07:00
Mood: bliss
Pick up: Flood - The mosquitos

OMG, it's the year of 2005 already right? wow so fast..and it's January too. Hmm..my birthday is just around the corner too..Dang!
I have no new year resolution at all, I just want to go through this year smoothly, I hope *sweats* *fingers crossed*.

Oh dear, my only main concern is financial stuff. I believe I have to invest on something with my money. I do sense more topsy and turvy this year regarding financial market..*sweats* I read in Times Magazine even the Japanese who's known as the big spender has realized to save more than spend. Hmm..maybe I should just uphold the chastity of becoming a firm believer as a big saver rather than as a big spender!

I wish you all to have a good start in this new year!!! yay!

Tsunami

2004-12-28T09:33:00.000+07:00
Mood: mourning

This is the worst tragedy at this end of this year. So many people died, in fact it has accumulated that 10,000 people had died in Indonesia alone I cannot imagine if we add more with India, Srilanka, Thailand and Malaysia. The Tsunami has been marked as the worst incident since 1899 (I think that was when Krakatoa's eruption). I'm not going to ramble a lot here since I'm speechless now as I've been following the news from newspaper as well as from the television. The view was horrid especially casualties. I saw fathers, mothers lost their child and vice versa. I end my ramble here.

Just want to share something

2004-12-26T12:05:00.000+07:00
Pickup: Christmas Eve- Tatsuro Yamashita
Mood: ^___^

Alrighty, I want to share something from the past. Usually at this time of year I go to UK,Newcastle to be exact. I remembered last year I was on board on a flight to go there and listening to Yamashita-san courtesy on the headphone of the flight's radio. So yeah, it was thirteen hours flight and I got to transit for four hours in Amsterdam but It's worth it. I'm so attached to Newcastle don't ask me why or I might go sentimental which I don't want to now.

Anyway, I took this pic in the year of 2000 and it was autumn, Sunday morning. I was bored so I opened the window and snap a nice view of my flat. It was gloomy and the leaf started to fall from the tree. Cold? Of course! but not as cold as winter though. VOILAA..this was taken by an amateur photographer. Flat view

The other two pictures oh we.. I got to struggle to take it. I took it from the top of a Castle. It was called Castle Garth that was used to be the surveillance of any attack from the sea back then. Anyway, I paid around two pounds to get my butt up there. The first pic is some part of the City as you can see there's beautiful cathedral who had stood there around 100 years (hmm, even the flat that I lived was aged around 200 years old) while the other one is the famous TYNE BRIDGE

They have a new bridge called millenium bridge (I know why so many bridges..hehe..as if that this city has fetish of building bridges) which I also took a pic of but I don't want to post it now, or I might turn into picture whore..hahaha. Anyway, that's what I want to share from the past.

Another thing, I just realize something this year. I don't expect all of people who knows me to like me. I'm not a saint more like a sinner. If I hardly talk to my friends online or not online that doesn't mean that I hate them. I don't block anyone especially those whom I know very well too. But it's their own discretion to like or dislike me or to block or unblock me. If I'm pissed at someone that should be a reason for that as well. It seemed that I could not avoid of bitching in this blog oh well, that's just me at least I'm being myself and not pretending to be someone else that I'm not. Those that I've hurt well, all I can say wholeheartedly is that I'm sorry. Yes, at least I can say that out loud. So, Burry the hatchets and those grudges so I say everyone we make a new page for next year!!

Merry Christmas!!! ~~~It's a New Layout!

2004-12-24T22:31:00.000+07:00
Before I say anything about my new layout, I would like to say MERRY CHRISTMAS AND A VERY HAPPY NEW YEAR 2005! I wish you all the best for Everything! (yes it's V6 and they still look a bit dorky-ish back then hehe) MERRY CHRISTMAS So, yeah I'm proud to say this that I made this layout all by myself. It's simple and I'm still learning to improve. At last I got two days to figure out how to do it that's because everything was slowing down at the office since everyone was in holiday mood. Why Ocean's Twelve? well basically I like the film a lot. I like Ocean's Eleven and I like the sequel even more. It has twist and turn here and there and the way the story was told was in a way reminded me of Kisarazu Cat's Eye. You know the flashback style but of course OC12 is more in order than chaotic unlike KCE. Who's the Twelfth anyway? was it Julia Roberts? Catherine Zeta Jones or that hottie Vincent Cassel who played Ocean's competitor the Night Fox? Aw, go watch it yourself.

Another movie that I recently watched was "SixtyNine" (Sumabuki Satoshi, Masanobu Ando, it's available on DVD which I just received from Amazonjp. It's about Youth, Rebelion, Rock and Roll and of course sex back in the early 70's. There was a scene that I lingered in my head almost half a day, it was too disgusting and I did not have the heart to tell it here. Anyway, my suggestion when you watch this movie just drop the snack and forget about bringing your food along or something. However, overall, this movie is good and very funny. Too bad there is no subtitle, well I can survive with that. LoL.

Ok, that's it for now..Happy Holidays Everyone!!! Big Hugs from ME!

2004-12-17T15:55:00.000+07:00
Today I'm going to say something rather deep but not too deep since I'm not good in expressing that anyway. I used to be such a serious person but strangely as I grow older I become more and more laid back even toward my work which is not such a good thing. Maybe that's because I'm just too accustomed on what I do in my daily life. I used to be quiet ambitious and then thinking a bit hard, why should I do that anyway? it's like forcing myself to deeper oblivion. Alright that's not my main subject for today it's something else.

What I hate is people who lie. Lie to their friends, family etc or worst lie to themselves. You know ever since you were as tall as turnip you always seeking friend and how you try to click with them. You see your surrounding and see, hey this group of friends is the bitchy one, hmm, why not converting myself into one so they can accept me. I just pretend to be someone else. Seriously, that was freakiing tiring and I pity for someone who does this. Why not be yourself rather than clouding yourself with self-denial (dang, this word comes up again, lol). Why can't you just be yourself.

Another one, I also pitty those attention seeker, that is someone who always wants to be in the center, ME! and it's always Me. Some people have their level of attention seeking somewhat moderate but when things are gotten worst that is not good. In Psychological terms..there is a definition for this they call people with this behaviour as Hysterical..I took a definition from Dr. Joseph F. Smith Medical Library..here it goes..

The term "hysteria" has been in use for over 2000 years and its definition has become broader and more diffuse over time. In modern psychology and psychiatry, hysteria is a feature of hysterical disorders in which a patient experiences physical symptoms that have a psychological, rather than an organic, cause; and histrionic personality disorder characterized by excessive emotions, dramatics, and attention-seeking behavior.

Hmm, do you encounter any person like this? Always have to be at the center of the universe. Sometimes I discuss stuff like this with my mother, as she is a psychiatrist. She said usually women who had this kind of disorder rather than in the case of men. More on the Medical Library...

Histrionic personality disorder: It begins in early adulthood and has been diagnosed more frequently in women than in men. Histrionic personalities are typically self-centered and attention seeking. They operate on emotion, rather than fact or logic, and their conversation is full of generalizations and dramatic appeals. While the patient's enthusiasm, flirtatious behavior, and trusting nature may make them appear charming, their need for immediate gratification, mercurial displays of emotion, and constant demand for attention often alienates them from others.
Psychotherapy is generally the treatment of choice for histrionic personality disorder. It focuses on supporting the patient and on helping them develop the skills needed to create meaningful relationships with others.

Why am I blogging this anyway? well, I met one sample in real life. I hope she will realize that she's in need of help. My mother once told me usually this kind of person doesn't know the real meaning of "relationship" and "Love". It got something to do with her past relationship with her parents especially her father..etc..bla.bla.as my mother was rambling about psycho-analysis. I wish I could do anything to help her but a person like this doesn't realize that she's in need of professional help. Maybe time will tell and change everything.

I got to admit, this world is made for many different people and that makes us see things and realize something bad or good for us to learn something from it. I should stop it now before I become too serious..I hate that..hahaha..anyway, I'm just hoping the best for everyone. Adios!

Random Thoughts

2004-12-16T07:12:00.000+07:00
Mood: just like the title, it's random
Pick up: Reewind -m-flo feat. Crystal Kay

Yes, it's a new layout and it's Maroon 5. I messed up a bit during that stupid installation of haloscan and thanks to Jen that it got fixed! Thanks a bunch! I realize that I have not blogged anything since two weeks ago? What do I have to blog about these past two weeks, let see. Alright, let me start with my old hobby. Believe it or not, I do like to bake cake, mostly chocolate cakes. I manage to make one last week after years of absence. I was surprised myself that I still got the touch. Everyone at home seemed to love my home made chocolate cake, it was gone within a day! Mostly my parents ate it and I did make my brothers surprised too since they haven't seen me baking any cakes in years. In a way I've found this to be another channeling to release my stress. After that success, my mother asked me to make a pudding this week, something like chocolate pudding with sponge base and creamy top with strawberry fruits.

Ok, enough about dessert because I'm getting hungry again. Oh yeah, I received my Da Pump 2004 DVD concert I missed seeing them dancing around and singing energetically. Speaking J-pop or the like, I cannot believe I say this. I need to take a deep breath. Yes, I listened to Ayumi Hamasaki latest album and I heard about four songs. I was glad that I did not hear her whine. What makes her bad is the way she hits the high notes. She tends to whine and it sounds nasal but this latest album is different, plus they add more rock into the beat which makes it more interesting. So, yeah I declare this loudly, I might buy her album. Too bad her cover of her CD makes her look so slutty. I should blame this on her fashion stylist. As much as I don窶冲 like her but I窶冦 willing to give her a chance if she can release a good album.

What else? Oh yeah, about jdorama. I am very concerned about this site since I like it a lot. Lately, this site has been flooded with unpleasant pictures i.e those pics that are not suitable for all ages. So, acting as a mod in the artiste section I feel like it's time to clean up and do something about it. So far I got positive support. Those who don't like this idea I believe they should just make their own perverted forum or something. I'm just thinking for the best for everyone there. Do you know if someone got nasty, they might even think of filling law suit because that site becomes unsuitable for all ages based on the uncontrolled post of unpleasant picture. I know this idea may sound radical but would not it be good if we all just be concern to others too? We have many underage people who frequent that site. I don't want that site to look nasty and cheap too. Yeah, I do this to maintain the site's dignity as the good source of jdorama database and also the gathering of jdorama lovers.

I need to get battery for my camera and start to practice of taking a real good picture. Oh, dear so many things that I would like to do, not too mention that I have to continuously speak Japanese to myself (nobody is available for helping me out with this one). I decided to subscribe Nihon go Journal which will cost me a fortune since that journal also includes a CD to help you practice reading too.

Wow, I've rambled a lot today perhaps it's because I've not blogged anything for the past two weeks. Before I go I just want to say, please do watch that jdorama called "Proof of Man" it's a police detective story with Takenouchi Yutaka as the lead but oh man, that was a good drama. I've made a review at jdorama. If you want to hear Yutaka speaks English (quite a lot) fluently, just watch that drama. It's not a typical investigation story there's more message in that story.

That's it for now. Mata ne!

2004-12-15T16:55:00.000+07:00
Haloscan commenting and trackback have been added to this blog.

Sunday Morning (Not Maroon 5's Song)

2004-12-05T09:01:00.000+07:00
Mood: Lazy
Pick up: Oborodokiyo~Inori - Mika Nakashima

Tsukaretta..*stretch my body* Watashi no karada wa hontou ni jyou ga itai (My body is aching all over). Nevermind that, My mother is not feeling well too. The weather these days making us sick. If it's not raining, it's just plain dry and that is like keeping our body fails to adjust the weather as a result many got sick. Well, in my office people just sneeze, it's like a trend (I'm being sarcastic here). I believe it's in fashion all over the world, having to sneeze all the time, got blocked nose, feeling dizzy, lethargic whatelse? oh yeah, feverish. Oh well, my advice just eat more and drink more water, of course, don't forget to take the vitamin.Ok, come on? at this time you still think of dieting? Puhlease, Health is more precious take care of yourself. I'm telling you the weather will be like this for the next two months or so. Well, I don't mind rain as long as it doesn't happen everyday. As for my health, I'm reaching there, I mean I think I feel better than two weeks ago.

Speaking of fashion, this is funny (well to me at least). I think it happened four days ago. I just arrived at the office and went into my room as usual it was a freaking cold air con. All of sudden my colleague showed up at the door and he was parading around in front of me. "Hey do you think this vest matches my pants and shirts and ties?" I was blank for a moment and then I laughed "Hmm..jeez, think twice! Where the heck are you going anyway?" He said..."I'm going to this hearing at the central district court." I raised my eyebrow " Er..well, um." before I finished my sentences he took off and went to my room again. "What about now?" Oh well, I could not be bothered to see him, I just raised my thumb and then he said 'thanks' still I yelled at him "Hey, what is with everyone at this office? Am I fashion consultant or something?" It's good that happened very early in the morning nobody seemed to be arriving, hehehe..so no one heard my complaint. But yeah sometime, they liked to drag me to accompany them shopping for clothes, cosmetics etc..just to ask my opinion. Not all the time though..jeez, get a real professional already!

I actually never put anything deep in this blog, shame on me. It's not that I'm not a deep thinker but it's just that I have a way to do that not blogging out but I express it with other means, hehehe. My mood has been climbing up the mountain and goes down again, vice versa. That means that I'm just not really approachable. I have to let out something again, about friendster lately I keep on getting messages from strangers, that happens when I put my real pic but then again I still get some messages when I put "shingo Mama" pic. Oh, well, I just don't reply them usually. It gives me the creep sometime.

Before I go, I just got Porno Grafitti CD from Yesasia..the Best Blues Album and I've been listening to it like do know, dozen of times since the day it arrived in my domain, LOVE IT! Alright, that's it from now...Adios!

Bleah....

2004-11-28T19:44:00.000+07:00
Mood: Bleak
Pick up: Seek and Destroy - Metalica

I'm in a very bad bad mood lately because I cannot seem to get rid off my Flu. It's not getting any better, moreover the project that I'm involved in since May has been endless, it's dragging. This client is hopeless. I've no idea what they actually want and it takes them so slow to do any actions or anything done. What's the point of us, consultant, giving them advices if they did not take it seriously? Damn! That's why I hardly go online lately, oh well perhaps just to check out jdorama since I'm obliged to as a mod to check out whether everything is in order. I don't feel like talking too much anyway. I feel like I want to strangle someone to release this stress. One other thing I want to shout something "I hate indecisive liars!"..there you go. I should stop now before I start to bitch around in this blog especially when my mood is very supportive at the moment for doing this.

Flu and Stomache Ache

2004-11-24T16:49:00.000+07:00
I almost forgot how it felt to be seriously sick in bed caught with flu and stomach ache at the same time. Well, now I remember how it was. Why? Because I just got it. Monday, I went to the office my face was turning pale and everyone at the office was telling me to go home, I did around 18:30 pm. The next day I woke up feeling a little bit feverish but I decided to stay at home. I thought that maybe I just need a rest and then my fever would just go away. I went online for a while and chatted with a good old friend of mine who now resided somewhere in North Asia. She has not had a big laughter for weeks but she said she was glad that I made her laughed like hell. Actually she also made me laughed like hell and it was a good thing that I was in my room while she was in a library at school. So I bet she got those people staring at her thinking she was crazy laughing at a computer.

Anyhow, as the afternoon went by, I was not getting any better. I felt weaker, more feverish and worst I got stomache pain. Yes, I crumpled in my bed. Today, I managed to get up a bit and blog things out because I'm feeling so annoyed with this sickness. Oh yeah, I feel bitter and cannot taste anything properly with my tongue. I hate this!

Oh No..I got into the silly poetic mood again

2004-11-18T10:39:00.000+07:00
mood: Don't ask

Yes, silly poet mood again. Mind me, I'm just like this sometime. These poems are not meant for anyone but if you happen to relate at someone or at yourself, don't blame I'm just expressing some feeling in general.

The Edge of Oblivion

I heard you declare about the world
Blinded by your own unconsciousness
Sipping the propaganda deeper and deeper
Like a trash tabloid seeking for attention

Life is about being truthful to yourself
Binding yourself with a promise you made to your own
Trying to tie up with your surrounding
Bonding with your deepest heart

When things strike up in front of you
You tend to forget and eating your own words instead
Strangely, you are consistent with this
Getting darker and darker like the shiniest oblivion
Slowly crawling and getting you there

There窶冱 no escape
If you just stand there
And let Oblivion gets you
But I think you just give in
Look around you
Nobody is saving you now
Too bad you窶决e too stupefied

The Retards

Of all people in the world
We are invaded by the retards
They can become anything
Look around you
Sometime you found them in the form of a
Friend, Foe, Relative, Stranger passerby or even
Someone Famous

Check again
When you found one
There would be sighed, regret and sneered from you
What can you do?
They are everywhere
Avoid? If you can
Run? If you have the chance
Yelled at? If you dare
Strike a conversation? That窶冱 suicide

The Retards are like blemish
Sometime it窶冱 chronic
Uncured
Unsaved
You cannot do anything
But accept?

In the mood for love

2004-11-12T09:42:00.000+07:00
mood:a bit pensive
Pick up beat: Blow-Tatsuro Yamashita

What season do you think express love in the air? hmm..I always imagine a perfect love would happen in the autumn and winter. I like bleaky weather haha..can you tell? Even my layout is bleaky. Why all this sudden mushy topic? Oh well please blame on this guy!

Han Jae Suk,that's his name, Korean Actor. Well, apparently he is so exactly my type of guy, I mean in the look department. I was watching this Taiwan Drama called "Amor De Tarrapaca" and he was the lead. Thank God that he was paired with Ruby Lin, a taiwanese actress who is apparently one of my favorites. Surprisingly they look so good together I even want them just to be together for real. What's it all about anyway? How come I can stand to watch a 40 episode drama with some draggy parts in the middle? You know me, I cannot stand draggy drama. Hmm, apparently in this drama there were not too many draggy part and the story line was somewhat quite realistic. Did someone die there? Yes there were two of them but I won't tell.

Anyway, it's about this childhood friend who got separated after so many years. The guy (Han Jae Suk) only loves this girl (Ruby Lin) like forever.He thought she was dead after he looked for her in an orphanage. Do I really have to make a synopsis out of this drama? No way, I could not be bothered. Anyhow, a drama should have a "bitch in denial" right? Yes, there was a bitch in denial in fact not only her, Ruby Lin Character was in denial as well. She denied the fact that she loved Han so much until she realized she almost lost him forever. It was a good thing right, a person in denial has to get a slap in the face to realize something. Almost the whole time I kept on shouting "DENIAL!" or "You Bastard!" "Bitch Die Already!" of course for the last two comments were for the antagonist character. Jeez, that reminds me of my late grandmother's sister who used to stay with us. She really liked to make comments on the things she watched on the television be it video or any TV Program. I was only small back then and always gave her a glare whenever she did that. I felt so bad now, How could I have no respect for the elderly! Bad, Bad, girl.

Here's more pic of Han Jae Suk, who apparently was born in 1973 which made him older than me. Thank God for that. There are too many good looking actors/singers who are just way younger nowadays. Yeah, I got to admit I am getting older but at least there are still hot older guys actor (aw..let's not forget Oda Yuji, Osawa Takao, Masaharu Fukuyama, Watanabe Ken, Kato Masaya..etc)

scene from the Drama

With Ruby Lin at a promotional event for the drama (they look so good together)

Btw, I read somewhere that since Han is Korean and does not speak Mandarin, all the time in the drama he spoke in English while the rest of the Taiwan and China's cast spoke in Mandarin. At the end, Han's voice has to be dubbed in Mandarin to synchronize everything. It's understandable though because it won't make sense if he just speaks in English in the drama. I believe Han can speak English, oh yeah he was a university graduate at Yonsei University majoring in Sport or something. It is no wonder, he got a nice body with buff arms. Who has buff arms fettish here? hmm...

So, yeah my ramble ends here. I got to move my left leg a bit. Yup, I sprained my leg and I could not walk properly for the past two days. Jeez, what a long entry! I should stop here now. Ja na!

Tootache

2004-11-08T15:01:00.000+07:00
Mood: What are you looking at?

It's been a week now that I got toothache. Hm, my pain is complete since two days ago. I got my period, stomach cramp and tooth ache..*Suck!* I'm in pain. No pain killer can help me, I took aspirin, it's immune. Well, I've made a poem about it right? Headache is immune to aspirin *sigh*. I got to be in denial but for a good reason, denying that I got a pain..hehehe..Jeez. I don't need any wisdom teeth? why is it called wisdom teeth anyway? So Ironic, it's FREAKING Painful. Do you really have to be that wise eh..teeth?
I just realize that my popular words for this month are "Denial" "Bitch" and "F****" I'm not in the mood to use those words today, oh yeah, I just used it..LoL.

A Lyric

2004-11-07T21:02:00.000+07:00
Mood:Annoyed
Pick up: In the Shadow - The Rasmus

I got tootache! It is my wisdom tooth..DAMN IT! and lately I sort of a little bit more expressive in writing silly poems or the like. Yeah, I have no idea why? This one it's not a poem it's actually more like a lyric for a song, musicless lyric. haha..musicless? that is not a word..I just make it up.

Arrested by Your Own Denial

Driving on the highway
Speeding like a freeway
When you actually tiptoeing your way
On a tightrope as you actually should say

I found you窶况e been hiding
From a ghost deep down within
Afraid to come out because you are too proud
To cry to the world and say it out loud

Why are you doing this?
Torturing yourself into eternal bliss?
Captured by your own lie
Becoming a prisoner of your own cry

Building up a wall, wearing yourself out
You burn the sky down
Heating the world, heating the pride
This is what I called arrested by your own denial

Like a barren land
You missed a helping hand
Drifted by the mystifying mist
You disappeared from your friend's list

Pretending not to know
But still hoping a bestow from a caring heart
But you missed again like a target missed the dart

Building up a wall, drifting yourself away
From a crowded room
Full of warm heart, condensed with concerned mind
Here we go again, I see you dance away out of the hall
Becoming a prisoner, where you got arrested by your own denial

What is this supposed to mean?
You have lost yourself
But you seek a person to blame
Pouring your heart out and claiming to be lost
Why all those attention when you actually do not need them?
It is getting silly but I believe you got arrested by your own denial

Hmm..I was thinking of Rock/Punk Music with lots of bass and drumming sound here and there when I wrote this..LoL.

Another dose of prose

2004-11-06T15:53:00.000+07:00
mood: cringing and irrate
pick up: folklore- nelly furtado

*cough* yeah, another dose of prose..about a person who has "Brain Damage" here it goes..

Brain Damage

Blank, numb and hollow
An empty shell
Like an empty well

Once knock
Permanently block
It is a numlock

A nerve in denial
Unable to defy
Invalid to testify

Die already
You are no use for this Society

The other one is about a person too *cough* not someone related to me but related to a close friend of mine..Jen. She was pissed at this particular girl who had wasted her energy to do something for her but at the end..*sigh*...oh well, Jen..I made one for this ditzy bitch..it's called.."Ditzy Bitch" LoL..

Ditzy Bitch

Encounter one
Feel the bubbly air
But has no flair

No mentality
Feeling a little bit dizzy
But the surrounding is getting frizzy

I warned you once
I warned you twice
Do not think it thrice because they sounded like herd of mice

You better not try
Just run and fly
Want to know why?

All ditzy are poison
They should not have position

The Game is over
We want them die forever

Sorry, I got pissed at someone..it's one of my channeling of anger..heheh..there you go!

QUIZ TIME

2004-11-05T10:47:00.000+07:00
Pick Up: Dive to Blue - L'arc en Ciel

Huhh? Quiz? again..yeah..I got nothiing better to say except to post the result of the quiz that I took..here it goes..

Joe Strummer... you've been through the cleansing
fire of punk, only to pick up a few venerial
diseases along the way. You're more of an
optimist when it comes to fucked-up genius.
But you can write wicked-deadly riffs and lycs.

Which fucked-up genius composer are you?
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Mystery

What Kanji word best suits you?
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A Doze of Prose

2004-11-04T16:31:00.000+07:00
What do you want to know about headache? I made a prose of it..LoL

Headache

An incurable disease
Immune to aspirin

Created by mortal
Lingering when you deprive

A nirvana fallacy
A bleak of your own mind

A Brain deformity
Caused by mortal lucidity

well..yeah..it doesn't make sense that's why it's headache!

Life is

2004-11-03T21:30:00.000+07:00
pick up: Suddenly - K.d. Lang

Yes, it's November now and before you know in about two months it's going to be another new year. What you need to do first thing when you face a new year is well, even five years old knows it..OF COURSE, change your CALENDAR! (hehe...) If I have to recall back what's been going on this year, I cannot describe it myself. There are too many unexpected things that had happened. In general, Life is what you called something that you just don't have to think but lead on. Lead your life and don't think about it because if you keep on thinking about it you end up being confused yourself. I don't have any summer fling this year, yeah I wish I do or any fling at all but then again I don't need it.

Oh yeah, I just realize that V6 has been together for 9 years, hmm..that is good which means that they have really worked hard to stay together and be friends throughout all those years. Page 9 is part of the page of that book. They are still in page 9 and will hope to continue more throughout the year. Back to my title, Life is..yeah just like V6 meant, Life is like chapters of book that you have to fill out each page. There would be two types of book in this life that will be remembered that is when you do something good or bad. Seriously, human only knows those two things. You will remember wonderful things in life or something ultimately horrible. Sometimes you tend to forget the good deeds that person do to you instead you keep on remembering the bad things of a person which draws to vengeance and hatred. So, please listen Master Yoda, anger leads to hate, hate leads to suffering..haha.I'm not perfect but lately I'm trying to improve myself as person. Yeah, I can be a bitch, evil or whichever form of evilness may that be still I don't intend to nurture those. Unlike V6, I have created 29 chapters of my life and will continue to fill in more until I've no idea when.

Dang! I just realize that this entry is a bit deep, *cough* I guess. So anyway, that's my ramble for today. Lights off!

New Lay out!

2004-10-29T10:15:00.000+07:00
Mood: a bit dizzy but I'm alright
pick up: Secret Love - Mandy Moore

Hahah...yes a new layout, Sleepy Hollow! I love that movie and of course I love Johnny Depp. I admire him from day one, if some of you remember him as the teenage idol featured in a TV series back in the '90s called "21 Jump Street". Hmm..is there any good looking undercover cop like that hanging around in High School? Yeah you wish.

Anyhow, Thank God it's Friday again and I'm so looking forward to the weekends, well who doesn't. Guess what? I'm planning to make a cake or something, so tomorrow I'm heading to the Supermarket to buy some ingridients or maybe a mixer since mine was so so oldies. Yeah, I used to enjoy making cakes and desserts when I was younger more like during teenager and somewhat early twenties. SURPRISE!! *cough* But again, it all depends with my mood tomorrow too. If I got so moody there's no point of making any. Believe or not, what you cook or what you make it all depends with your heart. I once failed to make a cake because I was so moody so yeah, if you enjoy it and be happy I'm pretty sure that what you cook or bake will be delicious.

Don't you realize that it's getting nearer to December? Wow, time flies by so fast and I don't expect that to be so soon. What have I achieved so far in this year? Nothing much in career wise BUT I managed to meet wonderful people and become friends with them although I did not meet them for real more like through virtual world. Surprisingly, we become so close to one another. Strange world isn't it. But thanks to technology, I can see and meet the world wider than before.

Oh yeah, thank goodness I can squeeze time to update the silly fanfic and the other real fiction which I believe the plot is somewhat weird. I've no idea why I came up with that particular character anyway and how I manage to write the story so far. Is it really publishable? When it comes to this thing I sometime lose my confidence. There are so many good writers out there you know. Ok, call me lame what I'm afraid is rejection but if I've never done it I would not know how good or bad I am. Hmm..yeah maybe, however I might just aim for some small publisher. First thing first though, is to finish that damn story first. I don't really have the hand to write sad story or something too mushy..hehee..maybe it's my upbringing and my pretty strong character.

Alright, I'm going to be sarcastic here, jdorama forum update..(as this denial person always put it) There are TOO many galery with "Sukebe" title now. I don't mind but It's just the person who created it that makes it matters to me. Since I'm now a mod, I cannot bitch around anymore, well I can but not really be straight forward like I used to be. It is such a pain to see this guy, zitchen (yes, I believe he is a guy or else why would he took off the pic) who is just so coward and mindless. I know stupidity kills!! If I have a virtual bazooka I'd drop a deadly virus on his computer and rumsack all of his collection of girls posing half naked. Would not be great! Hey, why not just CURSE him so that his computer really got virus and he has to lost those thousand of Frying Pan Face Rena Pick..HUAHAHAHA..hmm..Shoot him on the head. I'm not scared fighting with him one-on-one in real life. He is such a JERK, trying to be a woman gives disgrace to all the real woman. DIE you freaking F***** bastard!.

Phew..ok..I end it here now. I'll bitch around next time!

Being a Lawyer

2004-10-25T15:43:00.000+07:00
Mood: OK..I guess
Pick Up: Rocksteady- Remy Shand

Now, since I got nothing better to do, I would like to share out some of experiences of being a Liar *cough* I mean a lawyer. How did I landed this job? I think it was a stroke of luck. After I defended my thesis in 1997 for my final exam in law school, one of the examiner offered me a job in his firm. So yeah, I applied and Dang! I got it. I've know idea how though. For some reason, I always felt that I am under the shadow of my father who is also a lawyer and a professor in law school. Truthfully, I could never be like him. Why? Because I'm a lazy bugger and I don't love "LAW" that much either, I'm just doing it because I am being very realistic. This job generates good income. Yeah, call me lame...LoL.

Being a lawyer is not always hard actually, sometimes it's also easy when you have been practicing for years. You know what to deal and what to say to your client. However, being one is awfully tiring!! You don't really work like any other office workers, come to the office at 9:00 am and get out from the office at 5:00 pm. We don't actually have time! I can go home the next day if my client demand the works to be done promptly. If the works are going to pile up again, I bet that my weight will be wasting and wasting away. When I got stressed out, I forgot to eat and I don't really enjoy sleeping. Strangely, nowadays whenever I got pissed my temper has toned down, it must be the age thing. As you grow older you got wiser.

I don't deal with the court people apparently and I thanked God for that. Litigation is suck, well to me at least. I do the corporate stuff but that doesn't mean that I don't deal with any civil servant. Jeez..talk about civil servant, omg..they are so freaking lazy. Sorry, I don't want to rant about them how I'm utterly pissed most of the time with Government agents. So, you think that being a lawyer is such a glamourous job? Not really. Yes, we sometime got invited to attend event held by our clients, or the embassy whatever..still BORING!! I don't do those lately. Usually, one of the partners asked me to join along because I was talkative and could mingle well with the crowd?! *cough* basically, I was trying to check out the good looking guys..hahahaha..LoL..nah, Joking.

So, there you go...Jeez..what a boring entry! As you know I don't have anything better to do. AND..about the fanfic..I'm slowly updating it. All the inspirations are bulked up in my head it's just that I got so tired lately to even type anything, but yeah, I'm seriously going to update it. Be very prepare..hehehe..I hope I can keep my words, yeah, lawyer..*cough* don't trust them.

Wasted...and...I've FOUND a NEW HEROINE!

2004-10-21T22:59:00.000+07:00
Mood: Relaxing
Pick Up: If Only -Ling Xiang lan (remixes)

Before that I want to say Thank you to Amy and of course to her parents, Uncle and Auntie Peng who made me feel so at home. I've no idea though, I just felt like I was in my second home the minute I stepped into Amy's house. It's a weird feeling that I could not describe, maybe I was part of her family in my past life (hehehe...). Oh yeah, not to mention I got introduced to her whole big family, the group of aunties, haha..i did not even feel awkward at all surprisingly. Yes, I can understand a little bit Mandarin too, the simple phrase yo! Not the complicated one *sweat* Hmm..so, yeah I got two languages that I should polish actually, first, Japanese and second Mandarin. Hehehe..One cannot be ambitious I'd stick to Japanese first and then polish the other one later.

I think my venture in Malaysia has been described pretty well by Amy, so yeah, I could not be bothered to blurt it out again here. Slap me, I'm just lazy. Anyway, I met new friends too, thanks to Amy. To my surprise, I clicked so well with Krist, Amy's best buddy. Dang..I can talk for hours about Rock Band, hmm..it's my favorite topic btw. We even think of forming a band and I'd be the lead vocalist because basically I'm loud and I sounded not so bad after all..LMAO and currently looking for a suitable name for our band..I proprosed "Bernards" He thought that "The Vodkas" sounded better..hmm..It's sort of reminded me of someone who got drunk and said something funny like "There's a drug inside a drug" ..hahah.yeah..Huh? that's my first reaction oh..and there's another "Twuck" ..Bwaahahahahha, of course I said that reminded me of tweety.."I tot I taw a putitat!" Do you know that I'm so worse when I drink alcohol, yes I did not get drunk but I become a bit high and laugh at those who got drunk hilariously. Jeez, I remembered that I did compose some sarcastic lyric or more to say "rude lyric" in which I believe if it's put on a shelf, there's got to be PG label or worst, it might be banned!

I did eat a lot of seafood and by the love of God, I looked chubbier. The weird thing as soon as I got home, my appetite just drop! So quaint! I think before I know I might lose weight again by mid next month.I need to drop 2-3 kg anyway. Enough abt weigh..I hate that topic but then again if I have to mention about Food..hmm..I don't know what to say.
I love food but to be realistic, I got to keep my weigh stable. Speaking of food..OMG, Amy's mother, she's a good cook. She fixed me lunch on Sunday Afternoon after a big Dim Sum Breakfast. Yeah, Amy's parents love me for the fact that I like to eat and know what to order. I am thinking for the next visit, I'm going to ask Amy's mother to teach me how to cook.

Do you know that my pick up mood song is actually a song from the 1930's sang by a diva from Shanghai called Li Xiang Lan. Do you know that her history is pretty interesting. jeez..I am going to recite what's inside the cd jacket ..here it goes.
Li Xiang Lan was a Manchurian born Diva whose life underwent so many transformations that they would appear to be the machination of a scripwriter had they not actually happened. Hailed as the flower of Manchukwo, the Japanese puppet state of occupied Northeastern China presided over by the last emperor "Pu Yi" during WW II, Li starred in films produced by China and Japan. Fluent in Mandarin and Japanese, blessed with stunning good looks and a voice showed European operatic quality was compared to young Hollywood diva Deanna Durbin, Li embodied the Japanese ideal of Chinese maiendenhood. Ok..I got to cut it short...now..anyway she held a concert in year 1945 and apparently that was her last concert because she got suspected of collaborating with the enemy, so she got arrested. A bigger surprise followed, and the charges withdrawn, when it was discovered that though Chinese born, Li was in reality a Japanese named Yamaguchi Yoshiko..DANG!! OMG..her life sounded like Mata hari the spy. She was expelled from China and resumed her career in Tokyo and achieved new cinematic heights under the direction of Akira Kurosawa and EVEN starred in a few American Movies under the name Shirley Yamaguchi. Married to sculptor, Isamu Noguchi but later got divorced. PHEW..she changed her career and left entertaintment world to go for career in politic. She was elected to the Diet from 1974 to 1992 and helped mend fences with Chinea where, in the wake of post-Cultural Revolution "open door policy", she was welcomed back with open arms. The publication of her autobiography and reissue of her old recodings helped gain Li/Yamguchi a new generation of Chinese fan..WOW..COUNT ME IN. I LOVE this WOMAN Already. hmm..now I got to search for that Autobiography of hers..I hope they do sell it in English. She got such an interesting LIFE!! Amazing. Yeah, her voice is very angelic. To be honest, I listen to the non-remix version. Yeah the CD that I bought contained the 1930's Shanghai Divas. It got 2 CD's in it, one of the remix version while the other one is the original version. I'm always open to music, so yeah I listen to those particular song. Yeah, Li Xiang lan..my new heroine.

Ok, this got to be my longest entry by far. That's ok, since I've not been updating my blog like ages. So wasted now, I need to sleep. Catch you later!!!

DANG!

2004-10-13T10:28:00.000+07:00
Mood: Weird
Pick up: Tori Amos -Crucify Ourselves

Ok..I'm feeling weird lately. I've no idea. Oh no, it got nothing to do with my work (which always suck!). My life in general..hmm..just feel weird, I cannot desribe it. Do you believe in fate? Waa..I'm talking too deep, nah, I'm not going to blab about it. Ok, how about Miracle? Jeez, that too is unbelievable. Remember Dante's quiz? I'm supposed to be EVIL right? How could believe in those stuffs? Alright, let's not talk about deep thoughts, It gives me blunder and headache.

Right, now, I got a return ticket to visit Amy this Friday until Tuesday. Apparently, my crazy cousin is going there too. I might meet her there. Yup, she is crazier than me. Although two years younger than me, her thoughts are far worst..hahaha..imagine Dante's Level 9! She has an older sister who's around my age in the family I mean big family, whenever my other cousins see the three of us they went.."OMG, IT's the Witches from the EAST!!" "Oh No..the Bitches are HERE"..hahaha. Seriously, if we combine together, I bet the sky will fall down and world is falling apart. Basically, among the three of us, i'm in the middle. JEez, I'm not proud of this either, hehehe.

Oh yeah, the credit card bills have arrived..yup there's the Engimono invoice there..hmm..I thought I'm going to be like Utterly broke..my bad..I was wrong. I'm not THAT broke, I can still save some..haha, Thank God for that.

Hmm..I remember now, there's this V6 quiz? I took it the first time but then this is the second time and I cannot believe this..I got Masa at first and now INOCCHI?

You are Inocchi, lol! Yes, that's the story of your
life. Everything's a joke or something to talk
about. You talk the most, you joke the most,
and you're probably the most fun to be around.
You're always happy and you bring a lot of life
to Tonisen, or the whole group in general for
that matter. You make sure life doesn't get too
serious and you're usually getting the audience
involved. Three laughs for you!

Which member of V6 are you?
brought to you by Quizilla

You are Inocchi, lol! Yes, that's the story of your life. Everything's a joke or something to talk about. You talk the most, you joke the most, and you're probably the most fun to be around. You're always happy and you bring a lot of life to Tonisen, or the whole group in general for that matter. You make sure life doesn't get too serious and you're usually getting the audience involved. Three laughs for you!

Alright, truthfully do I represent anything there? hahaha..Maybe! DANG! I'm flattered to resemble such a breezy, lovable, fun loving character like him. He may not be the most favorite but he is one of my favorites.

EVIL QUIZ

2004-10-07T13:00:00.000+07:00
Mood: Pissed!
pick up: Minmi - TTT

I'm just going to post this EVIL QUIZ that Jen gave it to me..here's my result!!

The Dante's Inferno Test has banished you to the Eigth Level of Hell - the Malebolge!
Here is how you matched up against all the levels:
Level Score
Purgatory (Repenting Believers) Very Low
Level 1 - Limbo (Virtuous Non-Believers) Very Low
Level 2 (Lustful) Very High
Level 3 (Gluttonous) Moderate
Level 4 (Prodigal and Avaricious) Very High
Level 5 (Wrathful and Gloomy) Very High
Level 6 - The City of Dis (Heretics) Moderate
Level 7 (Violent) High
Level 8- the Malebolge (Fraudulent, Malicious, Panderers) Very High
Level 9 - Cocytus (Treacherous) Very High

Take the Dante's Divine Comedy Inferno Test

Well, I'm not proud of myself..OMG..I'm near perfect EVIL..LOL!! so.are you going to try it too? I dare you!!

Time to Slim down!!

2004-10-06T11:21:00.000+07:00
Mood: Hungry
Pick up: Franz Ferdinand - Take Me Out

Who says that I never complain about my weight? haha..wrong! I hate my hips for sure.It gets bigger if I gain weigh and that happens like every month, PMS! Jeez I eat like a bulldozer in during my pms worst of all..constipation..HAHAHA..so disgusting if I have to describe this in detail. Ok..now my food venture yesterday..with my colleague. We went out for lunch at this Italian restaurant..OMG they served GOOD FOOD! I ordered the most delicious spaghetti ever and what made me feel so guilty was the DESSERT. OMG that was so delicious and I was speechless. I ordered this ice cream with strawberry syrup and fruits but underneath it was crumps of crunchy cheese cake...slurp. I vacuum it! *sweat* And then my colleague's dessert arrived ..she could not finish her dessert and guess what I did..yup! I finished hers. Talk about gluttony! I cannot help it..oh well yeah I do yoga everyday now, the one that burns your calory so..oh I did not feel guilty about it and yes, I've gained a kilo or two now. I realize that my hips are getting bigger it could not fit in me..LoL!I wish my legs are slimmer..DANG! pear shape body is killing me sometime. Yes, I am but human and I'm vain. Still, do you really want to torture yourself on an extreme diet? No way! well, my goal is now to stay healthy and not being overweight and as I look at myself in the mirror..oh well, I'm not fat but a bit fuller than before.

Enough about slimming down two or three inches..now..it's time to reveal about my evil deed that I've done yesterday. Yeah, I always hate stupid people in denial. So I came out with an Evil plan. Why do I have to get mad..I retaliate..HAHA. Yeah, the best way to get revenge is to spam your enemy with annoying junk mail i.e porn one..be it for straight sleazy slut porn or sleazy gay one..hahaha. That's what I did! Thanks for the help Jen for adding that slut into porn mailing list..LoL. I'm so Evil.hahaha!

What else? Oh yeah..at last! My piano got fixed yesterday. Apparently I broke the hammer of the keyboard. I must've been so pissed that day to have enough strenght to break it. It's all fixed now. I can play it again. Jeez, I have not played it in months, my fingers are stiff, I bet. Oh well, time to practice again (if I have time or make my time for it). So many things to do so little time. That's it. Not a long entry but yeah..that's all about it for now.

NEW MONTH!!! BEWARE OF BABOONS!

2004-10-02T08:46:00.000+07:00
mood: a bit Jumpy here and there
pick up: Disappear - INXS

Yeah, it's October now. Wow...time flies so fast when you do something with your life. Well, I don't exactly do something extraordinary with my life but this year jeez..so many unexpected things had happened. Thanks to jdorama that I could meet new friends, we even become so close and I could never imagine that myself. Example? There's Jen, Amy, Corinne, Polly, Zaza and Jeez..Tammy I wish you have Msn or Yahoo..*tsk..tsk..tsk..* we can chat away!!

OMG..Amy I cannot imagine that I will meet you this month! Haha, you've been planning things with Oscar right, so yeah, watch your ass you'll see this so called "bitchy queen" in person and judge for yourself..:P So whoelse need visitation?! I like to travel around so yeah, that's why it's always such an excitement for me to see my friends for REAL. I wonder who's next? *scratch head*

I've hardly bitched around lately in this blog too much works occupied my mind and it got me lost there for a moment that I forgot to blog out about some stupid idiot person or probably I got consumed with my works that I forgot that stupid idiots do exist in real life. Well, last month I have not met any but friends do encounter those kind of species. Amy..hang in there! it's tough dealing with Baboons but I know you can do it. YES GIRLS..this month awareness.."BEWARE OF BABOONS" they are everywhere and sneaky. They have two personalities that can sting you at anytime. This type of baboon usually smart as in swooning girls like prince charming but just give them sometimes..they will sting you!

How to detect? *cough* If you think that your boyfriend is somewhat acting like prince charming that's good BUT just be aware how long does this prince charming will last? I remembered that I encounter one Baboon! More like Scorpion Baboon. That was in 1997..yeah long time ago. Such a RICH guy (jeez..his dad is a conglomerate), graduated from Top university in the US got master degree from yet another Ivy league university..*sweat* He was such a romantic tart! Sweet talks and gosh all girls will just sweep over by his feet. Not too mention his look was not bad at all and of course his glittery fortune and wealth. So, yeah I dated him three times and then..THAT'S IT. I said let's be friends or just busines connection because I need rich client like him ..LoL (cough ..yeah he's one of our clients now)Why did I step backward? well, I smelt something fishy. He got tons of women behind him..who would not want him though? he got everything. oh yeah..His brother was even Hotter! LoL. Anyhow, he's married now with two kids..jeez I don't want to talk about how his now wife was actually sort of whoring around in front of him before she got him for real..*sweat* SO yeah, the Baboon got the Whore. LMAO. They are a perfect match I guess. Glad that I did not end up with him. Phew! Still, he;s a nice guy not acting like Baboon to the max..I think you know what I mean Amy..I'm comparing him with your pukey..retarded past life Baboon.

Yup..there you go!! Rambling about Baboon. Hear me this, I will shoot all Baboons who have no brain and try to hurt my friends!! *Get riffle from my closet and aim* ALL Retarded Baboons Should DIE!

Slow Day

2004-09-29T14:45:00.000+07:00
Mood: Pensive and Bored
Pick up: Kimi dake ni - Tokio

Kyo wa nan yoobi desu ka? Aarrgh..Sui yoobi? ni sen yo nen, Kyu gatsu, nijuu kyu nichi. Watashi no jinsei wa nani ga ottano desu ka. Hmm..Nani mo ottoranakatta. Ah...kinoo, kaigo ga okyakusan ni aimashita. Sono kaigo ga hontou ni tsumaranai node, watashi wa toki doki okubi wo shimashita. Naze kyo nihongo o hanashimasu ka. Tabun, nani o subeki ga wakarimasen..Ima wa, atama no naka de marude konran shiteiru. Moo takusan ni shigoto aru node, atama no naka ni nani mo kangaete iru, eeehh...watashi ga baka onna ni kaeta desu ka. Waaa...Ochitsukinasai!!! Eh..odorokitakotoni! itsukaetekitemo, hontou ni atama ni tsuite aru mono wa watashi no nihon go ga totsuzen bera bera deshou. Demo, jisseikatsu kimon ni omotte iru node, watashi no nihongo ga umaku wa hanaseru no wa dekimasen. OWARI NI... watashi no jinsei ga omoshirokunakatta.

Yes!!! what am I rattling about?! I must be delirious again. Heck I don't even care the grammar too. That's the shortest entry showing of my awful Japanese profiency which can come out of the blue and then be forgotten again. Let just say that I will take that LONG VACATION in December!! yeah..maybe to Japan!! Woo hoo!! Roaming alone in the winter..YAY!! Oh...yeah Amy..prepare to see me this October! *fingers crossed*

Random Rambling..nonsense

2004-09-27T13:31:00.000+07:00
Mood: Blur
Pick up Song: Paradise Ginga - Tokio

Last week, I've been posting here and there about me got stuck in the office until 2:30 am for doing something unbelievably annoying. There were tension here and there but so glad that was over. What I need now is a miracle to happen to me taking me away from all this plain stressful, monotonous and flat work life! Yeah, the tension of work has always been there, come and go as it pleased but it always lingers in the head and bugs the living daylight of me.

Hmm..what have I done lately? JEez, nothing much! I did buy some cds (Lead, Jay Chou, *cough* Duran Duran) and yeah..i took a pic of myself yesterday just want to see whether my eyes were still intact since I've been losing my sleep more and more each day. Good thing..no eye bag! Skin..yeah..still pale and pinkish, hair..yup..last time I check it's still red-brownish! No make up..God..I need a hair cut! My hair is growing longer and longer and I'm so reluctant to go the hairstylist. Nevermind.

As I listen to this Hikaru Genji's song of Tokio version- Paradise Ginga..it's confirmed. I need to find a paradise to help me forget about the works..mostly! Oh God, the rhytm is so catchy!! Gosh..it made my head nods here and there. Hehee..I'm delusional now. I've no idea what I'm talking about. My brain has scattered all over the places...or did I leave it at home and forgot to bring it to the office?

My God..I got to stop now, or else I will keep on rambling without any reason. OK..those whoever read this entry, get a grip because you will be confused! because I'm confused myself!!

Another Day in Paradise

2004-09-21T17:47:00.000+07:00
Mood : Toxic Girl -King of Convenience

I'm currently happy for someone, so Happy that I could not even describe it here. And I really hope that her happiness last for lifetime. It is an unbelievable happiness that make me lost words to share it here. Right, now back to my real life. Back to ME!

It's a good thing that I heard today that my onsite location will end at the end of this month. Meaning that I will have time to visit V6 forum again and post some. However, I think my schedule would be remain hectic since it's the end of the year. Usually clients start to yap around like crazy at this time. Sigh...So, yeah, I hope I can manage my time to even update the fan fic that I've been put on hold not too mention the real fiction too.

Another thing, my sensei eagerly wants me to go for Japan Foundation test next year..haha..do you know what that means right? I got to bust my ass of to study hard. Seriously, yesterday I spent three freaking hours just to polish up my basic Japanese grammar in my room. It was murderous. Tonight, I might want to speed up a bit and of course soem Kanji's too. What's my aim to learn this language anyway?
Nothing really, basically I love learning language. It was a good thing that I put my Mandarin class on hold. I was completely confused when I saw my mother watching a Chinese Drama and then I started to pick up some phrases (basic phrases) for one or two. And then I went blank. Jeez, Mother! I should go back to my room these two languages gotten me confused now. Concentrate..focus on Japanese not Mandarin..repeat, Japanese and not Mandarin. Nah..I won't take those two languages simultaneously (my sensei can speak both fluently!) I'm this old and that ambitious when it comes to language.

Alright..what else..Yeah, my ex. He bugged me last week. Seriously, I don't love you anymore so please stay away! What's wrong with all the men in this world. Your love does not live here anymore! Surprisingly I'm still in good terms with him despite that he went with the bitch. Hahaha..but I'm glad I'm not with him anymore. I could not imagine myself being with him *go away..bad thoughts* Eew..no way. It's a good thing that he lives in UK! thousand miles away from me, just stay that way ok. He did ask about whether I date someone, well none of your business boy..I'm perfectly happy with my single life! And..he has to cope with having such a pain in the ass current g/f. Well, your bad for choosing her. I had a good time with you three years ago but that's it. Thanks for all the good memories you gave me..you got to move on boy..forget about me! Don't bug me and just stay with her.

Sigh..that's it from now. The story of my life, la di da! One thing that I learn from living in this world for the whole 29 yrs of my life...no matter how bad things are at least we should try to look on the bright side! :)

I'm Dead Tired

2004-09-16T21:53:00.000+07:00
Mood: Tired -She will be loved -Maroon 5

Jeez, I've no idea if I have the strength to type after long hours in confine room reviewing documents under camera surveillance. Yeah, as if I were going to steal anything from there, Whatelse .. Finger Print password to enter the data room..hmm...I got to share the room with eight others including accountants. Gosh, it's really hard to describe what kind of place that was.

I always come home with my brain and body drained almost like a dry well. Got no strenght to write anything, not even the fiction that I need to finish. My brain is always working but my strenght is..goodness almost below zero. I'm blank, cannot think anything straight. Oh yeah I was a bit pissed with this junior that I work with today. He kept on talking and talking, less working. Worst of all he sat next to me. I've finished reviewing like 6 companies which are more or less 20 folders or so. At 18:00 i've finished it and I said to him.."OYY..can you work faster and less yapping.." So, I just could no longer wait for him and my two other colleagues. Alright guys, I've been here more than 6 hours...I gotta go home.

Tomorrow is going to be the same day, I wonder if I can just skip half a day there and visit it after lunch hour. After all I've done so many things today. I neeed to sleep more ..NO..I need to escape!!! VACATION!!! DAMN IT. Tsukarechatta..demo nemurenai..DOSHIOOUUU!!!!!

My Ramble about Odagiri Joe

2004-09-11T05:15:00.000+07:00
Mood: After the Rain 窶� The Uncoloured

I've been postponing to make this entry for two weeks now. Oh well, it's about time I feature it. Not so much information in it but I treat it merely as my ramble concerning him. so..here we go....
Odagiri Joe, perhaps one of the few Japanese actors who is fluent in English. I have no idea why they don窶冲 bother to learn it? And why should we bother to learn Japanese anyway..yeah right look who窶冱 talking, I窶冦 still busting my ass to learn Japanese and tried to gain some Kanji. Anyhow, most of the fan girls who drool over him (er..ok, not only fan girl but regular fan of Joe) knows where he got his fluency in English. He went to California State University at Fresno, majoring in Performing Arts, and Humanities I hope I get that right or else some fan girl will barge in and protest that is wrong you bitch! Whatever, I窶冦 not interested in his toothbrush anyway or the size of his underwear.

So where were we? Oh yeah, this guy debuted in 2000 prancing around in a ridiculous costume as a hero. Tokusatsu Hero to be exact. I love watching tokusatsu TV series despite having a fit laugh looking at the costume that shows the plastic or metal muscle bulging everywhere, not that part. Don窶冲 think of it! Yes, he played Kamen Rider Kuuga. Teacher by day and tokusatsu hero by..er..well anytime he bumped into a monster. And guess what? Because of him, Kamen Rider窶冱 rating went sky high. Not only children were so anticipating to watch him but also some working women, perhaps that includes some obachan too. I notice that after that they always cast bishonen guy as Kamen Rider (watch the Ryuuki series..God Lord, bishonen!.)

He modeled a bit here and there and also appeared in one of my favorite J-movies called 窶労ubaku窶� He only has a very small role there, until he appeared in a controversial film called 窶弃latonic Sex窶�. The title may raise one eye brow but in fact it was a very good film so the critique says. Nah, I could not be bothered to ramble about his character in that movie. He did some dramas, satorare, kao, OL Visual ladies, what else? So many..!! Of course the recent one, Taiga drama, Shinsengumi as Saitou Hajime. He doesn窶冲 talk much in that drama though. Just looking mean, mysterious and unpredictable. Who needs him to talk? Continue to look sexy in those ancient costumes!! He does look good in ancient costume outfit except in Azumi, as a kabuki killer, you know what I窶冦 talking about right? It窶冤l be an endless list to talk about his career in movie since he窶冱 so popular now. He went to Cannes to promote Akarui Mirai (absurd movie and surreal), become a drummer in that one movie what it窶冱 called again? Anyway, he窶冱 not the lead, it窶冱 Masato Hagiwara, he窶冱 the lead.

(photo courtesy of wai)

His latest gossip, about love life? Well he dated Mizuno Miki and now he窶冱 with Shibasaki Kou. Good thing that this guy has good taste when it comes to woman. See, I told you I know nothing about Joe. I only know he is a hot guy blessed with talent in acting. I wonder what the heck happened to his single with that dorky cheesy cover. I would not have thought that it was Joe窶冱 work. Another thing that I cannot comprehend about Joe..WHAT窶儡 WITH THE PERM?! Just do that breezy casual hair. Stick to that will you? I mean even in photo shoot. My goodness what the hell is going on with the hairstylist anyway? I don窶冲 even think of perming my hair! Eww. Anyhow, Joe I wish you good luck! And I promise to pay more attention in your acting from now on *cough* just don窶冲 make any more distraction..like that in shinsengumi..*cough*

Day One: on Site Auditing

2004-09-07T18:30:00.000+07:00
mood: excited but窶ｦChocolate and Cigarettes 窶迭ufus Wainwright

This is my first day, out of the office doing legal auditing. I have predicted before I arrived at that place, there would be around more or less ten accountants, six lawyers and another dozen of business advisors occupying the same room. I was right. I could see documents, papers and laptop were lying around on the table. Do you want me to describe how accountant looks like? It consists of two elements. Microsoft excel and calculators. All of them. They are just absurd looking people confined in their own little world of numbers and calculation, except one person.

I could not believe in ocean of accountancy and lawyering, I managed to cacth one person. Of course, it窶冱 a guy. Tall, about six foot, cute Chinese guy. From head to toe I observed. That day one, he was wearing a blue shirt, black trouser and dark blue tie with motives. Even though that he was so glued to his work I grasped all the cuteness in him. He sat far away from where I sat typing away my report and stole time to write some nonsense, like this one. So, that窶冱 one blessing in disguise. I have not known his name yet or dared to ask him since the room was full of eighteen people, in which hinder my move to dig out or even check him out more. Another problem, he sat next to his colleague, a tall woman, not pretty and looking more sullen than I am. What could be worse than that? Compared to the women in that room, I believed that I was the only one who was perky and chirpy, despite that every now and then I still managed to throw dry bitchy humor or two at my colleagues. I think that he has a high position, partner level or something since around late afternoon he went to technical meeting with my boss. Damn! Is he ideal or what? Loaded and cute. Not trying to be a materialistic girl or anything but I could tell his flashy watch from two meters. Cartier, you know the same watch that Okada Junichi wears but his was stainless strap while Junichi has the leather strap. Ok, perhaps if there was no chance of getting to know this guy, I think I窶冦 quite satisfied to be a good observer. *beaten*

And..SURPRISE!!! I met my first crush back in my Junior High School year, called 窶廩窶�. He used to be my neighbor. As the door opened my eyes directed to the door and saw him. Eyes met to each other, he still recognized me and waved at me. After that, of course he went straight to my seat. After all these years, we went to the same school, only that he was four years older, yeah he was in high school and I was in Junior High school back in 1988. After he graduated from high school, I went to catholic school, which I think that was the place where I discovered the bitchy side of me. Huh, spending your high school in Catholic school can be such a dangerous place, hehehehe.

Anyhow, I could not believe that he worked there.When I was in Junior High School, I always observed him from afar and being goofy and drooly at the same time, though we窶况e known each other still, I tend to get duffus like face when I met a guy I liked back then. Not now though, I am far different more confident I guess. You just cannot doubt that he is cute, having half Asian and half Dutch blood, yup a happa boy! He even dated a famous actress two years ago but they broke up. DAMN!! We talked about work and he asked for my business card. He has brown eyes and light brown hair, just the same person that I know back then. Oh yeah, he was a former drummer too! His mother was a psychologist and a piano teacher. I always check out guys from head to toe. I was so disappointed and my adrenaline decline faster than a bullet train as soon as I saw a ring on his finger. Yup, no good. He窶冱 no longer available. Bye-bye Mr. H. So much for the excitement and disappointment at the same time. Nevermind, I stick to stare V6 guys after this for my medication. It always works wonder. When I broke up with my ex-boyfriend last year, I quickly changed every face of my boyfriend into Sakamoto, Okada and Nagano. Within a snapped my mind changed into thinking of them singing (hmm come to think of it, I might not love my ex-boyfriend as deep as I thought I was) anyway, thanks V6 guys. After this, I should turn on one of their song. Maybe Inocchi窶冱 voice will sooth my mind and give me inspiration to write something. Back to daydreaming! It窶冱 more fun. Reality bites sometime, maybe next time it won窶冲 bite. Fingers crossed. I窶冦 always optimistic. I don窶冲 want to waste my time thinking of pessimism. Let your dream set you free! Yay..baby! Smile to the world!

Oh, before I end my ramble..Corinne! You one lucky girl, you and meeting V6 for real! Hanging out with them窶ｦhmm.you窶决e the envy of the girls in the (especially those ugly girlies) whole world and I窶冦 proud of you. Again..smile to the world baby!

Dream Boy

2004-09-06T12:16:00.000+07:00
Yume no Monogatari - Tackey & Tsubasa

I actually received Dream Boy DVD around two weeks ago. I was having a very bad flu and also some bad days. Oh well, even up to know I don't feel that my mood is picking up. It's declining like a sledge ride going down the hill. I don't feel like bitching at people even worse, I pretend to smile at people and say hi and being corteous without any reason, heck ..that is not so me at all. I don't like it one bit. What the heck is going on with me anyway. Maybe I'm so bored at the office. Worst part, they assign me for on site location inspection for legal audit. What could be worse than making an acquaintance with more papers. Damn it! Sooner or later, I will have a down syndrome attack and be a retard because of seeing too many documents.

Anyway, back to Dream boy again. It's Tackey doing his butai about a Boxer who mistakenly killed a man and also accused of killing his opponent on the ring. This musical stageplay is what I called 'BOY POWER' from Johnny's Jr. Aside from Tackey, we have Kat-tun, Kanjani 8 and Ya Ya Yah (little boy Yabu..as always go the spotlight). I'm amazed to see Tackey doing a stunt like that Cirque Du Soleil. He twirled around with a rope attached on his waist like a professional acrobat and he done it so well which made me wonder,whatelse could he do beside that. Now, the Kat-tun Boys, Kame and Jin got some duets and solo here and there. They played the good guys and took side on Tackey while Kanjani 8 sided with the baddy. I'm not really familiar with all the personnels of Kanjani 8, I only know some Yokoyama Yu and Murakami Shingo (Uchi and Ryo were not part in this musical stage, even though they are still part of Kanjani 8). There's this one Obachan in the musical play, she even got to taste to be almost kissed by Tackey. Alright..let me comment one this. It seemed that the boys in Johnny's Jr are paired up by many older women lately, not that I'm complaining or anything, I wish I could particpate in line to be one of the lucky obachan paired up with one of those boys.

So, what's my rate for this one..I gave it four and a half star. It's good. Even my mother enjoyed seeing Dream Boy. Oh yeah, congratulation mother, she now recognized Tackey and even said to me he was a better singer than Okada (sorry for Okada fans, in away it's true. He sings better than Okada)Overall, Tackey's performance is good but not reach the 'Great' level yet. I did not regret in buying this DVD at all. In fact I should buy "shock" DVD with Koichi Dohmoto and Tsubasa in it. Speaking of Koichi, he conducted the whole orchestration of Dream Boy, YES everybody Koichi was the Conductor..wow! I'm amazed. This is quite surprising. Anyway, this is how the Dream Boy DVD case looks like (2 Disc).

This DVD includes the making of in Tokyo and Osaka and also Tackey's interview. Oh yeah, at the end of the musical show, you got an extra of Tackey singing his Tackey and Tsubasa's song latest album, Kat-tun and Kanjani 8 also gave their performance.Interested to buy? Quite expensive, I've spent US$ 82 for that bloody DVD. Bankrupt indeed! Not yet, wait until that Engimono box arrived ..DAMN IT! I ordered 2 volumes!!

Unidentified mood

2004-09-02T20:34:00.000+07:00
mood:Through the Blue - 20th Century

I think that is the mushiest song of Tonisen ever..I was in the bleh mood and it took me to the yawn mood. Today I got a mixed feeling. I'm so bored at the office. Good thing I bumped into zaza and Amy, having a chit chat for a while and randomnly choosing emoticons. I guessed I pick some brutal ones. Plus, there are so many request from the girls to me to write up a story where they can kill bimbos. What really makes me laugh was Jen's request to write a sequence where she can kill this denial bimbo. She even requested for big T-rex pet..hahaha..yeah I managed to make one brutal scene where that bimbo got one of her arms bit off by Jen's pet. I'm quite brutal. Hmm..not too mention Amy's request to kill her ditzy foe. I'm doomed to kill people. Oh yeah who's my target? Of course that Girly Asshole..what? who again? oh yeah, lovedeepshit. I made hims girly darth, who was in denial. He is this character that loves hunky guys. huahahaha! You know, a pen can be sharper than a sword!

Oh yeah, sad, jdorama went down since yesterday. I don't know what's the cause maybe changing server or whatever. I just hope that it won't die forever. Gosh, I've never been so attached to any site except that one and of course the latest one..V6 Squad. Bascially V6 Squad forum was made to back up our V6 forum in jdorama. The thing is it's not the V6 that I'm thinking of, it's my cool friends there. We just don't want to loose contact. Yeah, I love you girls! Now, within just 4 days, we've posted more than 1000 post in total. Hmm..gotta admit, the girls there are Whore Posters..that includes me of course, Whore Poster No.1 I think my post is nearly 200. I bet by the time I finish writing on this blog and log in into that forum my posts would reach 200 plus. Hahaha..an accomplished whore poster. Anyway, Big thank to zaza! You are GREAT! We all love you!

Do you remember about the abnormal bitch at the office? she still acts that way. Freaking bitch..seek help! She doesn't realize that she's abnormal. I called her Manic Depressive Bitch in Denial. Get a freaking life!!

Bummer, I'm back to my bleh, bored, bitchy and bothersome mood.Yes, I'm on a period. Upsy and downsy mood. You gotta admit, it's hard being a woman. But, a world without women is like a dry well. Deep but nothing nourishing. In this world women is the ground of the earth and the fresh water. Where should we put the men? They are just the Air. Sometime they smell nice, doesn't smell at all or the worst Stink! the last one, unfortunately breed properously than the first one while the middle one who doesn't have any smell, oh well it can go to either one. See, I'm rambling nonsense. It's the period I tell ya! Before I go to my bleh mood, I shall just end it here. Maybe I should put Stone Temple Pilot song...hmm..where the heck are my hard core metal song (iron maiden, anthrax and sepultura..woooaa..I was a teenager with a big F*** up mind back then..I created fanfic more unbelievable than the current one I've been making I was only 15 yrs old for crying out loud!) Ok..I think I really have to end it here.

Announcement abt Jdorama

2004-08-30T10:55:00.000+07:00
Girls!

As you may have heard that there's a possibility that Jdorama site will gone bye-bye, I have no idea for how long. But I will keep on updating the V6 pic in the restricted zone and of course the fan fic. For the time being the fan fic shall be put in the briefcase. So far I've been keeping in touch with Angel, Mix, Pati through msn/yahoo msg.And..Zaza has registered to Invision free to back up our forum. I will make the link of the site later. So far only Zaza and I has registered. Perhaps it will be great if this forum is also linked to Liss site...is that a good idea or not? Mixx..we can also put joe's thread there? how's that?!

O, this is the link V6 Squad

hehehe..so far only zaza and I have registered..*beaten*

Alex Wang the Wonder Boy

2004-08-30T09:38:00.000+07:00
Mood:I Can't Stop Loving -Wang Lee Hom

Hear my voice is Wang Lee Hom or also known as Alexander Wang Japanese debut Album. His name is no stranger to those who listen Mandarin Pop, since he has established his career in the mid 90's, I forgot exactly what year. The first time I saw him was in a pv in which I could not remember the title of the song and that was his debut album in Mandarin. Well, I always notice the look first and then listen to the song carefully. To be honest, if you're an artiste there are two things that at least got to be considered. If you're not good looking you have to have an extraordinary talent or something different of the public to notice OR if you have the good look less talent at least you can sell your image and face. BUT if you have both..that's a plus. Apparently Alex Wang has both. The look and talent. That's why I called him the wonder boy. His ability to play violin I believe is as equal as Vanessa Mae, but he prefers not to be an accomplished classical violin player I guess or any other instrument that he can play flawlessly.

Born on 17 May 1976, American born Chinese (Parents have Taiwanese blood) this guy is considered a genius. He plays piano, violin, drum, guitars, God knows whatelse. He showed his prowess in playing the violin at a very tender age. If I was not wrong, I read somewhere that he was a valedictorian in his high school. After that he went to Williams College in Boston to study his music and then get his MA in Berklee. Dear God, I wish I had half of his talent in music. Maybe my musical talent can only be measured just half of his fingertip. Not only that, Alex also explores his acting talent. He co-starred with Aaron Kwok and Norika Fujiwara in China Strikes Force, after that a movie with Stephen Fung in it. Damn, what's the title of that movie, it's quite cool futuristic movie.

Why all of sudden he releases a debut album in Japanese? Hm, it's all because his debut appearance in a Japanese Movie called Moonchild with Hyde and Gackt. The movie was a hit in Japan and then of course being good looking and all, he got caught by the Japanese viewers, I bet the ladies! Not only that, his song "Last Night", which was actually from one of his Mandarin album, was inserted as one of the soundtrack for Moonchild. After that he released a single in Japanese called "Dream Again" to test the water. I believe it was quite a success or else he would not have released an album Here My Voice. Btw, here is his pic and the pic of his latest album (courtesy of yesasia):

So what's in his Japanese album that I got to say? Well, this album is very pop-ish, easy to listen to. Personally, I like it.For those who are not familiar of him, let me tell you, Alex Wang has a beautiful soulful voice. If I have to describe it to any Japanese Singer? No doubt, he can sing as good as Dochin from Chemistry or Hirai Ken. I'm not promoting or exagerating, just telling the truth but he is more in pop style not R&B although many of his Mandarin pop album has slowly influenced by a little bit of R&B and Jazz especially his latest "Unbelievable". My personal favorite song in that album was "I can't Stop Loving You" and "This Could be Love" which has a little bit R&B in it.Another thing, he also written and sang for a Spiderman soundtrack but the song was only released in Asia. The colour of that song was completly different, it was punk-rockish and I was quite amazed that he can sing it very well. Oh yeah, since he is not native Japanese, wonder how he sings those in Japanese right? He does it so well! though sometime i can still sense his trace of american accent, that happens in his Mandarin album as well. Nonetheless, he sounded Japanese.

Now that his popularity is slowly growing in Japan, I think Japanese hunk should watch their back too. He recently involved in a jdorama or is it another jmovie in which he plays as killer and starring alongside Kyoka Suzuki. Yup, that lady got lucky again, paired up with a guy eight years younger than her.A side note, presently He becomes a very good friend of Gackt and also Hyde. When Alex held a concert in Taiwan, Gackt attended his concert too. I also saw him once being interviewed in PopJam at NHK, of course the whole conversation was in English. Now, this guy has been busting his ass off to polish his Japanese. Yeah, basically he can speaks four language I guess, English, Mandarin, Cantonese and now working on his Japanese. So, I hope he will reach more success in Japan.

OMG I MET BUNCH OF BUTCH LOOKING FAN GIRLS

2004-08-29T00:47:00.000+07:00
Mood: Hear My Voice - Wang Lee Hom

Hi girls..I've put the comment box with HALOSCAN.It's prettier I guess :)oh yes you can still post long.

What did I do today. Nothing much really. I met my cousin she's going to leave to Philadelphia on Monday, aww, I'm going to miss her. Tomorrow it's her last day and we're going to have a barbeque party for her farewell and yes, her birthday too. Oh yeah, another thing. I bumped into some annoying girlies in book store. I was actually trying to take a sneak peak on Men's non-no this month edition. Nonetheless, they were crowding the hall magazine stalls, unwrapping the idols magazine like there was no tomorrow, giggling and commenting their idols, which idols again? Oh, many ..i.e Look, look that's Arashi, OMG kawaii ne..etc..blab..blab..Tomoya..tomoya..Kame, that's like supposedly your son or something. At that time I was thinking like this, May I bonk your head so you could move all your BUTT out of my face? Fat Ugly Bitches!!!
Seriously, they annoyed the hell out of me. Can you imagine if I bitch around V6 in front of them or any members of Johnny's Jr, they might choke me to death I guess or give me that look attempting to kill me or something! They were sitting there undecided which one to buy..no...wink up..no..no..duet..I said to myself..hey, butch girls there are six of you why not buy ALL!! I WANT TO BROWSE..Move your freaking butt! Oh yeah, after 45 minutes, they scramed carrying tons of plastic bags..I assumed it must've been 2 kg of Potato Magazine, 5 kg of Wink-up Magazine and God Knows!!

OMG RIN!! THEY TOOK THAT HAIR STYLE MAGAZINE with SHO SAKURAI on the Cover, I was going to buy it for you and send to you actually!! Stupid FAN GIRL!! FYI, I think I saw Ando's Men's non-no..I can check that thing again NEXT WEEK if anybody wants it!!

I'm getting ridiculous, maybe I'm pms-ing. Oh yeah, Pati..the lucky girl who went to V6 concert and got a backstage pass had managed to be the object of jealousy of the girls in V6 thread perhaps MANY GIRLS around the world. Good for you Pati!! Speaking of V6, my cousin went into my room she saw V6 calender and went nuts. Yeah, I taught this American girl to love them. Omg, they are so cute. So I asked point one you think look the best...Of course it was obvious, Okada was her first and then she scribled the calendar and said..Oh this guy is cuter!.Yeah ..she decided Nagano is way better and then..Sakamoto! Damn you girl, not only we share the same blood but we also share the same taste in guy. First Takeshi and now them...oh yeah Ito Hideaki too. She revealed something, er..She met a Japanese guy who was doing a Ph.D in Harvard, cute too bad, he's not available anymore, poor girl. I think I should just drag her from Philadelphia to Tokyo instead.

The ramble stopped here for a while. Oh yeah, I think I'm going to postpone about featuring Joe because I thought I've found someone who's more interesting to be featured. He is Wang Lee Hom. American born Chinese, singer...more like genius. If you have watched "Moonchild" there you go, you'll know him. He recently released an album in Japanese Language..I'm impressed..SO GOOD!! Better save for my next ramble..Adios!!

2004-08-29T00:41:00.000+07:00
Haloscan commenting and trackback have been added to this blog.

Virtual or Reality?

2004-08-27T01:00:00.000+07:00
Mood: Hands in My Pocket 窶鄭lanis Morisette

Nowadays, it has become so blur between the virtual world and reality. In my life I have two of them. One my real life where I meet friends, colleagues, relatives or someone that I bumped accidentally. And the virtual one, where I have created a bond with new friends across the country. I think that is incredible. I窶况e never felt so close with my friends that I have not even met yet in person. Oh well, I plan to meet them, all I got to do is just save money and fly to their country. There is a definite plan that I will meet one of my virtual friends. I usually spend my time with friends or relatives in real life during weekends. Oh yeah, there窶冱 a family brunch party on Sunday, on Saturday窶ｦI got engagement to accompany my friend and my cousin to this Ramen Restaurant.

This is the good thing about technology. Every thing is borderless. I am so glad that I receive the advantage of this. I think in away it also contribute my happiness. I treat them as friends that I have in real life. They have feelings to you know. Sometimes People misunderstood virtual friends. Although you don窶冲 see them but it doesn窶冲 mean that they don窶冲 have feeling. You actually encounter person, it窶冱 just that they窶决e not in the same place, maybe not sharing the same time and we cannot see their face personally. But, they are real! I believe it is such a cruel thing to do if you don窶冲 care enough about how others窶� feel even if you窶决e just posting in a forum. A Forum, now that窶冱 what I called a virtual entity where you have administrator governing it with the help of some mod to make it in order. This is another amazing discovery in virtual world.

Now, today I have decided to place a COMMENT of the Month. Yes, it窶冱 near the end of August so I decided why not pick the most interesting comment to be put in a hall of fame. I was having a hard time to pick some of the comments posted by my friends here but it turned out that I decide to pick one from someone who窶冱 reluctant to show his/her name. Although I know who the person might be. Here it is..posted on Thursday around 2:39 PM.

Is your life really THAT messed up to get so immature and over-dramatic over someone on the internet?

You must be really depressed to go as far as creating "war" virtually. It's no wonder you easily snap at forum members... you are too absorbed to the online world.

This "war" (as well as yourself) is pathetic. Do us all a favor and get a grip back to reality and chill.

Plus, you're, what, 30+ years old with this kind of attitude? Hmm...

As for that zchen deal... you are also stupid as well for missing the fact that she was being sarcastic.

It wouldn't be a surprise if you and/or your worshipping lackeys come up with a weak rebuttal.

Lol.

If you scrutinize carefully, this person has made a stupid move. Calling me feeling depressed? To get a life? Oh well, I have two life as mentioned above. I窶冦 sorry girls for not picking any of your comments I know yours were all wonderful but this one is so hilarious. Feel free to make a comment though. And let it be our lesson that Stupid Person does exist anywhere..be it in virtual world or in real world. Another stupid move that this person did窶ｦthis person mention 窶狼he Forum窶�..so I figure that this person likes to hang out in jdorama too at least or else where that idea came from anyway? Diligence is important. This person lacks that. LoL.

FYI, I am not thirty yet. I am still twenty-nine and I do have life and wonderful friends, from real world and from virtual world. I am very fortunate to have people who care for me from the two side of the worlds..no, make that all over the world. I love you girls, guys! For those who have suported me.

THIS IS WAR!!!

2004-08-26T09:11:00.000+07:00
MOOD: FUCK OFF YOU BITCH - SING BY ME!!

Do you know as a person who upholds the truth I would like to publish a DIMWIT called Zchendevlemh's pm to me..(I have to reveal my sources now ).

Akakage wrote:
I don't know how to say this, but it really bugs me when you just ignore someone's post pretending not to know anything. Are you pretending to be dumb or are you just one?

You cannot speak out yourself, so you hide behind two guys back to back you up. Such a lame thing to do. I call that manipulative. Hmm..I don't know if you have good excuse to ignore my pm this time. I'm taking this outside so it's between you and me!

I got annoyed or more like pissed actually with your attitude. If you are really smart and inteligent you do have your own thought to speak out. Sometimes being silent is uncivilized or are you always like this at the office? Don't give me a lame reason of why you never reply any of my comments?

Ever since you're active in whatever forum, it just gets ugly because you're posting such a nonsensical stuff.

Zchendevlemh:
first of all i don't think i'm dumb or pretend that i am but i rather agree if some people call me stupid

i guess one of my problems is that i find it hard to express my feelings (guilty of that), but i never hide to anyone; whose 2 guys ur talking to.. i think elti is one of them, i never manipulate them, i think u should ask first those guys ur talking to if i'ved manipulated them.

i don't really care if people are pissed by my attitude, y should i adjust; just to pleased them hell no!!! and i never said i'm smart or intelligent.
don't even know what am i in the office i'm just who i am except i don't post pics on my cubicle

hey!! i'm not the only one who posts crappy stuffs.

Akakage:

Oh..Thank God that I know that you are so stupid. I'm so relief now that I know the truth. No wonder I've been talking to a wall, so thick that it is so hard to penetrate. Seriously do you know english? Dumb and Stupid is the same thing. Check your dictionary or thesaurus. OMG..maybe you should go back to reform school or something. No wonder it took you ages just to reply a simple pm from me. You don't care if people are pissed? You are so selfish and you think that people has to adjust you and not you adjust with the environment? Yeah, it's really hard to make sense with a stupid person like you. Yeah, I call you stupid since you don't mind being called that way right? hahaha. What you don't realize that you did manipulate them. In this world girls (are you really a girl?) like you exist. You don't know what are you in your office or why are you in your office? I'm so confused there..oh wait sorry you are too stupid to explain me that I guess. My bad. What's that got to with posting pic in the cubicles? It is so incoherent..(if you don't know what incoherent meant..look at the dictionary.) It seems to me that your world is full in denial. You deny everything including the deep truth about yourself. Hm, maybe I'm talking too deep and you find it hard to understand it.

Zchendevlemh reply:
sorry i'm too stupid to understand all of that

And then I reply:
It figures, your face represent the stupidity in you

And then Zchendevlemh reply:
rather post some random or rena pics

than trying to explain any stuffs what am i doing coz i'm too s2pid to find words to explain those stuffs

And then I reply:

You can reply me with longer sentences, I thought you are too stupid to understand those. Can you be more consistent with your stupidity?

END
SHE CANNOT THINK OF ANYTHING TO REPLY!!! Maybe she's trying to be consistent with her stupidity!!

Ok..what she FAILS to UNDERSTAND that HER PMs and MINE HAVE BEEN SPREAD ALL OVER THE PLACES. Meaning, I've forward those to some of the members. HAHAHAH..Even if she publishes my pm with her false reply..nobody would believe it why? because once she replied my pm that day, I immediately spread her stupid reply all over the places..
IF YOU SEEK WAR!!! YOU ARE DEAD ZCHENDEVLEMH..Your Name Does Not Make Sense and SO DO YOU!!!

Bitching Free-I'm sick

2004-08-25T14:18:00.000+07:00
Mood: Dakishimete -Mr. Children

Today, I'm not in a bitching mood although my bestfriend who called me this afternoon from her office said that even though I'm sick, I still manage to have that crazy side of me plus the sarcasm of course. Oh well, there goes my best trait. I have not done anything much accept that my mother made me drank that Ginger potion which kind of reminded me of my conversation with Mixx that her father forced her to drink ginger broth ~LoL~ which she refused since it would create a bad breath. I really cracked up hearing that.

Well, at last I managed to find my time watching Dorama again after two months of absence (that's not so me, I'm always updated myself with the latest dorama, well lately I just could not be bothered to chaneling my energy to watch dorama because..I GOT TO SEE SO MANY REAL LIFE DRAMA!!!!). Yup, it was orange days. Good drama. Generation X type of drama like "Asunaro Hakusho". I'm not going to ramble about the drama but one thing for sure that drama brought back my nostalgia in University especially the graduation day. I remembered my graduation day. I should put that day as a surreal event that took you to a high level of trance of exuberant. Hmm..Finally you succeeded! You've passed strenous of painstaking studying plus discovered so many things especially Friendship. Aww, I'm gotten too touchy there. Hiks, I need a tissue now. Another one, in that dorama...Kou played a song again and again. A composition made by Claude Debussy "Arabesque No.1" OMG, I really should practice and play that song again.I was so fluid back then playing that song. It's been years and of course that Chopin, Polonaise..bleh..it absorbed a lot of energy to play that piece. My piano is still not well, so I better postponed it.

It's strange that I did not bitch around in this blog. IT'S NOT ME! What can you expect? I'm still sick! Feeling so drowsy, blocked nose, sore throat. I think Flu is so dangerous. THEY ARE EVERYWHERE just like STUPID VIRUS..eeww..talk about stupid virus. I'm surprised that she no longer log in as much as she used to. I thought that I would see non-existent of her but I caught her yesterday that was funny. I was having three party chit-chat with Mixx and Angel. By the time I log in the Jdorama and discovered her presence I said to them "THE MAID, THE MAID!! LOG IN, LOG IN!". Mixx and Angel went like "OMG LOGGING IN, LOGGING IN!" By the time the three of us arrived there she disappeared. Was she afraid of us? Could be! Oh yeah, A new name for her "Stupefied Pinay Air Head Maid in Training Free Hoe in Denial Pimping Bimbo."

Oh yes, I did post a comment on someone's blog..hehehe..not going to tell who and what I posted but Mixx and Angel laughed hilariously. I was so bad. *beaten* I just HATE FANGIRL!

Level	Score
Purgatory (Repenting Believers)	Very Low
Level 1 - Limbo (Virtuous Non-Believers)	Very Low
Level 2 (Lustful)	Very High
Level 3 (Gluttonous)	Moderate
Level 4 (Prodigal and Avaricious)	Very High
Level 5 (Wrathful and Gloomy)	Very High
Level 6 - The City of Dis (Heretics)	Moderate
Level 7 (Violent)	High
Level 8- the Malebolge (Fraudulent, Malicious, Panderers)	Very High
Level 9 - Cocytus (Treacherous)	Very High